NCT

All you could really do was be there for him and offer your reassurances. You knocked on the door of the dorm and after a moment, Keeho opened it with a tired smile. He made room for you to enter as he gave you a quick side hug with a whispered, "Thank you for coming."

You smiled softy at him. "Did he mention anything specific that was wrong or..." you trailed off. Keeho shook his head lightly.

"You know how he can get sometimes, but he was making a lot of mistakes during practice which was fine, but we could all tell he was being hard on himself. We tried to tell him it was okay but he kind of shut down. I think he's lost in his head right now." Keeho explained.

You hummed in acknowledgment. It didn't surprise you but you felt a subtle ache deep in the back of your chest at the thought of your angel being hard on himself, especially knowing how talented he was. "He's in his room?" Keeho nodded and you thanked him as he gave you a pat on the back for support.

As you reached Jiung's room, you softly tapped your knuckles against the door and then pushed it open to enter. Your eyes locked onto Jiung lying on his back in bed, gaze stuck to the ceiling. You could immediately tell from his face that he had had a rough day. As you walked over to his bed, his eyes drifted from the ceiling to you, and he sat up as a lazy smile took over his face.

"Hey angel, what are you doing here?" He said in that soft voice you loved so much.

As you stopped in front of him he took your hand in his and gently raised it to his lips, planting a soft kiss on your knuckles as butterflies rustled in your belly.

"I just missed you. And I wanted to check on you and make sure you're okay, you sounded kinda off on the phone earlier."

You brought your hand that wasn't occupied up to his face and gently brushed your thumb across his cheek bone lovingly. He instantly leaned into your touch.

"I'm okay my love. Work is just a little more stressful now than usual but it's okay." You nodded at his response. You didn't want to push him into talking about, you wanted him to open up because he truly wanted to.

He moved over to the other side of his bed to give you room to lie next to him. As you settled into his bed, you both face each other, and he links the hands resting between you two together. Jiung didn't like skinship all that much, besides the occasional hug and cuddle, this is usually how he expressed his physical affection. You didn't mind, as your love languages centered more on quality time and acts of service, but you were the one that would usually initiate physical touch.

As he lovingly caressed your hand with his thumb, you both stared into each other's eyes, allowing the silence to wrap around you two like a thick blanket. You reached out to gently move a piece of hair that was getting caught in his eye and his lips quirked up.

"Angel, when I came in what were you thinking about."

You could see the hesitation brewing behind his eyes. He swallowed and opened his mouth but no words came out.

"It's okay, you don't have to tell me." You gently whispered.

He casted his eyes onto your intertwined hands, looking into your eyes seemingly too intimidating.

"Baby, it’s not that I don’t want to tell you," he said softly, his thumb still brushing over your hand like it grounded him. "It’s just… there’s so much going on in my head, all tangled together, and I don’t even know where to start or how to let it out." His gaze dropped for a moment before lifting back to yours, a faint vulnerability flickering there. "But when you’re here… the thoughts get quieter. And it's easier to breathe."

Your chest ached at his words. You gave his hand a reassuring squeeze, your voice gentle. "I understand," you said sincerely. "And I'll be here whenever you’re ready, in whatever way you need."

He exhaled, almost like the breath itself carried away a fraction of the weight he’d been holding, and for a moment, you just stayed there, fingers intertwined, letting the comfort between you fill the silence.

"I'm gonna go grab some water."

You nodded, watching as he slipped out of bed. You didn’t think much of it, but when he returned a minute later, there was something subtle in the way he climbed back in, slightly closer than before, his arm brushing yours as he settled beside you.

Without thinking, you reached out, fingers threading gently through his hair. "Pretty," you murmured, the word slipping out without hesitation. He let out a shy laugh, leaning ever so slightly into your touch.

Your fingertips kept stroking his hair, and you felt him shift, his arm coming to rest lightly around your waist. It was hesitant, like he wasn’t sure how close he was allowed to get. You nudged yourself closer, enough to make it more comfortable for him, but still, his body seemed to hold back.

You were slightly confused. It wasn't as if you guys have never cuddled before.

You could feel the quiet restraint, the uncertainty. It must have had to do with the thoughts stuck in his head. So you decided to close the gap yourself, gently guiding him until his head rested against your chest. One hand cradled the back of his head while his arms instinctively tightened around your waist, this time without hesitation.

He melted into you slowly, like he’d been waiting for permission to rest there all along. He took a deep breath and slowly released it, gentle nuzzling further into you.

You kept your touch steady, running your fingers through his hair while your other hand rubbed slow, soothing circles along his back. His breathing began to deepen, but you noticed the faintest tremor ripple through his body.

“I’m so tired,” he whispered, so small and fragile it almost broke you.

You lifted his head just enough to see his face, and your heart twisted at the sight—his eyes glassy, tears clinging to his lashes before spilling over. You caught them with your hands, brushing them away with the gentlest touch.

“Jiung,” you whispered, your voice tender, “my sweet boy. It’s okay, I’m here. You can rest now.”

You guided his head back down to your chest, holding him close, realizing with a pang of affection why he had been so hesitant earlier. He hadn’t known how to ask for your comfort, even when he needed it most.

bf!jiung portrays himself as someone who isn't particularly fond of skinship, but when you wrap your arms around him, he immediately relaxes and leans into your touch. all the built up stress from being cramped up in the studio all day slowly washing away. as you rest your head on his shoulder, he gently kisses the crown of your head, savoring the peace of the moment. extra points if your love language is physical touch, because although he may not be into public displays of affection; when it's just the two of you, he makes sure to shower you with all the physical love and affection you could ask for in the world.

bf!jiung has an uncanny ability (that any of your past lovers frankly lacked in) to understand you without any words needing to be said. ever since the two of you started dating, he has been able to develop a deep understanding of your emotions and well-being just by staring into you. being able to pick up on subtle cues that reveal when you're feeling angry, upset, or tired. no matter the circumstance, he makes sure to always be there for you offering the support and comfort you need.

bf!jiung who is like an actual grandpa stuck in a twenty-three-year-old's body. when you're away from him, you tend to send text messages about your day or the latest gossip you've been itching to tell him from work. instead of responding to your multiple messages, he always ends up leaving you on read and instead calling you a few seconds later. in his words, it's because he rather hear your voice (and because he's the slowest typer on earth) but just by looking at your text chats, it seems like you're a desperate ex begging for a reply back from him. <\3

bf!jiung who spends the majority of his days songwriting, pouring his heart and soul into creating melodies and lyrics for his band. often finding himself critiquing his own work harshly, especially when things don’t align with the vision he had in mind. that’s why he especially loves having you by his side in the studio. your presence brings him comfort, and he values all of your amazing ideas and suggestions. taking each one into consideration. whether it’s a fresh lyrical idea or a unique musical arrangement, you help him refine his creations, making the process even more enjoyable for him than when he’s alone.

Last year around this time, you had arranged to be wed. You recalled restlessly counting down the days until your lover would meet his lips to yours in front of all of your friends and family once granted the greenlight to kiss the bride. 

You had everything planned down to a “T.” The banquet hall would be emerald and burgundy. There would be an arch above you where a mistletoe would hang. The wedding cake would have Jaehyun’s surname. And everyone’s attire would be formal, though seasonal. 

It was supposed to be the best day of your life. 

A winter wonderland wedding seemed like an apt choice for you. You were so, so cold, but there was still an air of warmth to you. Now, your heart was unthawed. 

This Christmas - much like the last - you would be alone. 

It stung knowing you would be lonely for the second Christmas in a row and there was nobody at fault but yourself. You were miffed at your own behavior, but gave yourself no time to dwell on the past, doing what you knew how to do best - work until your brain went numb.

There was plenty on the roster today. A corporate meeting, phone calls to answer, and reports that wouldn’t type themselves. And that was to be brief. Speaking of which, you needed to brief employees about new protocols.

“Come on, come on, come on,” you chanted impatiently to yourself, tapping your foot against the floor. The elevators in your apartment were running later than usual today.

You heaved a breath of relief when the doors chimed open. Out went a group of people and in went you. Maneuvering your body to press the first floor button, you came to a halt when you noticed it was already selected and gleaming. 

That was when you finally noticed the man in the elevator - the only other person there with you - glancing down at his phone. You leaned against the railing and shifted your attention to the door nonchalantly, writing off the stranger as the very least of your concerns. Getting to work on time was paramount. 

As it always was.

Morning traffic is going to be brutal, you thought with a grimace. Every thought in your head revolved around work and how long it would take you to get there.

It would seem you would have no time for your morning coffee run. You remembered those times when you’d stay the night at Jaehyun’s, waking to a hot cup of coffee that he’d made just the way you liked it waiting for you.

Four words would permanently be etched into your memory. Have a good life.

With some disdain, you bade the thought retreat. Jaehyun was no longer a part of your life and you doubted he would want to be ever again. Not that you blamed him. It was your punishment alone. 

