☁️cloudy☁️

new here so just a quick intro:

i’m ftm (fakeboy), 24 years old and have lots of kinks, both hard and soft. i’ve been on and off T for 5 years and have had top surgery. lowkey detransing for real, not just for kink.

some of my kinks include:

detrans/misgendering

misogyny

dumbification/iq lowering

sissification (if not detransing)

weight gain

chastity

bnwo

bladder control

and i’m starting to get curious about farts

when i first started my transition i often interacted with the ftm community and engaged in their spaces. everyone would be talking about their dysphoria and i would always proudly say “i don’t have bottom dysphoria! i never have to worry about that surgery :)”

many of them found that kind of strange, and essentially peer pressured me into buying a packer, which i did, but wearing it made me feel so much worse. i hated how i looked with a bulge in my pants, even though all the trans guys i interacted with regularly spoke about how euphoric it made them feel.

i figured i was just one of the lucky “trans guys” that didn’t have any dysphoria surrounding my pussy, and was so wrapped up in my delusions that i didn’t even consider that i was just a girl for so many years.

obviously, i get that if i want to gain weight, i need to eat more. but how do you get past the mental block of over-filling your stomach?

i have bad emetophobia, so tbh i usually under eat, even though i never actually throw up when i stuff myself, it’s just that irrational worrying part of me y’know?