Attempting to shrink

No more just eating to eat!!!!!!

No more boredom eating!!!!!!!

No more snacks and sweets!!!!!!!

No more calorie drinks!!!!!!!!

No more fat!!!!!!!

I am going to lose weight!!!!!!

I am going to fit into a size xs!!!!!!!

I am going to be 90 lbs!!!!!!!!

I am going to be skinny!!!!!!!

To fit into my mums old clothes (she used to be incredibly thin)

To be able to fit the “petite” persona that comes with being 5”1

To have a dainty/fragile aura to me

To prove my grandmother and mother wrong and show them I can be tiny

To loose my fucking boobs

To comfortably tuck in shirts and be fashionable at sixth form (school after high school inEngland from 16-18)

To be able to be more confident at sixth form

To make others jealous of me

To finally be the smallest within my friend group

To feel aesthetic

To finally have a thigh gap

To be underweight

To have doctors/adults worried about me

To not feel guilty eating foods like pizza (I’m craving this sm rn)

To have bony arms

For my hip dip to be less fat and more bone

For a sharp jawline

For my cheekbones to look sunken cos if I’m dead inside I might as well look it on the outside

To have my short hair actually look good on me

To look good on virtually anything

For bony fingers with cute rings on them

To have hair ties look too big for my wrists

To be lightweight like a fairy

To finALLY SEE MY SPINE