The elevator gave a jolt and you gripped the elevator for dear life, screeching, “What the…?”

The floor indicator donned the number one in a big, bold shade of red, though ironically, the door gave not an inch. Which was odd. You pressed the button that ostensibly opened the door in these types of situations, but to no avail. 

“Are we stuck?”

Your head snapped behind you and you nearly broke into a cold sweat when you noticed that the man lone in the elevator with you was no other than your ex-fiancé. 

Living in the same apartment complex as the man you were once fated to marry was no easy feat, but the multiple years of seeing each other made it simpler to avoid him. For one, you knew one another’s routines and thus what time to be out the door either before or after the other. 

That said, you had seen Jaehyun a couple of weeks ago, but the last time you’d spoken was when he returned all of your things from his apartment. Have a good life. Those were the last words he’d exchanged with you. 

That had been approximately a year ago, a couple of weeks before Christmas and the day you were supposed to say, “I do.”

“Appears that way,” you replied, clearing your throat. 

Jaehyun had his phone in his pockets now. You held your breath as you gave him a once-over. He was still handsome as ever, though that was to be expected. As far as you were concerned, he looked more or less the same as the last time you’d spoken, only his hair was a little lengthier. He still looked rather displeased to see you. 

And he was wearing a suit. Which meant he was most likely also trying to go to work. 

You frowned. Now you were thinking about Jaehyun in suits. Needless to say, that was a sore spot. 

A voice came over a speaker and you recognized it as Yangyang’s, one of the apartment staff. He spoke like he was reading from a textbook, “Passengers, do not be alarmed. Our technical team will be arriving shortly to repair the service. We apologize for the inconvenience.”

You mused aloud, “Can he hear us?”

“Loud and clear,” Yangyang chirped. 

“How long will it be before someone can help us?” you asked, never keen on being late. 

“I can’t say, ma’am. Anywhere from fifteen minutes and a couple of hours.”

You interjected to screech, “A couple of hours?”

Jaehyun clamped a soothing palm on your shoulder to calm you down. It was almost embarrassing how effortlessly his touch could ease you even a year after he broke off your engagement.

Yangyang explained in his usual exuberant tone, “The weather and usual early traffic may cause a delay, ma’am. They will be arriving as swiftly as possible and servicing is already underway by our maintenance staff.”

“Thank you, Yangyang,” Jaehyun said, smoothing his palm down your back. 

“Have a nice day, Mr. Jung. You too, ma’am.”

You heaved a breath. “So, it looks like we’re going to be here a while.” 

“Hopefully not that long,” Jaehyun said, recouping his hand. 

Though it stung, you understood. It went without saying that being trapped in an elevator with the ex that abandoned him was not part of today’s plan. He may have called off the engagement, but you were the one that left him high and dry. 

You broke his heart. Not only that, you stole his future. Everything he ever dreamed of, a wife and children, was thrown out the window because of your selfishness. 

Jaehyun recognized you would both be stuck together for a while and rather than sit in awkward silence, he asked, “How’s life?”

Darn him. No matter how hard you tried, you couldn’t get the last words he had said to you out of your head. Have a good life. 

The breakup was bitter and stone-cold. Jaehyun made a couple of things unmistakably clear with those four words alone. For one, he was cutting you out of his life for good. And he no longer desired to be imprisoned within yours, being punished for no good reason at all. 

And you never fought him - never fought to win him over. Maybe because you had already known for some time that your engagement was in danger. It was beyond reclaim. Irrevocably damaged. 

Never one to appear weak, you said, “Good. Really good. I was promoted to secretary.”

Jaehyun perked up. You got what you wanted. But did I deserve to be the sacrifice, baby? Was it worth it? 

“Still a workaholic I see.”

You frowned. “Old habits die hard. How have you been?”

“I can’t complain,” Jaehyun said. “I wasn’t promoted or anything, but everything’s been pretty good over here.”

You had no doubts. Jaehyun was an editor and his line of work gave him plenty of leeway. For the most part, he worked from home, though there were instances where he came into the workplace. At least, when you last spoke, that is. 

“That’s amazing. I’m happy for you,” you said, willing yourself to smile. A part of you was strangely bitter. It didn’t want to see him happy without you. 

Though you no longer followed each other, Jaehyun still popped up on your Instagram homepage every now and then. And perhaps you’d searched his page more times than you cared to admit. Everything about his page was achingly sentimental and reminiscent of your past together. 

Pictures of him at museums or bridges at nighttime or parks with his hair whipping through the breeze. Once upon a time, you were the one taking those pictures of him. Now, you wondered who was behind the camera, living the life you’d carelessly given away. 

“Thanks,” was all he willed himself to reply. 

Your eyes instinctively fell to your watch and your head fell back as you groaned, “God, I’m going to be late for work.”

Jaehyun fought a snort. “Yeah, me too. At least there’s still some good news.” 

“Like what?”

“It’s warm in here,” Jaehyun commented lightheartedly. 

You chuckled. What a way to relieve the tension. Though Jaehyun never failed to make you laugh with ease. Except for when you broke up. Nothing was funny then.

Those weeks leading to the breakup may have been worse than the day it actually happened altogether. The feeling of knowing something was inevitably bound to happen yet being unable to prevent it was arguably worse than the emptiness you felt when Jaehyun announced he no longer wanted anything to do with you. 

Emptiness numbed you to the pain for a couple of days. You couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep. All you could feel was a bitter, nipping cold enveloping you, eventually splitting you right down the middle. 

Jaehyun subtly eyed you as you typed a message to your boss, warning him that you may have been late for work and telling him to proceed without you. Maybe some things never changed. You were still gorgeous, that was for sure. But you were also still married to your work. Ultimately, that would always prove to be your downfall. 

It seemed like only yesterday you were his. He was planning to meet you at the altar, itching to sweep you into his arms and kiss you the moment you were pronounced husband and wife. 

You had always been a workaholic. At one point, Jaehyun loved it about you. He never thought your relationship would be foredoomed because of it. Devoted and loyal were two terms that described you strongly. 

Although, maybe you had been too devoted to the wrong thing.

Your broken engagement was a prime example of what happened when you applied too much pressure to one thing and neglected the other. It was the wretched result of not finding balance. 

Everything you ever hoped and dreamed of flashed before your eyes. Once upon a time, you were both making plans to move into a house together. You wanted a pet. And you were thinking about children. 

Now, you were all alone. And you had never felt colder. 

For some reason, the absurdity of your predicament hit you merely moments after you sent the text message. It just didn’t seem probable to be trapped in an elevator with your ex-fiancé. Much less alone. You threw your head back and whined, “I mean, what are the odds.”

Jaehyun pitched you a confused glance. 

You winded a hand through your hair and elaborated, “Us being stuck in the exact same elevator and forcing ourselves to pretend we don’t mind. If I remember correctly, you had no intention of hearing from me again.”

“I think we should spare each other the awkwardness,” Jaehyun replied, donning an impassive expression. And tone. 

You bit your lip. Maybe you shouldn’t have said anything. Jaehyun being kind to you should not have been mistaken and was probably more or less because he wanted to avoid as much tension as possible - not because he didn’t hate you. 

Jaehyun spoke up again to ask, “How long have we been here?”

You glanced at your phone and read the time. “About fifteen minutes, I guess.”

“So, we’re going to be here for a couple of hours,” Jaehyun quipped, trying to lighten the mood the best way he knew how. 

You winced, hoping there was an in between. “Not like I had anything else to do,” you mumbled. 

Jaehyun himself wasn’t exactly bummed about missing a day, or at least a couple of hours. Though this was you. He used to joke that hell would freeze over the moment you decided to actually take a day off. “They will survive without you for a while,” he comforted softly. 

You scoffed. You were carrying that company on your back. “I’m afraid that’s where you’re wrong. The whole building will be in flames if I’m not there within an hour tops.”

“I’m sure,” Jaehyun scoffed. “I’ve never seen anyone work as hard as you do.”

I have, you thought wistfully. Jaehyun fought harder for your relationship than you ever tried, but enough was enough. He was at his limit, giving more than he was receiving and he couldn’t let you take advantage of him anymore. 

Though it was intended to be a compliment, for whatever reason, your heartache was only amplified. You swiftly changed the subject. “So, what are your plans for the holidays?”

He shrugged. “Nothing special. I’m going to spend some time with my family.”

That caught your attention. “You haven’t been seeing anyone?”

Jaehyun only shook his head. He was afraid of opening his mouth and saying something that would make shit awkward again. For all he knew, you two would both be stuck together for potentially the next couple of hours and he did not want to spend it in suffocating silence.

Unfortunately, Jaehyun couldn’t deny that after your engagement was broken off, finding other girls had been hard. They came a dime a dozen, but none of them remained. Even after you were long gone, bits of you lingered, scattered everywhere across his life.

Jaehyun went to bed and thought of nights spent cuddling you to sleep. He visited his favorite cafe and thought of your go-to order. Jaehyun hooked up with other girls and thought of how beautiful you looked writhing underneath him, your voice calling out his name in a cry, dripping with sweet honey. 

