the wind-rider.

Lightning bolts during a thunderstorm

“  come  back.  come  back  to  me.  ”

“  it  was  real  for  me.  ”

“  i’ll  fight  the  bad  dreams  off  if  they  come  to  get  you.  ”

“  flowers  grow  back  even  after  the  harshest  of  winters.  you  will  too.  ”

“  i  won’t  leave  you  here  !  ”

“  we’re  in  this  together.  ”

“  i  don’t  need  your  help.  not  anymore.  ”

“  you  left  me  to  die  !  ”

“  what  if  i  never  fall  in  love  again  ?  ”

“  we  can’t  keep  doing  this.  ”

“  when  were  you  going  to  tell  me  about  this  ?  ”

“  you  need  to  stay  with  me  !  don’t  close  your  eyes  okay  ?  ”

“  my  duty  must  come  before  everything  else.  you  knew  this.  ”

“  stay  away  from  me  !  i  don’t  want  to  see  you  again  !  ”

“  there’s  nothing  you  can  do  that  will  fix  this.  ”

“  sometimes  it  feels  like  the  world  is  crumbling  beneath  my  feet.  ”

“  now  is  not  the  time  for  goodbyes.  now  is  the  time  to  fight.  ”

“ trust  no  one.  not  even  me.  you  understand  ?  ”

“  i’m  fine.  i  can  walk  on  my  own.  ”

“  please,  just  look  at  me.  ”

“  you  and  i  are  no  heroes.  ”

“  you  think  you  can  just  waltz  back  in  here  and  pretend  everything  is  okay  ?  ”

“  those  are  the  words  of  a  coward  !  ”

“  you  can’t  save  everyone.  ”

“  you’re  better  off  without  me.  ”

“  i  trusted  you  !  ”

“  you  deserve  more  than  i  can  give  you.  ”

“  please,  don’t  hurt  me  again.  ”

“  you  would  never  understand  the  pain  you  put  me  through.  ”

“  did  you  ever  love  me  ?  or  were  those  just  words  you  said  ?  ”

❛  why did you have to leave me?  ❜ ❛  how could you do this to me?  ❜ ❛  i trusted you!  ❜ ❛  i'm sorry, but i can't do this anymore.  ❜ ❛  do you even care how much you hurt me?  ❜ ❛  i'll never stop fighting for us, no matter what.  ❜ ❛  i don't know if i can forgive you.  ❜ ❛  i never thought i'd feel so alone, even when you're right here.  ❜ ❛  please don't go, i can't handle losing you too.  ❜ ❛  you were the one person i thought i could always count on. why did you have to let me down?  ❜ ❛  did you ever even care about us? about me?  ❜ ❛  i wish i could hate you for what you've done, but i can't.  ❜ ❛  why do you always have to play games with my feelings?  ❜ ❛  i never thought saying goodbye would hurt this much.  ❜ ❛  every time i close my eyes, all i see is the pain you've caused.  ❜ ❛  why do you insist on tearing us apart when we could be so happy together?  ❜ ❛  i'm tired of pretending everything's okay when it's clearly not.  ❜ ❛  i don't even know who you are anymore.  ❜ ❛  i need you to understand how much you mean to me.  ❜ ❛  i'm scared of losing you, but i'm even more scared of losing myself.  ❜ ❛  why won't you let me in? what are you so afraid of?  ❜ ❛  you were my world, and now everything is falling apart.  ❜ ❛  how am i supposed to trust anyone after what you've done?  ❜ ❛  i can't go through this heartache again.  ❜ ❛  why did you leave without saying goodbye?  ❜ ❛  how could you say something like that to me?  ❜ ❛  you've always had a way of making me feel worthless.  ❜ ❛  don't you dare walk away from me when i'm talking to you.  ❜ ❛  please, just tell me the truth, even if it hurts. i can handle it.  ❜ ❛  i don't know how to fix what's broken between us anymore.  ❜ ❛  you're not the person i fell in love with anymore.  ❜ ❛  just hold me and tell me everything will be okay, even if it's a lie.  ❜ ❛  i trusted you, and you betrayed me.  ❜ ❛  i never meant to hurt you, it was never my intention.  ❜ ❛  i've given you everything, and it's still not enough.  ❜ ❛  why do you always have to make everything about you?  ❜ ❛  why did you do it? why did you betray me like that?  ❜ ❛  i miss you ... more than words can say.  ❜ ❛  you're the best thing that ever happened to me, and i'm scared of losing you.  ❜ ❛  i'll always be here for you, no matter what. just please don't shut me out.  ❜

“  i’m  sorry,  i  can’t  control  it !  ”

“  stay  back !  ”

“  i  can  help,  you  just  need  to  trust  in  my  powers.  ”

“  i’m  dangerous.  ”

“  i  could  hurt  you.  ”

