without tenderness we are in hell

i dont think its a "sin" to "destroy and betray yourself for nothing" because there's no such thing as sin, there's no such thing as yourself and there's no such thing as nothing. and destruction and betrayal are subjective. you're most likely totally fine.

if you're quiet as an adult they kill you

it meant something to me! maybe that can be enough

thinking "everyone can tell im bad at this" as i stand completely motionless doing nothing in public

there's not a single casual bone in my body. everything means something to me

you think that you're so alone in the world then you read literature from hundreds of years ago and you realize that other people have always felt this way