Though you were forever gone, the memories of you still haunted him everyday. For so long, he had been convinced he was made for you. You were the only woman he ever wanted. 

And he couldn’t have you. 

Jaehyun commanded the thoughts to go away. You stopped being his long before the breakup. “You?”

“Oh, you know. With my line of work, I just don’t have the time,” you replied bashfully. 

That Jaehyun knew all too well. Just a little. 

He bobbed his head. “Sounds like you.” 

Guilt suddenly plagued your chest. Every second beside him you were reminded of the fact that you were the one who ruined a beautiful thing. You had gotten what you strived for, though in hindsight, the lengths you went to get it were brutal and cold-hearted. 

You had sacrificed so much of yourself to get to where you were. And now that you were standing at the top, you could finally see the collateral damage you’d inflicted at the bottom. 

There was only a good couple of feet to separate you and Jaehyun. And you absolutely loathed it. There was more distance between you when he uttered those four words permanently etched into your memory, before turning and heading out of your front door. 

Jaehyun fancied it no more than you did. Walking away had been hard. He looked back, but never stopped. A year ago, he was convinced that he would have moved on by now. But no matter how far apart you were, his heart was still one of your captives. Not only did he leave a piece of it with you, but the whole damn thing. 

He wanted it back. Damn it, he wanted you back. He wanted back every piece of himself he gave you, but above all else, he wanted back what you had. To go back to the way everything was the day he got down on one knee and asked for permission to hold your heart forever. 

He remembered like it was yesterday. Earlier that spring, he took you to a bridge. Not only was it one of your favorite spots in the city, but it was where you both first said I love you. 

Maybe that was why. Now, you couldn’t bring yourself to visit it anymore. The memories were too painful. 

Just like the first time he took you there, night had fallen. The bridge overlooked a river, moonlight cast into the water. Purple lights made the trail glimmer. But the moon was a little fuller, the air a little cooler. 

Not that either of you minded. To be with you, he was content. 

You were beaming. Even before he proposed. None of you could stop thinking about the night you first said that you loved each other. But when Jaehyun asked you to marry him underneath the moonlight, you were over the moon. 

You were chanting, “Yes!” Jaehyun had to sweep you into his arms and meet his lips to yours to cut you off. A very long time ago, the memory made him smile. Now, it made his heart swell with agony. 

His eyes were sad. And understandably a little angry. Even after all these years, you could still read him clear as day. You wondered if he could read you, too. You whispered, “I’m sorry.”

Jaehyun heaved a deep breath. An apology wouldn’t fix his broken heart and saying you were sorry wouldn’t undo the heartache you inflicted on him. It wasn’t okay. He hated you for leaving him lonely. For choosing your job over a future together. He would never forgive you for it. “I never wanted much. I never wanted all of your time. Only a little was all I was asking for.”

“I don’t want to go there with you, Jaehyun,” you said, exhaling a sigh of your own. 

All Jaehyun did was shake his head and murmur under his breath, “Classic.” 

A part of you bristled. Why Jaehyun always wanted to hash things out with you was a mystery. Fighting was draining and you never had the energy. A long day of work left you with only enough strength to take a long hot shower before crawling into bed. 

Not Jaehyun. He would never understand. The pressure to succeed, the struggle to unlearn the definition of success you were taught even before your adolescence. 

A year ago, everything was falling apart in your relationship. You were arguing more, spending time together less. Jaehyun was trying to salvage what was left. In his mind, fighting with you was better than not speaking to you at all.

Most of your memories with him were unforgettable, but when they were bad, they were excruciating to think of. You could still remember the last argument before the uncoupling. 

December was still fresh and the air was frigid, numbing your senses until you stepped into your warm apartment. Jaehyun was waiting for you there. A smile tugged your lips when you hung your coat and excitedly bounced into the kitchen, smelling hot chocolate. 

“Baby, I’m home,” you sang radiantly. At one point, it used to be your favorite line to say. A lifetime of obsessing over movie cliches was to blame. 

Jaehyun locked eyes with you and simpered. You looked nothing less than exhausted, though he found it cute on you. “Hey, my love. How was your day?”

You instantly groaned, “I’d rather not talk about it. Or think about it, for that matter.”

“Will a cup of hot cocoa make it better?”

You propped yourself on the island and flirted, “Made by Barista Jaehyun himself? Of course.”

Jaehyun handed you a mug and you accepted it gracious, muttering, “thank you.” He was the sweetest thing you could ask for. Even sweeter than the hot cocoa warming your palms. 

That was how the arguments always began. They were sweet, innocent moments - until they weren’t. 

Your lover dipped behind the island and returned with a mug of his own, still steaming with freshly hot cocoa. You thought absolutely nothing of it. Not until he opened his mouth. “How does a date night on Friday sound?”

You frowned. “This Friday?”

“Well, yeah,” Jaehyun said, rubbing his nape. “It’s been a while, you know. Since we’ve gone out on a date.”

That was true. Jaehyun always had some extra time to spare. He wanted to spoil and indulge you at every given chance. But you were always busy. Even when you were off the clock, you were still on the clock. And more often than not, you brought work back home with you. 

“I’m so busy and so tired, Jay,” you whispered gently. God knew you wanted to, but you didn’t have the time and much less the energy. 

“I get that,” Jaehyun started. “But can’t you take even a day off?”

“I’m aiming for a promotion, Jaehyun. I have to prove myself. My boss has been dangling this shit in our faces for the past few months. I can’t let an opportunity like that slip away.” 

Jaehyun was rapidly getting frustrated and reminded, “You do realize we’re getting married in a few weeks, right?” 

Your eyes flickered. “Yes, I do. And I plan to be there.”

“At the rate you’re going, I wouldn’t be surprised if you stood me up.”

Your heart sank. “How can you say that?” 

“How couldn’t I?” Jaehyun snapped, evidently pained. “We’ve been engaged for the past nine months, but it doesn’t feel like I’m about to get married. It feels like I’m losing you because you’re too absorbed in your goddamn job.”

“Are you asking me to choose you over my job?” you asked, standing to your feet. This entire argument was an affront to your pride. 

“No. There is no point in giving you an ultimatum when I already know that you will choose your job every time without hesitation - you already do. I’m asking you to make room for me, but I can’t force you to do anything you don’t want to.”

You countered, “I do want you.”

“Do you?” Jaehyun snapped, skeptical. “You can’t even go on a date with me. You want a promotion more than anything else.”

You sighed, “I don’t want to fight, Jay.” 

“I know that. You don’t want to fight for anything,” Jaehyun said bitterly. “You would rather watch us burn to ash than fight for us.” 

Anger plagued you and you were prepared to hurl something back, but he didn’t give you the chance. 

Jaehyun added, “I don’t like the person this job has made you become. I want the woman I proposed to back, and I’m scared she’s not there anymore.”

Your words were cold as ice, “Then, leave.” 

And the rest was history. 

There was nothing you could say when Jaehyun left you, no fight for you to give. It was you that sent him away. It was you that made him leave. He had only given you what you asked for. 

Old habits died hard. The one-year anniversary of both the breakup and the day you were supposed to be married was rapidly approaching and to distract yourself from the pain, you were burying yourself in work. You didn’t want to think about Jaehyun and what you almost had. Not even for a second. And then, today came and ruined everything. 

Now, you were being forced to confront the past. 

Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry. You’re stronger than this. God, you wanted to be anywhere but here right now. Tears burned your eyes, but you would never let them fall. Not with Jaehyun there. You didn’t want him to see the mess he’d left of you - how miserable you were without him. 

You wanted to mend everything back together, but it was too late. Everything was irreparably broken. You had the opportunity to patch things up, and you passed it up. No more time could be wasted crying for the moon. 

And still, somewhere deep inside, you knew Jaehyun would steal it for you. 

Jaehyun saw your eyes and softened a little. Damn it, they still made him weak. Your tears were made of diamonds and they were priceless. Jaehyun said, “My mother still talks about you, you know. She asks me when we’re going to get back together.”

Your eyes flickered. “That’s… interesting,” you lied. “I thought she would hate me. And be more protective of her baby.” Because I broke your heart. 

“You know my mother always loved you,” Jaehyun chuckled fondly. “I don’t think anyone believed in us more than her - not even ourselves.”

Somebody had to, you thought weakly. Though Jachyun was a romantic to his core, even he had to eventually throw in the towel.

Everyone thought you and Jaehyun would be the perfect match. Each of your families were anticipating a beautiful wintry nuptial ceremony on Christmas day. And when news of the uncoupling broke loose, your people weren't exactly shocked, but they were heavily disappointed.

You were clearly the problem. Until you learned how to balance, you would never be happy in love.

Up until now, you were beginning to become content with that fate.

Though now, your heart was greedy.

Jaehyun’s mother crossed your mind. She was the epitome of an angel and the fact that she still wanted you in her son’s life after all the pain you caused him was deafening. But what about what Jaehyun wanted? Does he even still love me?

