god's weakest soldier

my love language is starting perpetually at our dms and hoping you can feel the pining i put into everything i send.

if you two would be so kind, indulge me for a little while. when you get tired, remember to let me down gently. ill make it worth your time.

i can't tell if the warmness in my heart that i feel is from love or just having good friends.

i haven't forgetten about my kari blog im just not having a good time being alive and am very much uninspired. as always, i reckon, but even moreso these days. i imagine that's pretty obvious considering the state of my blog.

i don't know what i want to do with myself.

i have a theory i wanna test.

im so down im tempted to make bad decisions. like starting a discord server. and killing myself.

in a perfect world, i don't exist.

when im bored enough i have fantasies of cutting off everyone i know and ending it. if im sad enough i almost do it.

i never really know what to expect from day to day because yesterday i was pretty chill with the people in my life and today i want them to all leave me alone despite me barely talking to any of them for them to do anything to me. tomorrow ill probably have like 5 crushes and become a social butterfly.

it's my mom's birthday 😢 wish she was here 😢

wanting to remind all my friends that im alive cuz ive been neglecting them all day but i really don't wanna make conversation at the moment either. hi guys. im here and im queer. don't mind me.