Clio The Leo

Thanks again to @cormsylk for transcribing! 

Cam 3 - 11: 33 - living room - April 23

Camera switched to them mid conversation.  Something about William trying to listen at the door.  Not sure if this was the current convo happening with Kevin-Ika/Dem in HOH.

Dre: How I feel is that I know that Bruno and Kevin’s pitch was to say that the 5 of us in the middle are not playing a very good game, however we’re passing through the cracks because there’s a big battle between the 2 of them vs the other 2.  And I know that, well I don’t know if they names specific names, because sometimes Ika will exaggerate things, like a lot. And at the same time that’s her game so whatever.  I don’t know if they names specific names.  It wouldn’t surprise me if they did, but at the same time its possible they didn’t.   But what I do know is that their pitch was to say that us 5 were in the middle slipping through the cracks, and if the 4 of them got together they could get us out before they start going against each other.  And I also know that they mentioned that its very easy for us 5 to say bad things against Bruno and Kevin, because it’ll make Ika and Demetres go after them instead of us 5.  So we are protecting each other by making up things that Bruno and Kevin are saying that aren’t true.  And from that, I think they tired to clear up some things, and while doing that they lied.

William: Well, I hope that the 2 don’t believe… Dre: Well, that’s the thing, the 2 from each side are lying… William: Too convince themselves Dre: To convince themselves William: Not go after each other, but they know they still will…like if I was one of the duos, I’d be like uh huh, but I’d be like ah ha.   Dre: But it’s working because Ika did come afterwards and asked if there was an alliance to get them out.  Them being the veterans and I was like “no, really not”. And then she was like “ Did you know that Karen wants to get out all the vets?”, and I said “ From the start, but everybody knows that”. Karen is Karen.  Everybody knows it. But she said” Well I didn’t really know, and now I feel like maybe you do want to get us out in a way”. And I said “Ok, but there’s no relevance, like no” And she was like…not that she looked convinced, but she looked like she was really starting to doubt not only me, but… William:  The only thing that scares me is if I use it on Kevin, it wouldn’t surprise me if they were like…they tried to put you up Dre: Yeah William: And I can’t blame them, because you would probably do the same with if it was the reverse, like… Dre: No, what do you mean?  I don’t understand what you are saying…I wouldn’t put you on the block William: No, you wouldn’t put me on the block, but they would try to put you on the block like you would put them on the block if you were in their position. Dre: yeah William: Precisely so they could keep Bruno Dre: I feel like, I don’t know, there’s a lot of things being said that aren’t necessarily true, and again I know that Jackie said she was in an alliance with those 2, and that Kevin was the one who revealed everybody’s cards and told her how everyone was “playing” and who they should go after, and what the plan was, and it was a pretty exhaustive plan.  The minute the Jackie was saved over Sindy… And both of them, so Kevin and Bruno, were saying things to Sindy,, and then to Jackie, but they were different things, and the minute that… All that so that if ever Sindy left, they needed Jackie to be with them And the minute that Demetres got power, both of them went in the bedroom and were like “Ok, we’re going to reveal everything.  We were in an alliance with Jackie, bla bla bla, she’s the one who wants you out, not us, bla bla bla”. And then Jackie went to see them and apparently they told her that apparently Jackie had some evil plan. And Jackie went to see them and was like “I have things to say, like that’s not how it went down, like yes we were in an alliance, and yes we wanted you, Ika, out, but it’s Kevin and Bruno that said that you were the one that was masterminding everything when it came to, like, Demetres and all the other people that you have”. And Ika told her” “When you’re mad, and you go around giving information left and right, you look like a liar” and Jackie was like “No it’s the truth”

Dre: And I get the feeling that I misjudged Jackie.  I have the feeling that she doesn’t lie as much as I said she lies. William: No, I don’t think so either and I should’ve trusted her and kept playing with her. Dre: She doesn’t lie, and she said that, the day of the vote, Ika told her that they wouldn’t vote her out, but that she couldn’t go after them if they voted for her, and she was like “ok, I won’t do it”. No, no, sorry, before that she went to see Ika, and she was like “ Can we make peace?  I won’t go after you and you won’t come after me?” And Ika was like “Ok, if I keep you here this week, I won’t go after you and you won’t come after me”. She then went to Kevin and Bruno that I wasn’t true, like she did it, but she was really with them and all that.  