Every moment spent with his mother had been wonderful. She spoke fondly of him and vice versa and supported him unconditionally. It was true motherly love and it made your chest stiffen, taut with envy. Ever since you were a kid, you only knew pressure. Your parents wanted you to have the life they didn’t when they were your age, but they were very strict in how they went about it. 

Tough love was all you received. They didn’t help you through trying times. You were expected to suck it up. You were taught that tears were a sign of vulnerability and vulnerability was weakness. 

You fought them back with everything you had and said, “How does she know I wouldn’t mess things up again?”

“I don’t know,” Jaehyun told you, not disputing the fact that you had essentially destroyed everything. It stung, but it was the truth. “She says ‘a mother knows best.’”

Jaehyun watched you struggle to hold yourself together. You were good at pretending to be okay and smiling through your pain, but he was even better at seeing through you. He saw you through a lens that only a man who loved you with his whole mind, body, and soul for years could see. He saw all your weaknesses, all your flaws. But he never judged and he saw something else in them, too. What made you beautiful. 

“But what do you want?” It was killing you. For as long as you stood there, you needed to know. 

“I wanted you,” Jaehyun replied honestly. “But you wouldn’t let me have you.” 

You shook your head. “You had me. Every piece of me - it belonged to you.” 

“That’s not how I remember it,” Jaehyun muttered. “You had my heart, but your work had yours.”

“That’s not true.” 

Jaehyun was firm. “It is and you know it.” 

“I loved you,” you told him softly. 

“Well, you sure had a funny way of showing it.”

You gripped the railing to anchor yourself. It didn’t move, but you could feel yourself slipping into weakness. “I don’t know how to stop, Jaehyun. I think it’s a part of me now. It’s hard to stop doing something you’ve done your whole life.”

I don’t like the person this job has made you become. I want the woman I proposed to back, and I’m scared she’s not there anymore.

Maybe he was right. Maybe that woman was long gone. 

A cloud of melancholy came over you, pouring over you and Jaehyun. He told you somberly, “I could have helped you if you would have let me in. But you were pushing me away.” 

“I know,” you said, meeting his dark eyes. “But I wish I would have known back then. I never realized I was breaking us apart. Not until it was too late. I thought I was doing what was best…”

Jaehyun finished darkly, “You were doing what was best for yourself. Not for us.” 

You opened your mouth to defend yourself, but quickly accepted he was right and instead said, “I was wrong. I was selfish. I wasn’t considering how any of it made you feel and that’s a decision I have to live with now.” 

“Do you regret it?” I need to know if my broken heart was worthwhile.

Your eyes burned. “Every day of my life.” 

“Why?” Jaehyun questioned, voice barely above a whisper. “You got the promotion. Isn’t that what you wanted?” 

“I thought it was,” you muttered. Your chest was swelling with self-disgust and agony and anger. Not at Jaehyun, but at yourself. “But when I lost you, I realized that everything I needed was already right there. Until it wasn’t.” 

Jaehyun was quiet but pensive. As if he was trying to trace exactly where everything started going wrong. 

Even in school, you were devoted. You were the valedictorian of your class. Jaehyun used to steal you away to kiss you behind the bleachers. But you would always be there for his basketball games, cheering him on better than any cheerleader. 

High school sweethearts, he thought wistfully. In high school, you won prom king and queen. Everyone thought you would last forever. That only God himself could part you.

How beautiful it was to be young, dumb, and in love. 

Jaehyun knew your issues stemmed from your childhood. When you were still in high school, sometimes you had to blow him off to study. He remembered you cancelling hangouts because your parents refused to let you out of their house until you studied until you were cross-eyed. Their house, their rules, was the policy. 

But he also remembered those nights when he would hear a knock on his bedroom window and smile when he saw you beaming at him through the glass. One December night, you were crazy enough to sneak out during the nipping cold, shivering and rubbing your arms outside his window. 

Though it was many years ago, Jaehyun remembered that night clearly. His mother made you hot cocoa and promised not to tattle. She always had a soft spot for you and held some disdain for your parents. She claimed they worked you too hard. 

Everything was so perfect back then. He knew what changed, but he couldn’t understand why. You used to make time for him whenever you could. As the pressures of adulthood caught up to you, it all came to a slow, brutal end. 

But why?

Then, leave. Those were the two words he would never forget. They were powerful than the I love you’s - more powerful than the I miss you’s. Your clipped, icy tone, would maybe someday be forgiven, but never forgotten. 

A stubborn wound was forevermore slashed on his heart waiting for you to heal it. 

You were breaking. Every part of you was crashing down. A familiar ache split your heart right down the middle. “I’ll never forgive myself for throwing away the most beautiful thing that had ever happened to me. I didn’t know what I had until it was gone and I can’t tell you enough how sorry I am.”

Your ex-lover was mawkishly nostalgic and sentimental and never said he forgave you, for that would take a while longer, but told you, “I knew I was the second priority in your life after your career. And I was okay with that. Then, it started to feel like I had no place in it at all. I was at the end of my tether, a stranger to the woman I was supposed to marry, and I knew we couldn’t carry on like that, my love.”

My love. That was what Jaehyun always used to call you. Your eyes flickered. “Do you still…?”

“I don’t think I’ll ever completely get over you,” Jaehyun admitted forlornly. 

That was when the dam broke. Jaehyun had dismantled you piece by piece and left you vulnerable. You had no strength to fight back the tears rolling down your cheeks. 

Jaehyun’s arms, as they always were, were wide open. He pulled you into his warm embrace and let you sob into his chest, smoothing his hand down your back and protecting you from the sharp coldness of your own pain. You were beleaguered to remember the last time you let yourself cry. You let everything pile up until the water pressure became too much. 

“Shh. It’s okay. Let it out,” Jaehyun crooned, gently stroking your hair. “You’re not weak.” 

There was an ache resurfacing in your body and it was purely unshakable. Your heart was whole, but hollow. Only its pleas to be back with Jaehyun - where it belonged - rang out in the icebound, empty void. 

Being in Jaehyun’s arms only made you nostalgic and the pain hit you harder. You thought regretfully of those moments in the past when he would hold you for all to see. And you remembered going to bed and always knowing he was still there, because you would feel his arms still tight around you and smile. Like he wanted to protect you, even while asleep. 

You sobbed, “I don’t deserve you.”

Jaehyun gently pushed you back only a little and looked you in your eyes. He wiped your cheeks with his thumb and told you calmly, “You made a mistake. We all do.” 

The gesture made you soft and weak. Goddamn it, you were so weak for him. Like your knees would give in any moment now. 

“Not like the one I made, though.” 

“That’s true,” Jaehyun said. “But do you regret it?”

Your voice wavered, “More than anything.”

“Then, I forgive you.”

You shook your head, not knowing how to accept that. You didn’t deserve forgiveness. You didn’t deserve understanding. But that was the kind of person Jaehyun was. 

He deserves someone better than me, you thought somberly. But you wouldn’t know what you would do with yourself if he found that someone. 

“You should hate me,” you said softly, voice cracking. “I broke your heart. I broke us.”

Jaehyun shook his head. “You know what my mother always says?” 

“It doesn’t only matter if you break something, but if you’re willing to put it back together,” you said, smiling fondly at the memory of his mother. She always treated you like you were her own. 

Jaehyun nodded and asked, “Are you willing to put us back together again?”

You mulled it over. There was no doubt that you were willing. Back then, you were too in your head to notice reality. Now, you were blindsided by pain and regret and inclined to do anything to make it stop. “What it I mess up again?” 

“Relationships aren’t perfect. People fuck up and people make mistakes. You’re only human,” Jaehyun told you frankly. “I’ll be there to help you clean it up. But don’t let me pull all the weight. We both have to fight together.”

“Okay.” You knew what you wanted now. It wasn’t that job. It wasn’t a promotion. It was the man that had spent half his life loving you, and would still love you for the other half. “I’m willing.”

Jaehyun smiled. A part of him couldn’t fathom how this was happening. The hole in his heart was steadily being sealed. He pulled you back flush against his chest. 

The tension in the air seemed to alleviate then. You could finally breathe again. Being in a tight space with the love of your life didn’t feel suffocating anymore, but closer to relief. 

You were talking freely again. You missed just being able to have a conversation with Jaehyun, recalling those times when you would discuss anything under the sun. Long nights of talking the moon away knowing full well you had work in the morning hit you. With Jaehyun, the small talk was skipped. You could discuss anything and everything. 

There was no worry, no fear. Sometimes, there would be tension, but never the unpleasant kind. Only moments ago, those times seemed like merely a distant memory. Now, there was hope that you had Jaehyun back. 

In his arms, you realized that was where you belonged. It was your safe haven in a world filled with danger. Your secrets were safe with Jaehyun and you were free to be vulnerable, because you knew he would never betray you. No matter what happened between you both, whether you were angry or in love, you knew whatever you told each other would forever remain under lock and key. 