“  my  power  doesn’t  define  me.  ”

“  i’m  so  sorry  !  did  i  hurt  you ?  ”

“  the  fire  finds  a  home  in  me.  ”

“  are  there  more  like  you ? ”

“  how  did  this  happen  to  you  ?  ”

“  you’re  a  freak !  ”

“  i  wish  i  had  your  power.  ”

“  you’re  astonishing.  ”

“  you  don’t  need  these  powers  to  be  someone’s  hero.  ”

“  trust  me,  you  do  not  want  to  be  like  me.  ”

“  does  it  hurt  ?  your  power ?  ”

“  they  drained  me  of  my  abilities.  ”

“  help  me  before  i  explode.  ”

“  your  skin  is  so  cold.  ”

“  why  do  you  always  feel  so  hot  ?  it’s  like  you’ve  got  lava  running  through  your  veins  rather  than  blood.  ”

“  i  don’t  care  about  your  abilities.  i  care  about  you.  ”

storm (2024) #1 by murewa ayodele + lucas werneck

[ Reblog, Like, Interact with this post before Vendetta deletes me like she did with Ghost-rider. She says she won't do it because she worked very hard on these edits (9 Hours) but i've seen her do it to characters she loves more (Storm). The void is in my near future ... please don't let me flop. - Shulkie. ]

i don’t like posting about my personal life because i never want to treat my rp blog like a diary or anything.  but i can’t lie, my situation is bad.  it’s really, really bad.

my family passed away and left me a house they did not take care of, with no money to take care of it.  the years of neglect are catching up to me now, and i don’t have the money to repair it on my own — and i am alone, taking care of this house.  it needs a new roof, it doesn’t have a furnace, the kitchen sink is clogged? don’t know, but it stopped working, it has leaking pipes and holes in the walls / foundation that lead to pest problems.  the leaking pipes have caused mold that i’ve only found today.  left as is, myself and my dog can get extremely sick, and to be blunt, my floor will cave in.  that isn’t an if, but a when.  and these are only the urgent problems.  the house itself is unlivable (if ya ask me) by any standards and has been a money pit for years.  but i have nowhere else to go.  i tell my family about the money issues and they largely just say that sucks.  i don’t have a relationship with my parents.  my siblings who would help also don’t have the means to.  i repeat, i’m alone in this, and i don’t know what else to do.  i do have a job, but i’ve only been there 6 weeks — and straight up, i’m looking at tens of thousands of dollars in repairs at least.  despite my best efforts, i am not a rich influencer.  the job doesn’t pay enough to have it handled nearly as fast as it needs to be.  and i need every penny i can get.  so, i’m opening emergency commissions on @thundecommissions.  a promo is in progress and i’m still setting up the blog.  if you don’t want to donate to a random bitch on tumblr rp (i get it, trust me) you could opt to get something out of your expenses instead.  i have done commissions before, i am reliable — i would never attach this to my main blog and then behave diabolically.  that would be stupid.

can you tell i’m trying to maintain my humor so i don’t have a crash out beyond human comprehension

if you aren’t interested in commissions and would just like to donate, my c.ashapp is $umbriellla, or scan the code below.  otherwise, you can use paypal.me/umbriellla . it’s my only method of sending & receiving money.  i have had problems with paypal and venmo, but i will see if i can open new accounts.  i will update this post, if so.

if you don’t want commissions and can’t donate, please boost this post.  please do not just read it and keep scrolling, even if we aren’t mutuals.  this is extremely bad.  i cannot live in a house with a caved in floor, no heat, pests, and i (again) have no place to go.  i really don’t want to be homeless, and my dog has already lost her whole family as well as her best friend.  she is the only thing that holds me together.  i am at serious risk of losing her or something happening to her if i don’t get the help i need.  with all that said, i know it can be a knee jerk reaction to shrug these things off (for multiple reasons) and just hope for the best.  i have very bad luck with asking for help and basically just receiving 'thoughts & prayers.'  literally any amount helps — if enough people saw this and sent even a dollar, that adds up, and could help immensely.  if you truly cannot donate, i understand (duh hello i’m turning to the internet for help because i’m so broke, i get it), but if there’s a chance you can… please.  please.  i’m incredibly stressed and scared.

here’s my dog.  her name is malley.  she’s 8.  i’ve had her her whole life. she plops her head down on my chest and just looks at me. i would do anything for her and it kills me capitalism works so hard to ensure that i can't.

𝙵𝙸𝙽𝙳      𝙽𝙴𝚆      𝙻𝙾𝚅𝙴      𝙰𝙼𝙾𝙽𝙶𝚂𝚃     𝚃𝙷𝙴      𝙲𝙾𝚂𝙼𝙾𝚂.            

Jean-Paul Sartre, from No Exit: And Three Other Plays; “No Exit”