But when Kevin and Bruno went to see Ika to reveal the alliance, she got mad, and she felt betrayed, and she told Ika that overtime she got close to someone, they betrayed her, and then they leave. And she was like “I want to work with people, but there’s no one to work with”. And honestly I believe her.  Like honestly, I never really wanted her out.  It was always Kevin and Bruno.  It’s true that I don’t like her much, so whatever, but I believe her.  That she tried to work with people and they betrayed her.  I believe her that everybody left, and I believe her when she says that when she gets mad, she gives out information, but I think its true information.  She’s not coming up with evil plans.  She;’s just like “You speak against me, I’ll speak against you”. Exactly like she did against Cassandra, and we see her as a bad player, because its not necessarily the best thing to do, but I don’t think she lies.  I think she tells the truth.  And it’s just a shame that everybody that she tried to work with just fucked her over.  And that, unfortunately, includes Kevin and Bruno.  

As much as you adore Kevin, a part of me is still like, I don’t know, it find it weird that he wants to build this trust, but hat he has no problem going to tell them that us 5…to tell them that they need to get together to get us 5 out, because the 5 in the middle are floating, and they’re slipping through the cracks and things.

William: But he told me that.  That they were pointing at the 5 in the middle. Dre: So he would come after you anyways? William: Yeah, but… You know he’s going to say the 5 in the middle just to say the 5 in the middle.  But is he going to come after me personally?  It would give him what?  For him to get me out.  Honestly?  He’s going to keep Ika and Demetres take me out.  Come on!

Dre: So he would be telling you the truth, but he would be lying to them? William: I don’t think he’s saying, like, what he’s saying to them.  It’s true that they want to go after the 5.  It’s true that he wants… Dre: Why would they go against the 5 before going after those 2? I don’t get it. William: Well, they want to stay together Dre.  They’re not going to go “yes yes come after us” They want to play.  They want to stay together so yes, they’ll go after the 5.   (William really stumbling and like stuttering here)

In the end, they probably won’t go after the middle.  They’re not going to go after like Jackie.  They feel betrayed by them for what they did to Sindy.  They could give a fuck.  They’re going after her.  They’ve already felt betrayed…Sindy felt so betrayed be her.  Sindy believed her, and believed her, and kept believing her.  Apparently when I was HOH, Ika was like “ok, now you’re going to wait, and then you’ll say this, this and this to Will, and then say this, and like Sindy you need to stop talking game to Dre”.  

Dre: I never talked game to Sindy. William: At the beginning, like very beginning.  She said “Don’t talk to them at all”.   Sindy believed her.  That’s why she put up Neda.  Neda told her to put up Dre or Karen, and Ika told her no.  To put Neda up.  And Sindy believed her.  She believed Ika.  She really believed her so she did.  That’s why she put her up. Dre: Ok.   William: And then after that, when it came time, Ika fucked her over, and she ended up on the block and left.  So she felt betrayed.  And those 2 also felt fucked.   Dre: Then why did they get her out?  Why didn’t they pitch to keep her? William: Kevin and Bruno? Dre: Yeah William: Because they thought they could get Jackie, I imagine. Dre: So yeah, how is that better?  I’m on like neither side.  I want everyone to go.  Truthfully, I’ve always said it.  I’m on neither side.  But I’ve tried to make the best decisions for us to get as par as possible

Still cam 3 - living room - 11:42

Dre: And as much as they tell us in the bedroom, “she did this, she did that, she did this”. And I tell myself “ you on; t have any thinking power? You can’t think for yourself and realize its not good?”  They really didn’t want Neda to go, but we all voted and it was 7-1.  Why wasn’t it 5-3? Or 4-4.  And then you could’ve let Sindy make the decision.  Why was it 7-1?  The only person that didn’t vote for Neda was Jackie.  But they really didn’t want Neda to go…But when Sindy said she was putting her on the block…We all had the same idea William.  Everybody wanted Neda to go as soon as she lost her immunity because she got a free pass to the jury…