“Do you remember the arch?” you asked, wistfully recalling what could’ve been. “I wanted a mistletoe up there. For some reason, I couldn’t shake the thought of kissing you underneath it for the first time as your wife.”

Jaehyun chuckled fondly. “I remember. I also remember you wanted John Stamos to marry us because he was your, and I quote, ‘true first love.’”

You nudged his side. “Hey, I would have also accepted Shemar Moore.”

Goddamn it, now Jaehyun was thinking about kissing you. His eyes fell to your pretty lips, still as enticing as they used to be when you were his. Never had he wanted to kiss you so badly. Like it would heal the wounds caused by missing you. 

Can I… can I kiss you?” Jaehyun asked. 

You said with no hesitation, “You can do whatever you want to me.” 

Now that he had your permission, Jaehyun didn’t waste a second to envelop your lips in his. Only then did you realize how much you missed feeling his lips on yours, how much you craved tasting his tongue in your mouth. You had gone so long without, but ironically, he still felt like home. And making out with him felt right as ever. 

Jaehyun kissed you so fiercely that he nearly swept you off balance and caught your hips in his arms. Your fingers threaded through his hair, back against the railing. He kissed you to make up with the wasted times he spent with other people. You kissed him to make up for the wasted times you could have spent with each other. To fill the void and patch each other back up. 

He taught you what love was. It was letting each other in instead of freezing each other out. It was was building something beautiful together and fighting to protect it instead of letting it all fall apart and into ruins. 

Kissing you eased Jaehyun’s heart. His pain was forgotten and he was overwhelmed with his undying love for you. He would never get over you, no matter how hard he tried. A love like the one you had would take more than a lifetime to get over you.

The way you immediately clicked, it was like you knew each other in a past live. Even now, his feelings were unabating. In his next life, it would still be you and only you. Always and forever. 

You were so besotted with Jaehyun and the way his lips tasted that neither of you noticed the elevator door opening. 

Yangyang cleared his throat. “Um, guys?” 

Both of you whipped around, more than a little shocked to see the door open with Yangyang standing in the middle to prevent it from closing on you. 

Jaehyun looked at you and asked, “How long have we been in here?”

“Approximately two hours,” Yangyang chirped. “You’re free to go now. By free to go, I mean please exit the lift. As you can see, there’s a bit of a line.”

You looked behind Yangyang and saw a couple of people impatiently waiting to travel upstairs. You lowered your head and flushed. Jaehyun laced his fingers through yours and led you outside of the elevator, smiling like a dumbass. He didn’t care who saw. He couldn’t have been any more happy than he was right now. 

“Well, we’re free,” he said once you were both in the clear. Then, he frowned. “But we still have work.”

You winced. “And I wasn’t kidding about the place burning down. I really need to be there. I know how that sounds, but I promise I’ll make it up to you later. Do you trust me?” 

“Of course,” Jaehyun said, grabbing your wrist and kissing the back of your hand. 

Your heart tugged at the gesture. Why’d he have to be so goddamn perfect? 

You got on your toes and pressed a brief kiss to his lips, feeling butterflies swimming in your gut. It seemed they had come to visit again. “I’ll see you later, Jaehyun.”

Jaehyun told you goodbye and watched you leave. It hurt a little to see you go, but he knew you would come back to him. You always did, even if it took a year and unlikely circumstances. 

When you were gone, he turned around and grabbed his phone out of his pockets. He had to tell his mother that maybe she knew best after all. 

Night fell. Jaehyun still hadn’t heard from you although you should have been off from work hours ago. A part of him was worried, but he still trusted that you wouldn’t give in to your old habits. It was Friday night. Maybe you were resting and would see him tomorrow. 

Jaehyun went into his living room and played some music. The atmosphere reminded him of you. Holding you in his arms and spinning you around. Everywhere he went, he could still hear your voice and laugher ringing in his hair, like the ghost of you was haunting him. 

He shook his head. You drove him mad. He accepted that he would never forget you, much less the way it felt to love you. 

The doorbell ring and he could barely hear it over his music. Jaehyun didn’t pause it, but went to open his door and was pleasantly surprised to see you standing there. 

“What are you doing?” Jaehyun asked. 

“I told you I would make it up to you,” you said, breath condensing in the air. You gestured to the pair of grocery bags in your arms. 

It was Jaehyun’s natural instinct to take them out of your hands, and turning, he said, “Hurry up and come in. It’s cold outside.”

You didn’t need to be told twice and followed him immediately, shutting the door behind yourself. It was warm and cozy inside his apartment, as always. You hung your coat on the rack and glanced around, memories hitting you tenfold, square in the heart. Everywhere your eyes fell, you saw figures of you and Jaehyun. 

Dancing in the living room. Movie night marathons on the couch. And racing down the hallway with your lips on the other’s and your hands desperately trying to remove each other’s clothes as you messily stumbled into the bedroom for a long night of loving. 

“I see you’ve already set the mood,” you joked when you noticed the music playing, watching him set the groceries on the counter. 

Jaehyun beamed. “I wasn’t even expecting company.”

“Sorry for showing up unannounced.” You smiled coyly, approaching the kitchen. “I’ll make it up to you. And no, you can’t help, Chef.” 

“Please?” 

You grabbed a gigantic wooden spoon and pointed at him. “Sit your ass down.”

“Jesus. Alright, then,” Jaehyun said, lifting his arms defensively. Ever stubborn were you. The reminder roused a chuckle from him. “Have it your way then, bossy.”

“I will.”

Jaehyun shook his head, still cheesing like an idiot. You were still iron-willed. That part of you would never change. 

You cooked dinner in Jaehyun’s apron and he laughed at how big it was on you. The memories were overwhelming now. It seemed that no matter where you were or what you were doing, his mind would always find a way to remind him of your presence. 

But the memories didn’t have to be bitter or painful anymore. He wanted to try again. He wanted a fresh start, a chance to repaint the canvas and a clean slate. As long as you were both determined to make things work, Jaehyun had faith in you and him. 

“Dinner was amazing,” Jaehyun complimented, throwing your dirty dishes in the sink to be remembered later. He stepped back over to the island and trapped you in his arms. 

You peered up at him, cheeks warming. “Thank you.”

Looking into your pretty eyes, Jaehyun couldn’t resist the temptation to kiss you anymore. You made a noise of surprise when he met his lips to yours, caught completely off-guard, but you kissed him back. It would be fighting your instincts not to. 

You closed your eyes and let Jaehyun guide you, trusting he would never lead you astray. When he kissed you, he melted away your icebound surface and got under your skin, peeling you back layer by layer. You liked kissing Jaehyun. Way too much. Even now, you could still recall the first time you made out, hiding behind the bleachers on campus yet gigging loud enough for all to hear. 

When it came to each other, you both were like moths to the dangerous flames of love. Love would always unite you again. You couldn’t resist those pretty, twinkling sparks of fire. And you couldn’t get enough of the burn. 

Jaehyun was confused when you pulled away, but looked into your eyes again and saw a kind of sadness twinkle in them. Your voice was weak, “Why don’t you hate me?” 

“I couldn’t even if I wanted to, baby,” Jaehyun said, finding your hand and squeezing it firmly. “And believe me, I tried. Even if a part of me did hate you, an even bigger part of me will always love you.”

That was all you needed to hear before you were sucking on his tongue again, wet kissing noises tangled in the sound of old school music. 

Then, Jaehyun pressed you into the counter, kissing you even rougher. You were riling him up, moaning into his mouth and that noise would never not do it for him. A different kind of fire came over you when you noticed him very impatiently unbuttoning your blouse. 

Same old Jaehyun. At heart, he was still the same as the cute boy you fell in love with. You were pleasantly impressed that kissing you alone still got him up. 

You broke the kiss again to ask through jagged breath, “Do you think we’re moving too fast?”

“Probably,” Jaehyun replied. Not that he gave a damn. Unless you did, of course. “Do you wanna stop?” 

“Jaehyun, I literally have not had sex in over a year. If you don’t fuck my brains out I think I’ll cry.”

Jaehyun chuckled darkly. “That can be arranged.”

You made a noise of surprise when Jaehyun cautiously scooped you into his sturdy arms and lowered you onto the counter. You made out hotly, his hands continuing to quickly unbutton your blouse and yours pulling his shirt above his head. 

The sight of his happy trail and toned abs made your core throb. And your mouth water. Your palms involuntarily slicked over them, feeling nothing but hard skin and muscle.

“See something you like?” Jaehyun asked, grinning in the most annoying way possible. 

You swallowed the lump in your throat and said, “Still a gym rat, I see.” 

Jaehyun bobbed his head. “Yeah. I still hit the gym with Johnny when we have spare time.”

That you knew. Despite the breakup, you and Jaehyun still had a ton of mutual friends, chiefly from high school. You recalled seeing Johnny post one of his gym visits with Jaehyun not too long ago. 

