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we always see dean as this cocky, over confident guy both as an adult and as a teen. but there’s something much more genuine, and child-like in him at 16. when he was in that high school as an 18 year old he already had that “bad boy” womanizer persona established, but just two years prior he was kissing a girl for the first time in that home for boys. we saw him being a genuine kid outside of that cocky exterior for the first time. and he decided to leave that life not because his dad had a job for him, but because he saw sam waiting for him in the impala and he couldn’t bring himself to leave sam. there’s such a contrast between this moment and him in that high school, acting like his whole life revolved only around hunting.

throughout the whole episode in s9, we see dean call the job “boring” and say he doesn’t want to follow in his dad’s footsteps. it’s so weird to hear that because if you look at every single episode prior to this, you would 100% say dean loves the job and wants to be just like his dad. that was the whole point of his character especially in the early seasons. he tried so hard to fill in his dad’s shoes, idolized him to the point of worship, and now you’re telling me that he never wanted this? normally i would chalk it up to inconsistency and bad writing on the writers’ part, but i feel like this couldn’t have been unintentional.

maybe i’m overanalyzing this since i’m writing as i go, and i’m still at the start of s9; either way i can’t stop thinking about how dean chose sam over the life he could’ve had. again.

bonus (bc i’m ethel cainmaxxing lately):

dust bowl is so incredibly dean