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I’m gonna be ALONE for the whole entire month of august bc the boyfriend will be off doing his yearly bikepacking thing. Do y’all think I should do a gaining challenge and try and see just how much I can gain in a month? I think I should do that.. I am actually thinking of buying a mass gainer powder and doing like nightly gainer shakes or something. It drives me crazy thinking about trying to be stuffed everyday for a month and then topping it all off with a 1500kcal shake before going to bed.

Currently obsessed with the idea of gaining weight fast enough for people to start commenting on it. Like I gained almost 90lbs over 6 years and no one ever really commented on it. I want to gain 90lbs so fast people in my life start commenting on it. I want my friends who know I’m into this asking if I should slow down maybe. I want my family commenting on how I should maybe start exercising and maybe put down the fork sometimes. I want to be huge fast enough for it to be worrying!!!! And I want to brush off everyone’s worries with “ohh I don’t think I’ve gained that much” “I guess I haven’t been very active lately..” “It’s alright I like myself this way” and then continue getting fatter and fatter.

I don’t post my padding stuff but my boyfriend got an ezcooldownvest for fursuiting and then casually vent ”oh i think you’d like it for padding?” And i KNOW it’s hot as hell rn but i’m so tempted to try it like. Rn. I need to.