William: Yeah, but exactly, for Kevin his number 1 is Bruno.  He doesn’t want to lose him Dre: Bruno told me his number 1 was Sindy.  I think Bruno was in the middle and has trying to, to… William: Yeah, but Kevin, his number 1 was Bruno.  So you know, he didn’t want to lose him.  That’s probably why for Kevin…Sindy, he surely wanted to keep her, but he told himself that making a campaign to keep her wasn’t worth it.   Dre: But does it make sense that thy brought us in the bedroom, and how they see the game is to have the best representative for BB Canada at the end… William: The way I see it:  They want to be together. They don’t want to play like shit.  In the sense that Sindy wouldn’t have wanted to be in the finals with someone who didn’t… Dre; the didn’t play well? William: I didn’t see her quite like that, but more like she wanted somebody she liked.  I saw it more like that.  ⁰In their season, like if you look at their season Dre, there were no lies, or like Dre: Yeah, there was no drama William: Exactly, those people were in that season.  It was 1 side against the other side.  They weren’t trying to stir up shit, and like… Dre: It’s the same people that told Mark to go upstairs and lie, and go talk in the bathroom to save himself.  It’s the same people who did that.   William: They sent him to lie?  You don’t think he decided to do that. Dre: No. I don’t think he came up with that on his own.  And I don’t think it was Jackie that told him to lie.  Because it was Mark, Dallas, Kevin, Dillon, and I forget the 5th, but no. These are the same guys who are super honest, and when Bruno wins the POV, instead of saving his friend Mark, he leaves him on the block.  It’s the same people who did that.  Its the same people who say “no, no we didn’t want Neda out”. But when she’s on the block , they vote her out.  And after that Bruno will say “ Actions speak louder than words”.   But his actions show this.  And then they’re going to go try to convince Ika and Demetres that us 5 are against them, and us 5 are going to get out the vets.  That we’re getting them out.  Well weren’t they voting the same way? When Dallas was on the block, who voted him out William: Well I don’t know. They’re scared cause now they’ve ended up alone.   Ooof I don’t know.   Dre: I don’;t know what’s going to happen William: Well me, I want Bruno to go, and if Kevin is against him, that’s not going to happen.  I can’t do anything with Bruno.  He doesn’t trust me. So it won’t work with him. Dre: Well why don’t we try to campaign.  Like what would be Kevin’s campaign?  Why wouldn’t Kevin campaign and come talk to us to get the votes, and see what happens after. William: I don’t know.  I’ll try to ask him. Dre; Because, although you want to save him, and its true that he wouldn’t put you on the block, and yes I believe that he wouldn’t go against you, its absolutely true, and yes it gives you one more ally.  I totally understand. But you’re turning against other people.  And when I tell you that I think I can get Jackie and Dillon and all that, it’s a possibility.  I’m honest with you and I’m not telling you 100%, but I think I will be able to talk to them, but if I talk to them and it doesn’t work, or if you do this, and then I go talk to them to try to keep them with us, and not have them come against us… William: I don’t know if Dillon would keep him. Dillon is scared.  He doesn’t trust me. He thinks I’m with him. He going to do what she (Ika) wants. I’m sure of that. Dre: Seriously, if I was Ika, I would get out Kevin.  That makes sense.   William: I’m going to talk to them later.

Thanks to @cormsylk‬ for translating for us!

Cam 2 12:35 - Red room - April 22

William: Dre, he told me things that I told him, and there was only 1 person that I had said those things to, and that was you.  Things between just me and him.

Dre: What things?  What did I say?

William: Apparently, people are saying that I was campaigning to put Bruno and Kevin against each other. Dre: What?? William: I was like, where is this coming from? Dre: Ok, look, this is the other thing. They too are capable of making up lies.  When would I have said those things?  To who?  To Ika? William: He said “I don’t think it was Dre”b. So he was like who are you saying these things to? And I was like, “ I don’t talk to anybody other than you and Dre” Dre: It’s impossible, It’s impossible.  I would be ready to swear that it’s impossible that it was me who said that.  That it is impossible.  The only thing I might’ve said the could have been misinterpreted is the fact that yes, you really like Kevin, and yes you might bet a little too close to him, and yes I’m pushing for Bruno to go over Kevin, and then they’re like “Why do you want to keep Kevin so much”. And in my head, I’m thinking that maybe they will be able to create ties with him or whatever…the only thing I could’ve said is yes maybe William is close to Kevin, and if that is what was turned into this, I’m really sorry, but its the only thing I might’ve said.