And you also vividly remembered the sight of Jaehyun, donning sweats and a blank tank-top. He drove you absolutely feral. His hair was matted to his forehead with sweat and his biceps were flexed, showing off his muscle. You would always be a sucker for a burly man that could snap you in half if he so pleased. 

Jaehyun expertly removed your bra and tossed it somewhere to be forgotten. He wanted to see your breasts bounce while he pounded you into oblivion. Your skirt followed, but Jaehyun slid your panties to your ankles at a agonizingly slow pace, all the while smiling like an idiot as you gave a needy and impatient whimper. 

“You’re already so wet,” Jaehyun murmured, drawing an invisible pair of lines on your bare cunt with his fingers. “Did you miss me that much?”

You whimpered, “Please, Jay.”

Hearing you call out his name like that was all it took for Jaehyun to lose all sense of self-restraint and he spread your thighs apart with tenderness, burying himself between them. You let out a sharp cry, throwing your head back. Some of your best orgasms were the ones when Jaehyun ate you out until you physically could no longer take it and begged for him to stop. 

Jaehyun targeted your clit immediately, a testament to the fact that he knew your body intimately. Your thighs clamped around the sides of his head, unaccustomed to the pressure. 

He merely clasped your thighs in his palms and held them freestanding, undeterred as he continued to lap at you like with the hunger only a untamed beast could have. 

“Fuck,” was all you could say, curses dangling from your lips. You had been touch-starved for over a year and the familiarity of Jaehyun’s touch was overwhelming in the best way possible.

Despite the fact Jaehyun handled you gently, with love and tenderness and nothing but, he ate you out like an animal. 

Jaehyun longed for the taste of you, arousal gathering on his tongue. He loved unraveling you like this. You could never stay still, much less quiet when he was going down on you. The sight of you, head angled back and moaning his name nearly made him cum in his pants. 

Your fingers clamped locks of his hair and Jaehyun groaned, somehow spurred on by the gesture. You were making noises left to right, feeling yourself nearing your peak in record time. A year of no sex factoring in a skilled partner would absolutely do that to you.

Your lover learned to recognize you at the threshold of release a very long time ago and briefly parted from your pussy, substituting his mouth with his fingers as he sang, “Just let go for me, baby. It’s okay.”

It was clear that your body had every intention of obeying him. Naturally, it submitted to Jaehyun, with no fear and no reluctance. He knew it and it knew him. 

“Oh my God. Jaehyun,” you moaned, thighs twitching. Not wanting to hurt him, you clamped your nails into the counter, eyes closed as the pressure threatened to consume you from head to toe. 

Jaehyun talked you through it, whispering, “Do it for me, baby. Just let go.”

Not too much longer, orgasm seized you, rendering you weak and defenseless. You had no strength in your body to fight it even if you wanted to, weakened by his touch. Your toes clenched and you cried his name, fingernails scraping the island roughly enough to damage both your nails and the countertop.  

Jaehyun didn’t stop eating you out until you went rigid, chest undulating. You looked a hot mess, heaving for breath and your lips parted, easing the airflow. 

“Are you okay?” Jaehyun asked when he moved from between your legs, fighting off a smirk at the sight of you completely disheveled. 

“Not until you fuck me,” you rasped, still needy in spite of still trying to catch your breath. 

Jaehyun snickered and tugged his pants down, underwear soon giving chase. You positively gawked when you saw his bare, thick dick. It never failed to make your mouth water. And your body tremble with release. 

You kept your nails at your sides as Jaehyun lined his cock up at your entrance, gently easing himself past your sheath-like walls. He still clasped his hands at your thighs, brows crumpling  with concentration. You were still so goddamn tight, clamping around him with a grip almost vice-like. 

“Jay,” you whimpered, hands clenching into fists. 

“Shh,” Jaehyun whispered, moving his mouth to the side of your face. There was a catch in your breath when you noticed his lips brushing against your ear, breath tickling your nape. “Open up for me, baby.”

The sensation of being filled completely made you feel nothing short of relief. There was a wet noise when Jaehyun’s hips smacked against your own, the last thrust followed by one even deeper. You tried your best to take all of him, wanting to please him even if it was the last thing you did. 

Jaehyun slipped out of his own trance briefly enough to mention, “I didn’t wear a condom.”

“Just pull out,” you said, in no state of mind to give a damn. You liked the feeling of him fucking you nice and raw. 

“We’re definitely a pair of idiots.”

You snickered and found his hand, slipping your fingers through his. “You’re my idiot and I’m your idiot. That’s all that matters.”

Jaehyun smiled into the crook of your neck, eventually clamping his teeth there to conceal a moan at your expense. 

He lifted his head and drew back to admire the entire view, watching his cock disappear between your legs over and over again borderline obsessively. There was something about you that he would never get tired of. He liked holding you close and loving you hard. 

“You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen,” Jaehyun exhaled, voice full of sincerity. And raw pleasure. 

You were burning up, withering heat blindsiding you. Jaehyun was making short work of you. It felt like love-making rather than plain old fucking, all things considered. Jaehyun’s gentle, steady pace as he whispered sweet little nothings in your ear, old school romance songs faded out in the background all the while. 

All you could focus on was Jaehyun. He was all you could hear, all you could feel. You were driven by the feeling of your walls garroting his size, the sounds of the little groans he couldn’t smother into your skin and his affectionate words urging you closer to climax. 

“Don’t hold back, baby,” you sighed, tightening your hold around his hand. It was a tiny, sweet gesture. “Please? I wanna hear you.”

Jaehyun obeyed you because there wasn’t a damn thing on this earth he wouldn’t do for you. You owned him and you knew it. 

Jaehyun swore when you clamped around his dick even harder. He watched your breasts bounce, your whole body unstill. Even your hands were scrambling, releasing him and now finding purchase in his back. “I love you,” he sighed, kneading your breasts. 

“I love you, too,” you moaned, feeling light as ever. He always took you to another dimension whenever you were together, but especially when he was fucking you within an inch of your life. 

I love you, too. Jaehyun was beaming. That was the first time he’d heard you say it in over a year and you had no idea how badly he needed to hear it again now. 

Jaehyun marked up your neck, leaving a trail of himself like souvenirs for you to remember in his absence. Your pulse thumped rapidly, your heart on the verge of tearing out of your chest, landing into his palms where it belonged. Now, your heartache was - at long last - soothed. 

There were no words to aptly describe your affection towards Jaehyun. Your love for him ran to an inexplicably deep extent with seemingly no end. It was all you could think about while he fucked you, how badly you needed him in your life. How the sensations he made you feel were irreplicable and you were content enough to simply be in his arms. 

Your lover never lasted very long when fucking you bare and raw and sensing himself approaching climax, Jaehyun brought his fingers to your clit, already swollen from release. A gasp tore from your throat when he fondled with the sensitive bundle of nerves, trying to facilitate an orgasm out of you. 

“Jaehyun,” you whined. You reached for his hand, sensitive. 

Jaehyun grabbed your hand with his spare one and slipped his fingers through again for you to squeeze. “It’s okay, my love. I want you to cum,” he said gently, biting your sweet spot. 

He was making short work of you. Your climax threatened to ensnare you with a force powerful enough to snap you in half. You needed it. More than anything, you needed it. 

You hauled your nails over his back, drawing long, red lines across the naked flesh. Jaehyun hissed darkly, pace quickening and coming even harder. You were driving him mad and vice versa. Your body had never been more confused than it was in that moment, barely willing itself to not writhe away but simultaneously matching his thrusts, wanting to build the pleasure yet somehow escape it all at once. 

“I’m coming, I’m coming,” you warned in a impassioned chant, choking on your lack of breath. “I’m…” 

Your body quivered, release stealing the rest of your words before you could speak them. You found Jaehyun’s hand again, squeezing it for dear life. The orgasm was so heavy you almost collapsed in on yourself and Jaehyun. You were seeing white, burning red, emitting Jaehyun’s name in a sharp cry. 

Jaehyun felt you clenching around his cock with climax and immediately withdrew, knowing he would bust a nut inside you if he stayed a second longer. “Open your mouth,” Jaehyun told you, voice husky, thick with lust.  

It was almost enough to break you all over again. 

You did as instructed, no hesitation required. Jaehyun fitted his cock inside your mouth, moaning at how warm it was. You took him in, wanting to get him off and taste him dripping down your throat. 

When he saw you, cheeks hollowed with his rigid cock in your mouth, Jaehyun nearly came then and there. He fucked your mouth, guttural little praises dangling from his lips. 

Your thighs clenched tightly, hot sparks still aflame between. He got you riled up effortlessly, hardly ever needing to try. There was something about him that you were naturally attracted to, an unshakable kind of attraction. You couldn’t fathom why you couldn’t escape him, why your body and heart was seized by your lover. 

“So good,” Jaehyun grunted, pace accelerating. 

Jaehyun fucked your throat until he came, emptying his balls into your mouth at long last. Eagerly, you swallowed as much as you could, an amalgamation of his release and your saliva dribbling down your chin and onto your naked, heaving breasts. 

