𝓘'𝓶 𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓹𝔂 𝓷𝓸𝔀

I brought you my love; you brought me your bullets.

This is probably the closest I'll get to a face reveal. TW: Allusions to SA, suicide, self-harm, and violence.

Daisies are flowers of the dead. I'd like for people to bury me in white, like my dad. Though I think it's funny I haven't got a single white dress.

You know it's terrible when you can't fit everything someone you loved with your entire heart and mind did and said to you on a single sheet of paper.

"Did you even love me from the start?" "Well, yeah... but not really."

"You know, if we weren't together by now, I think I'd be talking to all these other girls and trying my chances."

“I just kissed you 'cause you looked cute."

"I was starting to move on without you; people told me cool-offs meant game over."

"She said she wanted it!"—"Earlier I was thinking, if we were to break up, I thought maybe it's not so bad; at least I won't buy her gifts anymore."—"I thought you were going to throw me under the bus!”

“Please don’t cry, my reputation! People already thought bad about me!”

“You know, earlier at this cosplay event I was already talking to other girls, so I’d have someone to talk to if this doesn’t work out.”

“Are you still on the pills? How much do you take per day?...By any chance, can you double your dosage?”

“Take you home, already? Come on, just one more time? I promise you it’ll be the last time; besides, I’ll do what I promised your dad; I’ll protect you.”

“I don’t have any money left because of our dates! Sorry? Well, I don’t feel your apologies because you have your mom with you!”

“Can you not… tell your mother about what we fight about… it’s our privacy, y’know?”

“I’ve been contemplating leaving you, y’know? I’m really getting tired of you and your head.”

“That’s it? Your mother got offended because of what I said?”

“We’re not even married yet! It’s not MY obligation to be so straight forward with your family."

“I hate going outside! I only ever tolerated it because of you!”

I feel like there's so much more that he's said and done to me; that's most of it that's stuck with me. I loved him so much I tried sacrificing my life, self-respect, self-preservation, and most of my dignity for him. Even now, I still do. Though, I am starting to find peace. I can say so much more, but I'm really tired.

The Dogs You Left at Home:

This took me way too long- y'all I feel like I did Bo so dirty wadafaq T-T. I wanted to give him a more digitalized (?) look, like an actual digipet come to life or something, although I do like how I meshed the blue tones together to give him that screen-like effect. Joseph's still Joseph, a lot more disappointed with how I rendered the gold. Art-wise, I still don't know how to draw his hair. uncensored on bsky:

https://bsky.app/profile/vanilladoll1007.bsky.social/post/3mi6paf6u6c22

I suck at gold. :,3 Some close-ups:

MS paint bunny:3

“I know you wanna distance yourself from me The head is only a dangerous dead weight I'm cauterizing the veins you lacerateIn the end, you took it all away from me”

Hiii y’allll been really busy lately, real bad hell week and even worse professors to deal with hahaha.

I was stress-drawing the whole weekend to keep my mind off things and keep my hands busy, I was supposed to draw Older!Jack, an Idea by @/luckyclovernb, please check their works out, they're really good but please be respectful about their boundaries, thank you!:3 I'm not pertaining to the GILF!AU (can’t remember if it was called Blue Beard AU or whatever) but the one where Jack dies around 2003-ish, he’d be 45 then, and Sunny Time Crew show was more of an even more of a successful and popularized media, mayhaps LambWorks Studios would keep the many episodes and seasons of Sunny Time Crew Show around since the show’s been a thing since 1982, they might as well leave it be instead of erasing 21 YEARS of hard work and success if Jack hadn’t died around 84’, either way, still DILFS (I need one in my life PLEASE).  For some reason it clicked to me the art looked more and more like Joseph and less like Jack with how gruff his face was looking when I tried to draw him annoyed, messing around with the faces, finishing it off by slapping some scars, a hearing aid, and a glass eye on him (right eye). And now we have another living and breathing DILF Joseph. I will admit I’m a bit scared of the design staying too close to GILF Jack’s design, especially with the scarring, I was using their art work as a reference to make homage to Older!Jack, and I’m scared not only is the idea gonna be repetitive but the design too; but I really do wanna expound on this, make something different out of it, maybe draw and write something more about the plan I had in mind. Maybe next week???

BREAKING NEWS: “80s Hotshot Actor Gets Dunked on by Shiba Inu; Owner(you<3) Says Dog ‘May or May Not’ Have Rabies” Shiba Inu described by witnesses as “very small, very cute, and deeply unremorseful.”

Won't be able to post much this week, got midterms, can't lose my academic streak:,3 Have some OC renders, if they all look the same that means I did good, lore-wise they're all just the same people, reincarnated in different timelines.

AphroDesia OC Bullsh!t:3

"Foolish heart, hear me calling Stop before you start falling Foolish heart, heed my warning You've been wrong before Don't be wrong anymore~"

Overtime??? Barry??? PAYS WELL??? *GASP* how dare you have a job sunshine!?! Lookit the poor baby-- he's done all your favorites and you DARE do an overtime! Tsk Tsk... That is not how you treat your favorite boy!>:[ Economics Class made me crash out so bad I needed to torture this poor baby:3 If I cried, he should too!:3 (In bed shhh-- wha who said that?!) Mmm Yummy tears:3

What should we do next? Something good, something bad? Bit of both?

First post, some Panty Anarchy Fan Art:3 I actually drew this around 2024, I still got tons of art but I never posted them, my art style's kinda declining ngl, and not to mention HOLY SHIT the quality is so freaking CRUNCHED:,3 I wanna draw more of this CVNT soon:3