BB: DRE

Switch to English again 30 seconds later because William is struggling with English

Dre: Say that in french, cause I don’t understand William: When Demetres and Jackie were on the block, I asked him who he wanted put up, and he said Demetres and Jackie, but he wanted to eliminate Jackie. Dre: Yeah William: Well, it looks like Demetres…or it looks like I would’ve told someone, that I would’ve said to someone, that he wanted to eliminate Demetres. Dre: Be careful William, because I don’t believe what he’s saying at this time.  Be careful.  Sorry. I know you’re confused, but I’m sorry but what he’s saying makes no sense.  It makes no sense.  You would’ve told who?  Cause to me, you said he wanted Jackie out, and I didn’t tell anyone. William: Well thats what I said Dre: And it would’ve looked really weird if I went around telling people “oh BTW Kevin wants Jackie out” I would’ve looked like a fool because they would’ve been like “ Are you kidding me?” “ With Demetres on the block?”  And I don’t talk about Kevin.,  The only thing I say about Kevin is that Kevin and William get along well, bla bla bla, and that I don;’t like him, cause I don’t.  Believe what you want to believe William, but I don’t believe that I lied to you in this game, and I believe that everything I’ve done has been to protect us, no matter what I said, everything I’ve done has been so we can make it as far as possible, and its true that I’m not with Ika and Demetres, and its true that I prefer Dillon, and it’s true that I trust nobody, but yes, I want us to get far.  Yes I want us to make it far, and if takes, that I go sleep in the friggin HOH room with Ika and Demetres, I’ll do it.  Because I want us to get far.  And if it takes that I get HOH, and that I put them on the block, I will do it.  First of all, I don’t want Kevin and Bruno, or Ika to win this sorry.  Sorry, but no.  After that we can all each other, I could care less, but I am not leaving here until Kevin and Bruno, at least, and maybe Ika leave this house.  Impossible. William. Impossible. Impossible

Dre: Believe what you want to believe William. Like sincerely, you believe what you want to believe.  At this time, Bruno, all he’s saying…I don’t think its just you told Kevin “oh, I don’t think Dre is that much with Ika”. I don’t think that’s it. It’s that he can see the game.  And he sees which strategies he can use.  He sees the game, and he asked himself which strategies he can use to make Ika believe, or to save himself.  And his strategy works. And he’s telling them we’re all coming after them.  Is it confirmed? No. Does he know that 100%? No. Who would’ve told him?  Nobody told him. But its very plausible. It’s a strategy that would work.  Its true.  Its true that after Kevin and Bruno are out, Ika and Demetres are the target.  And after them it’s us cause we’re a duo. It’s absolutely true. Even if nobody told him. Even if nobody told him or Bruno that we’re not really with Ika and Demetres, it makes sense. What they’re saying makes sense. Even if nobody said anything.

William: But why is he coming to see me and it looks like I’ve told people, that I’ve told everyone  that I’m trying to pit Bruno and Kevin against each other? Dre: I have no idea William” Who? What? Who is that coming from?  I said no. I said “Kevin Tabarnac, I don’t talk to anyone.  I don’t talk to anybody in this house, I’m talking to you and Dre that’s all”

Thanks to ‪@cormsylk‬ for translating this for us! 

Cam 2 - 6:49 - April 19 - Kitchen:

William and Dre are at the kitchen counter while Ika is at the table with Karen, Demetres, and Dillon

William: Ika can’t even look me in the eye for 1 second…Come here, so I can spit in your eyes. (They are in the background of a very loud convo so hard to hear) William: Like, what’s the problem? You are the one that betrayed us , and you’re still betraying us so shut your fucking mouth.

Dre: She’s playing a really good game. *cleans dishes* Dre: I’m telling myself worst case- William: I just want her to leave.  Not Karen, but Ika. Dre: I just want her and Karen to go William: Yeah Dre: Both of them are stressing me out.  I’m annoyed. William: Huh? Dre: Both of them are stressing me out.  I’m annoyed. William: Did you study the thing for the POV Dre: The POV or the car thing William: One or the other

*studying (Just going the car video*

Skip to 6:55

Dre: I’m going to go to the table before I put myself in more shit *walks to the table*. Do you want to come or? William: It tempts me fuck all, but *walks over*. Oops I said a swear word.