And the sight positively wrecked him. 

“Fuck,” you rasped, still registering what the hell had happened. 

Jaehyun’s eyes flashed with alarm. “Did I hurt you?” 

“No, it’s just that that’s the best sex I’ve had in a while.”

Jaehyun rolled his eyes and quipped, “That’s the only sex you’ve had in a while.”

“Still the best.”

Jaehyun laughed, eyes crinkling. “Round two?” 

“God, yes,” you groaned, still feeling unalloyed pleasure burning between your thighs. 

Jaehyun scooped your bare body into his arms again and carried you into his room, pressing the gentlest of kisses to your lips and neck all the while. 

You smiled to yourself in the morning when you roused, feeling Jaehyun’s arms still wrapped loosely around your waist. 

Everything had shifted then. Though you initially had plans of spending the holidays buried in work, you came to find that Jaehyun’s warm embrace was the greatest gift you could have asked for on Christmas day. There was none of the loneliness and dwelling you dreaded, only making brand new memories with the man you loved with your entire heart, mind and soul.

On Christmas day, you visited his mother’s house where his family had gathered, recognized familiar faces that were surprisingly all too glad to see you again. 

When Jaehyun’s mother opened the front door, you greeted bashfully, “Hi, Mrs. Jung.” 

“I knew we would meet again,” Mrs. Jung said softly, simpering in a self-satisfied manner. “Come in, dear. You’re always welcome in our home.”

You stepped inside the house, Jaehyun following suit once exchanging a silent, understanding glance with his mother. As always, she was right.

As you glanced around, nostalgia hit you tenfold. Everywhere you looked, there were memories of you and Jaehyun. You could see you both running up the stairs excitedly and Mrs. Jung scolding you about horse-playing indoors. When your eyes fell to the kitchen, you saw yourself joining the Jung’s for dinner, sitting directly beside your lover. 

Jaehyun leaned into your ear, given that seasonal music was blaring, and said, “I’m going to have a talk with my brother for a second. Be on your best behavior and don’t try to escape out a window. Old habits die hard.” 

You rolled your eyes and playfully shoved him. “Go. I’ll be right here,” you said, heart wrenching softly. 

Jaehyun snickered and slithered away. 

In his place came someone you were very familiar with. 

“Nostalgia?”

You whirled around, instantly recognizing the voice as Taeyong’s, one of Jaehyun’s many, many cousins. 

“I made a lot of memories here. I’ll never forget any of it,” you replied honestly. “Long time, no see.” 

Taeyong bobbed his head in agreement. “Definitely. I was scared that I’d never see you again.”

“Why is that?” Your curiosity was piqued. You never imagined Jaehyun’s family would anticipate meeting you once more. It was the stark opposite of your expectations. 

Taeyong leaned closer like he was telling you someone’s deepest, darkest secret, and whispered, “Between you and I, Jaehyun hasn’t been the same since the breakup. Not a happy camper. You were a part of his life for so long that we were all convinced he would never adjust to living one without you again.”

Visioning a morose, heartbroken Jaehyun made you frown. “I did that.”

“You absolutely did. You broke the poor guy’s heart and made him unbearable. He didn’t deserve that. And I didn’t deserve to have to put up with his insufferable ass,” Taeyong scoffed offhandedly, though you knew his words were lighthearted. “But you fixed it.”

“I guess I did that, too,” you exhaled contentedly, turning your head to spot Jaehyun chatting with his brother. That made you beam. Everything had fallen apart, shattered into pieces, but you were both willing to do the work and put them together. 

“He’s himself again,” Taeyong said, following your gaze. “Thank you for giving me my favorite cousin back.”

“I should have never taken him away in the first place.”

Taeyong gave you a playful, half-assed attempt at consoling, “Good people do bad things. We all fuck up. Just maybe not as badly as you.”

You nudged his side. 

He continued, turning somewhat sober, “He forgives you. But this won’t work out until you also forgive yourself.”

“You’re so young, but so wise,” you whispered, slightly touched. 

Taeyong snickered. “It runs in the family,” he said, patting your back before turning away. 

You merely stood there, rooted in place. Taeyong had given you something to muse on you. You realized a part of you was still clinging onto guilt, unable to rationalize your own decisions. You were so convinced that you were undeserving of Jaehyun’s love and courtesy that you had forgotten how to move on from your errors. 

It would be a process. But a step a day was better than none at all. 

You beamed when you noticed Jaehyun approaching you and he returned it, outstretching his hand and asking, “May I steal a dance?” 

“Of course,” you said, taking his hand in yours. 

Jaehyun brought you from the foyer to the living room where mainly everybody had gathered to dance, spinning you in his arms as holiday music filled the air. 

You swept some free strands of hair from his handsome face, admiring the view only a little higher up than you. Even in a room filled to the hilt with people, Jaehyun and Jaehyun alone was all you could see. Everyone else faded. It was only you and your lover, swaying to the rhythm of a seasonal song. 

“This feels like senior prom, but Christmas edition,” Jaehyun quipped.

You snickered delightfully. “I remember when we were announced prom king and queen. I like how nobody was surprised.”

You remembered it like it was yesterday. Jaehyun joined you for the first dance, gently whirling you around in front of several prying eyes, but you didn’t care. To you, the room was as good as empty. They were faceless, nameless people with no contribution or value, no relation to you and your blossoming romance with Jaehyun.

It was an experience you never knew you needed back then. Maybe in that moment, you knew it was fate. That one way or another, Jaehyun was inevitably the one you would grow old and gray-haired with. 

Even now, as you stared into his pretty brown eyes, you knew that this was the man you wanted a future with. 

Jaehyun glanced up and said, “Look.”

You did as told, smiling fondly as you noticed the mistletoe hanging above your heads. A part of you wondered if it was a coincidence or if he chose this spot deliberately. “I remember kissing you in front of everyone,” Jaehyun added, full of mischief. 

You played along and hummed, “I’m not sure if I recall. Care to remind me?”

Jaehyun didn’t waste a second to lock lips with you, tasting hot cocoa on your tongue. You could taste gingerbread on his and the thought made you giggle into his mouth. There was something about it - something about Jaehyun - that made every tiny thing mean a billion times more. 

All of the whimsical little things made your heart swell with happiness. 

“Yo, chill, you horn dogs. There’s children,” scolded Jaehyun’s other cousin Mark, covering his little cousin’s eyes. His family gave you a headache. Every time you learned them all, it was as if another cousin popped out of thin air. 

You and Jaehyun pulled away, snickering. You leaned on your toes, giving his lips one final peck before deciding you’d had your fill. 

Days of being Jaehyun’s again turned into some of the happiest months of your life. You were letting go of some of your old habits and setting some past trauma free. There were a handful of grim times, but you both made the effort to repair things before they spiraled out of control. 

Excuses had run their course. Jaehyun would ask you on dates and you’d agree more, overworking yourself less. Until now, you never realized that putting some distance between yourself and the stresses of work was what it took to be happier. You had made the earth-shattering mistake of convincing yourself that hard work equated happiness. 

The two of you agreed to take things slow, afraid rushing would land you in an achingly familiar predicament, but you couldn’t deny that things had been speeding up. And Jaehyun already knew that it would forever be you. 

It was another long, brutal day of work and nothing was out of the ordinary. You were running across the office, balancing direct orders on top of your daily tasks. You needed six skins to have a job like this. Three to balance the roles of multiple people and another three to endure the wear and tear. 

Ten, your favorite co-worker, tracked you down and stopped you dead in your tracks to say, “Hey, slow down a second. Someone’s here to see you.”

You did the opposite of slowing down, still walking and as he followed you, said, “Tell them I’m taking a sick day, would you? Thanks, Tennie.” 

“I don’t think so,” Ten said, donning an amused look. Which successfully made you pause in confusion. Usually, Ten never hesitated to cover for you. “You’re going to want to hear what this guy has to say. I swear.” 

Very reluctantly, you agreed to follow Ten, curiosity piqued as you wondered who in the hell would dare interrupt you in the middle of a swift-paced work day. 

Jung Jaehyun. That was who. 

You made a face of confusion when you saw him there, smiling at you like an idiot. Confused, you asked, “Jay, you couldn’t text or call?” 

“What I’m about to do is a bit difficult to do over the phone,” Jaehyun retorted, admiring your state of obliviousness. 

You huffed, “What are you…” 

You cut yourself off when you noticed one of the staff hand Jaehyun a tiny box and he proceeded to crouch on one knee. The realization made your heart thud, pulse quickening. 

Jaehyun started, “Baby, I’ve been racking my brain trying to think of how to say this. I had to have tried to practice this a million times before I decided to talk to you from my heart.”

Your co-workers all gathered around, and you noticed even your boss observing from the corner of your eyes, but your gaze was locked on Jaehyun and no one but. 

