#character talk

‼️Q!Graf lore spoilers ahead and my prediction based on what have happened‼️

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When recently Graf showed on stream the flowcharts of chip lore, I didn't understand why he would even make "cooperate with q!Multi anyways" a possibility

Because who in their right mind could be cooperating with captor even when they realise that they're being controlled?

But after today's lore bits, I think I might understand why.

To put this straight- q!Graf wants to revive q!Juan so bad that he's willing to cooperate with q!Multi.

There was this time when q!Graf said to q!Juan that he would stop talk to all of his friends just to spend more time with him. It showed how desperate his cubito is. Q!Graf held a lot of affection towards q!Juan, I would even add that in an obsessive way at the times. Even after being friendzoned, he still gave q!Juan compliments, not entirely giving up on his feelings towards the artist.

So after his death, he was in shambles, because the only person he trusted the most and shared his biggest secret with, died. So after this q!Graf calculated his possibilities and moves, told q!Ewron about this situation, but probably after all this time he felt like he was being cornered, with no clear solution to the chip problem.

That's why he took his chance today, did all of q!Multi's tests (the bip test was so funny xd) and agreed to get himself injected. He said multiple times that he did all the things that q!Multi asked him to and was costantly working on Polish Cave, to reassure q!Multi that his still on his side. And then he asked about bringing q!Juan to life.

Q!Graf probably has a hope that maybe taking the risk and staying with the scientist might lead to him helping to bring q!Juan back to life. Cause let's be real, when q!Juan was alive, q!Graf asked q!Juan to save him from the chip. But now that he is dead, he's willing to put his discomfort aside and ask his captor for help.

If it's going the way that I think it is then it's so fucked up what this cubito is capable of when a chance to meet q!Juan again is on the line.

we always see dean as this cocky, over confident guy both as an adult and as a teen. but there’s something much more genuine, and child-like in him at 16. when he was in that high school as an 18 year old he already had that “bad boy” womanizer persona established, but just two years prior he was kissing a girl for the first time in that home for boys. we saw him being a genuine kid outside of that cocky exterior for the first time. and he decided to leave that life not because his dad had a job for him, but because he saw sam waiting for him in the impala and he couldn’t bring himself to leave sam. there’s such a contrast between this moment and him in that high school, acting like his whole life revolved only around hunting.

throughout the whole episode in s9, we see dean call the job “boring” and say he doesn’t want to follow in his dad’s footsteps. it’s so weird to hear that because if you look at every single episode prior to this, you would 100% say dean loves the job and wants to be just like his dad. that was the whole point of his character especially in the early seasons. he tried so hard to fill in his dad’s shoes, idolized him to the point of worship, and now you’re telling me that he never wanted this? normally i would chalk it up to inconsistency and bad writing on the writers’ part, but i feel like this couldn’t have been unintentional.

maybe i’m overanalyzing this since i’m writing as i go, and i’m still at the start of s9; either way i can’t stop thinking about how dean chose sam over the life he could’ve had. again.

bonus (bc i’m ethel cainmaxxing lately):

dust bowl is so incredibly dean

Once a scared, beaten, traumatized dog, that bit at everyone that reached for him, whether with malice or affection in intent. While never cruel, he saw death as necessary, and deeply feared letting threats to himself or others survive to try again. He feared for his life and those he loved. Self defense was not murder, and he wasn't wrong in his belief. Yet, his hands kept swimming in blood. Regrets and questions plagued his mind.

Nowadays, although he doesn't condemn lethal self defense, he avoids it himself. He hasn't killed anyone in a long time. Everyone who stands in his way, he beats up and moves on. He places himself as a wall between the blade and the innocents, but he will let law decide the fate of the criminals, and offer a second chance to those that take it. He has made quite a few unlikely allies this way.

He doesn't take any high moral ground, he simply finds no reason in taking life, unless absolutely necessary. He has grown strong enough to be able to afford that choice.

And that's not because he can't be eloquent, it's that he mostly finds it bothersome. Most people around him are not interesting enough for him to put in any effort more than necessary, and his close ones understand him well from his body language and strong expressions instead.

If you hear Ferenir start to speak in long sentences, especially if overly polite, it's either fake, or he is pretty irritated.

You've earned his attention, but not always in a good way.

If he, then, starts to speak in philosophy...run.

It’s getting hot in the barns lately. I don’t know what else to say. I’ve been trying to organize the hay stacks for the cow so they feed on them, but they keep rolling out of order. And I think one of the feeders is broken too. Not for the hay, but another thing for the cows. I think it’s the mud porridge. (Don’t ask me what that is. I don’t know how to describe it. But it’s something that the cows eat.)

Also I think someone is messing with the fences outside. So some slight info, basically every once in a while during the day, we let out the cows from the barn to go and roam around. (Alice loves doing that. She will sprint out when the barn doors open.) And we usually keep them in this kinda open-field pen I suppose. Like this big patch of land outside of the barn houses where the cows can just be free in. About that, someone has been breaking a part of the fences there and it been letting the cows escape from the pen more easily. Me and a couple other Elsens working around the barns have been fixing them, but someone keeps messing with the fence and I can't keep chasing after Alice all the time. (Though I wish I could.)