*they join the convo happening*  *William glares at Ika the whole time, and doesn’t say a word, then walks away and goes to sit on the couch upstairs*. *Dre joins him*

7:13: William:  “osti” (french swear word equivalent to fuck) this hurts.  It hurts like a kick in the balls. William: what did they say? Dre: Karen is telling stories *William rolls eyes* Dre: She said she couldn’t trust us… William: She said that at the table in front of you? Dre: Not in front of me.  With them, just them.  I’m wondering, should you go on your side, and I go on mine and we really do a demarcation or… William: Not this week Dre: Yeah, not this week Dre: Or we don’t do that and we stay on one side…I don’t know. She’s getting on my nerves. William: Who? Ika? Dre: Yeah, and Karen a little William: I know. Me too. I’m really annoyed by them. We didn’t even talk 1 second of game, in the blue room, I hear them and I’m just like uh *clutches forehead* Dre: Uh! Uh! William: I was sitting at that table and I was just *makes a bitchy face* *rolls eyes* Dre: I just want to chill with the people I want to chill with.  I don’t feel this thing. William: That’s it.  That’s why I’m just like fuck that and I stay in the blue bedroom. Dre: Yeah, for real, we don’t care.  For real, we don’t care.  But I know that she said to Ika that I told you that she didn’t trust you because you went to talk to her, and she was like “because of that we can no longer trust Dre” William: I knew that without you. What is she saying? Does she think I needed you to see that? Karen, I could throw her down the stairs. Dre: Stop saying things like that *throws pillow in his face* It’s not nice. William: God damn. As if I couldn’t see it…its so obvious…(pillow is muffling mic). I just want to say “Shut the fuck up” Dre whispers “shut the fuck up” and laughs

BB tells him to fix microphone.

Dre: Really. Karen…At least Ika isn’t making up stories about us. There’s that at least. William: Yeah Dre: You know, we’re in a good position, but it could so easily tumble down William: That’s it, but I don’t feel like we’re in that good a position. It awkward, and I’m sulking

Twitter’s ‪@cormsylk‬ has been kind enough to translate Dre and William’s storage room conversation from 3pm today. (Juicy stuff!) 

Cam 2 3PM - April 19 - storage room

Cameras cut to them mid convo - William: He (Kevin) told me “it’s not true William” “I understand it’s not good for Dre’s game to keep her” and he also told me “Jackie, it’s not true” He thinks the same way we do. He told me he didn’t think she’d go with Ika. So I was just like ok.  But I really got the feeling that he’s like “taps fingers in hand”. (He basically doesn’t finish his thought but I think he means that he believes Kevin and that he’s being truthful)

The only thing that’s bugging me, it’s that it looks like we’re not on the same side anymore (talking about him and Dre) Dre: I know William: and I like seeing you always talking to Ika, and I’m like oh my god, am I losing Dre? Dre: No, really not William: Cause I can see it, I’m like really doing this with the other side  *motions pulling away*. Just the thing with the sandwiches.  Everybody got sandwiches except for me and Sindy.  I was like ok, cool. Dre: Oh, I didn’t realize. What’s funny is that Dillon and I were laughing, because we were in the bed…you know Dillon wants to get out Ika and Demetres right? And we were laughing in the bed, and then Demetres came in and I was like “oh, a sandwich would be good”. I was kidding, but Demetres said “ Oh, do you want a sandwich? “ And Dillon was like “me too”. He leaves, goes to make sandwiches, and then everybody was called to HOH, and everybody’s coming back with all the things to make the sandwiches, and Dillon and I were doubled over, laughing, like look how much people will kiss your ass, just cause you’re HOH, or because they want your vote, or so you’ll be cool with them, and we couldn’t stop laughing at them.  So for the sandwich, I admit that they didn’t give you any, but it was a joke between Dillon and I.  I trust Dillon. William: You what? Dre: I trust Dillon. He wouldn’t put us up on the block. William: You think? You don’t think she could pull him in? Dre: No.  But you can’t say that to anybody, because I don’t want them to know. That’s why when they were saying “she’s going to pull in Dillon, She’d going to pull in Jackie” In my head, I was like no.  First of all, Nobody has Jackie.  Secondly, Dillon is against Ika, in spite of everything what he’s making it seem like, he is against Ika. So like, I don’t know.  We are more in the middle than they think we are. Do you understand what I’m saying?

