b l u r r y

bone crushed, flesh mashed

wasn't aware of how tall

sight hazed, wind rushed

the daydream stayed until nightfall

pics flashed, cheeks blushed

the music was loud, i can recall

grant trust, braid lust

steep road and started brawl

fury burst, bond rust

sunk boat buried in waterfall

hands tied, hang tight

ill never recover from the fall

books of memory

were made to bury.

ill fold them, honey.

one, two, three,

name how many

to mend the injury.

know such attempt is vain.

the pain would remain,

for both like a chain.

an art i can't maintain,

the dream i can't attain,

white dress i stain.

shred trust like train.

heavy heart to carry,

shall go hurry.

a place they cant see.

no one shall not espy,

the eyes that are teary.

somewhere empty,

nobody is gonna hurt me,

none of them are capable,

but you.

it was you all along

their words doesnt matter as much,

unlike yours.

it was you all along

there is nothing to protect me from,

but you.

it was you all along

my heart wouldn't be able to fall,

but for you.

everyday we are going to war. i hope this bulletproof armor always protect you and give u warmth. fight or flight? doesnt matter which one. just stay alive.

happy birthday.

im in peace.

dont mourn,

i have warned.

i am nowhere in the crowd,

everywhere in the thoughts.

mingle with the land,

high as the sky

ive gone long ago,

left as empty frame.

bury the hollow body,

take back the tears, tardy.

ternyata malah melahirkan seribu luka

deras rindu mengalir

membasahi tiap lekuk tubuh

basah kuyup

ragu jemari mengetik

enggan lisan berucap

kontradiksi akal dan hati

"hentikan" perintah akal

"tolonglah" rintih hati