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Literally no what the actual fuck headmates are created when there is a need for them NOT when you suddenly decide 'oop I want another one' and just pretend. That's all these people do. They pretend and they're literally admitting it.

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What the fuck is wrong with people. Bro I'm gonna go bash my head into a wall

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you may not want to clean your room, but you like the peace and call it brings you after

you may not want to study, but you like the confidence and satisfaction you get from being prepared

you may not not want to apologise, but you like the relief and connection that reconciliation brings

you may not want to cook, but you like the satisfaction of eating a healthy come cooked meal prepared with love

you may not want to exercise, but you like how you feel afterwards and how it makes you confident

you may not want to journal or write, but you like the reflection and calm it brings you

you may not want to step out of your comfort zone, but you like the new experiences and growth you gain from it

the constant “should i do T? what about my littles?” “should i chop off my chest? but then sometimes i wish it was bigger so that wouldnt work..?” “yay! trans tape in my amazon cart! *2 days later* wait i swear i had trans tape in here??” “i miss my long hair.” “ew my hairs so long i feel to feminine time to chop it all off!!!!”

I wonder how an endo would react to actual OSDDID distress. Like an intense flashback where alters are screaming and crying and freaking out, where you're hyperventilating and get forced out of front because you're in too bad a mental state, even though everyone is.

Or when you're being taken advantage of because of your amnesia, perhaps adding to your already huge pile of trauma.

Or being somewhere, no idea how you got there and completely lost, panicking because how the hell are you going to find your way home? Where is home? Who even are you?

*actual* OSDDID isn't fun. It isn't just having people in your head. There's so much distress involved in this.

-Jayden

(ENDOS AND PRO-ENDOS DNI)