William: I tried to talk to Karen and she lied straight to my face.  I was like… Dre: You lied to her? Or she lied to you? William: She lied straight to my face. I lied too, because I was saying I wasn’t with…She said “You’re not being  by Kevin right?” And I was like no.  It was a white lie. I wasn’t about to say yes.  I was like no, no, no, and I told her I just don’t want you to go spreading around that I’m with him and she was like this *goes right up to Dre’s face* “Never! Never!” And I just wanted to be like *gives middle finger*. Kiss my ass.

I kind of want to start shit between her and Ika Dre: Yes, Try! William: I was trying to see if…I was like “oh you’re with Ika”. “Do you trust her” but she didn’t tell me anything big.  She doesn’t trust her like she once did, but she doesn’t trust anyone. She just said she trusted her more than Kevin, Bruno Sindy, so I was just like *shrugs*

Dre: The truth.  I’m not going to go after Kevin.  Because I think he sees…like he has more of a heart. I find that he’s more … William:  Right now, for real, I trust him completely. He told me, I know it doesn’t mean much, but he said Sindy was going home, he said “it’s going to be you and Bruno”. So if you can eliminate Bruno… Dre: It’s going to be you and Bruno?? William: Yeah, so you can eliminate Bruno Dre confused: Why did he say that? Oh! You and Bruno are his 2 allies? William yeah Dre: *sucks in breath*. But it’s better for us if Kevin is yours alone. William: That’s what I’m saying.  So you have to eliminate Bruno. Dre: oh! ok ok. William: that’s what I said that. So if you can eliminate Bruno, cause I won’t do it. Dre: Right, well for me he’s always been my target.  Always been my target.  I just wouldn’t want…I just don’t want to give Kevin too much information, because, I’m still not convinced, I don’t think he’d go tell Jackie everything, but I don’t know if he wants to stir up shit, and give information to like…your now, I don’t know if…he’s still good.  You know, what I don’t like William, sometimes, I don’t like when he gives too much credit to certain players or not enough and I don’t like the “Ika’s so good!” Like… William: I find she’s good.  For a second there I was thinking that you and Ika had a secret thing and I was like “Dre is playing me”.  I was paranoid.  I was in the DR like… Dre: No. No. Don’t be paranoid.  Never. Never. Never. The only thing is that I get the feeling that they give her so much credit with the whole “she so good” and I’m not saying she’s not good.  She’s really good, but to say that she’ll have Jackie and Dillon, I don’t know. Calm down. William: Dillon I don’t know, but Jackie? Dre: And Karen William: No, Karen, no. Dre: Karen and Jackie work alone. That’s what people don’t understand.  They are solo. William: Not Karen.  She’s like… Dre: She;’s in her own world William: Jackie, I can believe cause she’s gullible and believes everything, but Karen no. Dre: And sometimes the arguments they were making, William, they weren’t good arguments, in the sense that… William: But she will eventually come after us Karen Dre: Karen? William: yeah Dre: But we’re going to go after her William: yeah, but I still don’t think she’s going to believe everything Ika says.  She’s just going to be like ah ok and *waves hand in dismissal* Dre: She’s just going to go against us in her own way William: on her own Dre; Exactly. But we’re going to do the same thing, and Jackie, at this time, I don’t think she wants to win HOH because she’s in a good position in the middle. William: But Dillon, I don’t know.  Maybe with you, but for me, I’m like if Ika… Dre: But if I tell him like, William, he wouldn’t put you up. I have enough trust to say that. And if I feel like we were in danger, I prefer being in danger with you, and we try to fight, and play the game, than being like oh yeah, I’m protected so its ok.

Dillon comes in. Once he leaves.

Dre: Yeah, so what I was saying, I prefer that we fight to get out of trouble, then to say oh yeah, i’m protected, so its ok. William: mmm, but I don’t think I’m going to win this HOH. I’ll see who’s winning, and if Ika is winning, I’ll force myself to win, but I’d like it if you won, and bruno… Dre: I’d like to win. William: With mouthful of Oreos or that bruno or Kevin won and eliminated Ika.  When its them two, I’m just going to *mimes letting go* Dre: And then we can reorganize.  It would really not bother me at all to work with Kevin, but at this time I can’t because of Bruno.  And unfortunately, it just doesn’t work.  I try, but it doesn’t work.  Like I just can’t.  All the arguments he gives me…I prefer Kevin who says nothing, but listens , and gives his contribution here and there, but its his true contribution then Bruno who just gives arguments that are like…its always the same thing.

William: Well you remember when you asked him that question about Dallas? He looked stressed, and I was like hmmm Dre: Cause do you know what happened with Dallas? Dallas didn’t know he was going to be the replacement.  That was all them that organized it. And yes Dallas was working with them. He didn’t know her was going to be the replacement William: He had an alliance with them? Dre: Yeah, he had some sort of other alliance with them.  Not with Sindy, but with the boys, Bruno, Kevin, Dallas, Mark, and another guy…they were 5.   William: Not Demetres. I can’t remember who the 5th person was. Dallas was in that? Dre: yeah, they were called the wise men.  Who was the 5th? William: Dillon? Dre: Yes. Yes. With Dillon.  So there was that alliance, and they created it.  They had a name and everything. And when sales was the replacement, he was like WTF. He went to see Kevin and Bruno and was saying how they were together and all, and it just wasn’t working, and apparently…that’s the first alliance…but then Dallas went to see the alliance of the returnees because there was a returnee alliance but they couldn’t trust each other, and apparently in the blue room, everybody was there, including Ika, Sindy, Kevin, Bruno, and Dallas was like “guys please, I don’t want to go, I don’t want to leave.  I can be a contribution, and bla bla bla, and apparently, Kevin wasn’t listening and Bruno was just like mmmm I don’t know, and then they told him later they were keeping him. And in the end they voted him out.  That’s why Dallas, the day before he left, he started to do all these things because they told him.  

I don’t know.  Bruno;s arguments, like I understand what he’s trying to tell me, but he’s playing too.  He’s playing me with his arguments, because after Ika and Demetres leave, who do you think they go after? They’re going to go after the one who;s being stubborn and that’s me.  I’m the one being stubborn and being like no no, you know.  So stop lying and saying that after they leave ika is going to go after us. Its going to take her longer to come after us than them coming after us.  Them being Bruno.  Because I don’t think Kevin would do it. William: No.

Dre: If bruno leaves, I’m ok with working with Kevin.  ‘But I don’t want to tell him while Bruno is still here because they’re really tight together.

Talk switches to William’s outfit and his hair.  Dillon joins the convo.  After Dillon leaves.

William: Ika can’t win. Dre: yeah, I know. William: Bruno, I would be like ok. He would for sure go against Ika, but I would prefer it to be Kevin that wins. Cause I know he won’t go against you.  But not Ika. Or Demetres.   Dre: Are they going to vote against Sindy? William: or Karen, I don’t know what she would do. Dre: Oh, karen she would put us up man. William: I know Dre: I’m scared of Karen, Jackie… William: Do you think if she put Kevin and bruno and one got off, would she put up Jackie or me? Dre: Me. William: You? Dre: Yeah, she told Ika she didn’t trust me. And she said the same thing to Dillon.  And Dillon just told me.  That she said that she didn’t trust me, and that she had a picking order, and Dillon tried to reassure her, and tell her ok but…Dre is fine and all… William: I tried to tell her.  I was like I’m not with Kevin, and when I was in the bathroom with Sindy…they were pushing cause they know we’re there swing votes like…I don’t know if she believed me.

Dre: Yesterday, she told me that you were different with her.  That you weren’t chilling with her anymore William: She told me that today too.

More Karen talk…then rehash or Dre’s convo with Jackie earlier, and Jackie in general, then Ika’s bullying, and then retell of the fact that Ika didn’t say good morning to Kevin this morning….  Calls Ika ratchet again, and Dre tells him he doesn’t know what it means.  Ika’s not ratchet.  William is extremely annoyed with Ika and Demetres.  

After Ika and Demetres come into the storage room and leave

William: she’s getting on my nerves. Ika and demetres come in again.

In honor of Breast Cancer Awareness month, I'm changing my avatar for October in hopes it will be a reminder to my followers to do self exams & schedule your mammograms! Remember, I discovered my breast cancer via random chance. That is UNACCEPTABLE. I did not do self checks and had never had a mammogram. In that sense I was VERY LUCKY! My tumor is shrinking and my prognosis is good but I should have caught it sooner. PLEASE don't go down the road I've been forced to go down. Most women I know who have been diagnosed are able to treat it with radiation. I'm taking chemo and will have surgery. Earlier detection could have saved me a lot of time, money and illness. So let my bald head be what spurs you into action!! CHECK YA BOOBIES!!!

I visited my oncologist for the first time Wednesday. (She looks like she could be Johnny Mac’s sister, such a nerdball, love her!) We got the BEST possible news we could have expected in the situation. No nodes (the cancer is not trying to spread) and no tumors in the other boobie!

My mother is a retired chemo nurse which is a blessing and a curse (rhymed!) It’s a blessing for me b/c she has all the answers to every question I can dream, it’s a curse for her b/c she’s lived the bad side of this already a thousand times. She’s my rock in so many ways and of course one of those ways is helping explain things to me. Trying to understand the report, I asked “On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being the best news, what did she say?” Mom’s response “AMAZING!!! This is like a POV and HOH win ALL IN ONE!!!” She knew exactly how to help me understand it. 

I start chemo on Monday so I ask for your continued prayers. Im already feeling them in so many ways. I am not afraid or worried and am actually excited about having an excuse to wear fun wigs when my hair falls out (I learned LOTS about lace-fronts from Ika Wong lol.) “This too shall pass,” and the Man who said that was going through so much worse than I am.  I know I am very fortunate because I have so much support from family, my church family, my friends and of course all of you. 

July 21st was an otherwise normal day. I came home from work and changed clothes. When I took my bra off, I felt a sharp pain in my right boob but didnt think too much of it. Breast pain has always been normal during my periods and my Aunt Sally had come for a visit. 

My mind was looking forward to other things. While Im a bleeding-heart liberal, I Im a political junkie no matter what the party and I was looking forward to night 4 of the Grand Old Party’s freak show. This was the big night! Donald Trump was scheduled to speak and it felt like the entire nation was a big squishy mass of excitement. 

My mother hates politics but she is a patriot and a she repeatedly reminded me “there is nothing else on!” So I grabbed my snacks and plopped on the couch with her. At about the time the Great Whack Job appeared from his smog-tunnel, I noticed a knot in the top of my breast. I still dont know what caused me to feel that spot. I find politics exciting but not to the point where I want to grope myself. I felt it again, trying to retrace all my steps for the day trying to determine what might have caused this knot. 

I had my mother (retired nurse) feel it. The look on her face was one I’ll never forget, one of concerned fear that suddenly tried not to betray panic. “I’ll schedule you a mammogram” she said “and we wont worry about it until there’s something to worry about.” 

Well kids, turns out there was something to worry about. I’ve sense had that mammogram and a biopsy. I have been diagnosed with “Invasive ductal carcinoma” or, as I say it, “a boob tumor.” I have an MRI scheduled to learn more and chemo and surgery is imminent. 

On the day that Frank, one of my all-time favs, was evicted, I found out I had breast cancer. My crazy Big Brother luck lol. 

I dont tell you this for sympathy. It is my UTMOST desire that everyone behave toward me in as normal as way as possible. I am not scared, I am not worried, I am not in any pain. I almost feel like Im in an emotionally protective bubble and I cannot explain it. Its probably shock but I think a lot of it is faith. I’ve spent 40 years singing “God will take care of you, through every day, or’ all the way....” and you cant spend decades repeating that without believing it. 

My primary reason for this is to explain any odd behavior I may exhibit. I am finding my patience for BS to be a lot shorter. I dont want to argue with anyone about the goings on of the house or answer questions that feel trivial right now. I went on a blocking spree the other night out of sheer meanness and I think it’s best if I stay out of my mentions at least for the moment. 

Its possible I may be on Twitter just a little less too. My MRI is at 8am Friday which means I cant stay up late watching Thursday’s post live show fun. “PSSED!” 

But I do ask for your prayers. Thoughts are nice and all but they dont do much but make YOU feel better. I want prayer, yes even from you atheists and agnostics. You may question God’s legitimacy but I know He’s real and as I always say, “Couldn’t hurt, might help!” 

I ask for your understanding. You will quickly see that I have a very dark sense of humor when it comes to these things, it’s how I deal with stress. So if I pop off with some random “ZOMG her game play is SO BAD ITS MAKING MY BOOB TUMOR SWELL!!!” just go with it and laugh. Like I said, I just want normalcy.

Even if my new normal isnt normal at all.

Anyway, enough about me. Back to the feeds.....

Love you all (except not really, I hate you!)

Clio 

PS: I also ask that you vote for Hillary b/c Im PRETTY SURE Donald Trump gave me a boob tumor.