Your lover fought his nerves and added, “We met when we were in high school. I remember it like it was yesterday. We were so young, dumb, and drunk off learning what true love was for the first time. We couldn’t resist each other.” 

The memories made your heart melt, taut with ecstasy. 

“Then, we got older. And things got more complicated, but in spite of that, we never stopped loving each other. Not for a second,” Jaehyun declared, impassioned. “I’ve been in love with you for so long that I can’t imagine my life any other way. No matter what has changed between us.”

Jaehyun was staring you dead in the eyes, watching your face melt with awe. It gave him all the courage he needed. 

“You made it so easy to fall in love with you but so hard to fall back out. And I don’t want to. I adore you, my love. Thoughts of you keep me up and night, restless. You make me crazy.”

Your eyes burned, fighting an oncoming threat of tears with every passing word. Jaehyun had swept you off your feet, making you feel emotions you never knew existed. 

“I know we’ve been through thick and thin, baby. But we were there for each other. And even when we separated, we found our way right back into each other’s arms,” your lover added. 

You wanted to pinch yourself, determine if you were dreaming. Even though Jaehyun had proposed once to you before, you would never get used to the wave of emotion that plagued you, rendering you soft and full of glee. 

“I didn’t know what love was until I fell for you. You’re my first love and all these years by your side have only solidified my courage that I want you to be my last. You are the only woman on this earth I can imagine a future with and if it’s not you, then I know there’s nobody else out there for me.”

Ten was smartly grabbing a box of tissues for safe measure.

Jaehyun’s voice got softer, “Let’s try again, my love. Let’s do this one more time - one last time. Will you marry me?” 

Now, you had the spotlight. Ten was none too subtly mouthing, “Say ‘yes.’” Everybody was anticipating your reaction and you wondered exactly how long in advance everyone had been in on this little surprise except for you. 

There was no hesitation and you practically screamed as you chanted, “Yes!”

Jaehyun, much like the last time he proposed to you, swept you into his arms and kissed you to death, effectively silencing you. The room erupted in cheer. Everybody was glad to get a break from their tedious jobs and witness a moment as beautiful as this one. 

The champagne was already popping. Your fiancé whirled you in your arms and you told him affectionately, “I love you.”

“Say it again,” Jaehyun said, incapable of getting enough. 

“I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. I love you so much that I don’t know what to do with myself.”

“Let me love you,” your fiancé said, staring at you like you were the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. And you were. “That’s all you have to do.”

You smiled, pretending to mull it over. “I think I can let that happen.”

Jaehyun was over the moon. There were no words to describe how ecstatic he was. He missed this feeling and he was more than glad that it had returned. “Merry Christmas,” he said playfully. 

“Jaehyun, it is literally the end of February. You wished me Happy Valentines Day after fucking my brains out on your birthday,” you replied, rolling your eyes. 

“Still,” your fiancé said, pressing a kiss to the corner of your lips and cheesing at the memory of fucking you raw again. “Marrying you is the best gift I could ever ask for.”

You smiled in agreement. And fought a smirk as you remembered you had your own little surprise for your betrothed, waiting for you at home on the bathroom counter. 

“okay, we can do this, absolutely no problem. you go and freshen up and i pick something for your to wear and then we’ll be out the door in less then ten minutes. sound good?” you blink at mingyu, his ramble only causing you more confusion.

walking over to him you take his hands, effectively ripping his attention away from the bundle of clothes he was sifting through on the bed. “babe, what the fuck is going on? are you okay?”

“am i okay? …are you okay? we’ve waited so long for this reservation, i’m not gonna let us miss it—“ he trails off while yanking his hands free from your hold, gently turning you and pushing you towards the bathroom, “go!”

“gyu, you are aware that the reservation is for tomorrow?” you let yourself be pushed into the bathroom, mingyu now staring at you, doubt evident in his eyes. “it’s today, y/n.”

“it’s tomorrow.”

“it’s today.”

which is what lead to mingyu frantically searching for the booking confirmation he got months ago, trying to figure out which of you was right - though you did start to freshen up just in case mingyu was actually right. just in case.

you let out an exasperated sigh and snatch mingyu’s phone out of his hands, “i love you, but let me look for a second,” you press a quick kiss to his jaw and start typing in the search bar of his mail app.

and there it was!

an order confirmation for a personalised engagement ring.

…a what?

both of you stare at his phone, utterly frozen. mingyu’s eyes drift from his phone screen to your face, trying to figure out if you’re seeing what he’s seeing. maybe you don’t? maybe—

god, who is he kidding.

he half expects you to freak out, to squeal and jump in his arms and pepper his face with kisses — though there also is that small part of him that’s nagging at his happy-go-lucky wishful thinking, insisting that he should be scared that you’re unhappy, that you think it’s too early, that you’ll distance yourself.

but nothing. you don’t look at him, you don’t say anything. you don’t even tap the e-mail to read it all in full.

you clear your throat and grin at mingyu triumphantly, “look! here it is, it’s tomorrow.” you point to the confirmation mail from the restaurant that just so happens to be right above the one for the ring.

“oh…,” mingyu drifts off and the two of you just stare at each other for a second. should you say anything? better not, you decide.

you can’t suppress a small giggle when you press a kiss to his cheek, “go get changed. i’m picking out a movie,” and with that you hand him back his phone, practically skipping back into the living room, leaving an utterly conflicted mingyu behind.

what now?

while you’re busy getting some snacks and drinks from the kitchen, mingyu takes his sweet time changing from his crisp suit into his pyjamas. his mind is racing, his hands are sweaty. should he stick to his plan to propose on your birthday? or should he do it tomorrow, after the dinner? what if you think that he changed his mind now that you know what he’s planning to do, if he doesn’t do it tomorrow? oh god, what if he waits too long and you think the ring is for someone else?!

you barely notice the somewhat tense look on his face when he joins you in the living room, you nuzzling up to him almost on instinct when he finds his place next to you on the couch.

he’s way too nervous to pick up on the hearts in your eyes when you look at him and you’re way too overjoyed to notice how tense he is.

for a while everything is fine, the two of you watching the movie though neither of you really absorb whatever is playing in front of you. you’re still snuggled into his side, fingers tracing little figured on his arm.

he sighs quietly and starts playing with your fingers, and the way he almost subconsciously starts to caress your ring finger makes you bite your lip to stifle the squeal that threatened to come out, opting to nuzzle into his neck to hide your face instead.

your adorable giggle against his neck is what finally makes him look down at you, lacing your fingers together, “what’s so funny?”

it’s a stupid question. you both know.

you can’t hide the dopey smile on your face and just shrug, head resting against his shoulder, “i don’t know.”

mingyu pulls you closer against him, pressing a gentle kiss to your temple, “you know, baby.”now you’re both giggling, and if someone were to see you they’d probably think you’re insane.

you just can’t bottle it all up anymore so you let out a little squeal, almost crushing him in a tight hug, face hidden in his neck.

“…is it here? at home?” you whisper, biting your lip when he nods. “is it hidden?,” he nods again, wrapping his arms around you a little tighter. for second it’s quiet between you two, mingyu pressing a small kiss to your forehead.

“can we play the hot or cold game? until i find it?” and he almost curses when you finally look up at him; the excited sparkles in your eyes, the pure adoration they hold almost makes him crumble but he stays strong.

as cute as you are, he already has it all planned out. you just have to wait a little linger.

he chuckles, a hand coming up to cup your face, the warmest and softest look on his face and for a second you’re sure he’s gonna say yes.

“absolutely not, baby,” he mumbles, pulling your face in for a kiss.

“Daddy, how come we never see your mommy and daddy?”

Levi’s eyes dart to yours in one final desperate plea, but you squeeze his hand under the table in reassurance with a nod.

He always seems to find the strength with you.

“My mother isn’t with us anymore, but don’t worry…She…she’s at peace now.”

Your son knows Levi’s resolute tone all too well, and even though he doesn’t understand how a person could be so near and far away, he accepts his father without another word. His Daddy always tells the truth even if it’s hard. Mommy always say so.

“But Daddy, what about your daddy?”

“I, um,” he bores into the table, searching for the words, “I…didn’t have one.”

You watch on as your son’s face of utter shock drops into a deep frown and you marvel at the uncanny resemblance the two share with their shared expression. His brow furrows even further and his eyes begin to widen with tears gathering in his lash line as uncontrollable hiccups bubble forth. He bites back his sobs, trying to keep his composure the best he can to be strong in his Daddy’s presence.

Your partner just got really good at hiding it, but if the silly questions come from you, your son’s bleeding heart comes from Levi.

Levi has a hard time finding the words, but when his son falls apart like this, he melts and always knows exactly what to say. Pulling from his pain, his solitude, his isolation as a child when he only had himself to soothe him.

“Shh…don’t cry, baby,” Levi whispers into the air between them, “It’s okay to be upset now, but don’t carry this with you. Daddy’s okay now, alright? I promise. I have you and your mother to take care of me now.”

He can’t stand to see another tear fall down his son’s cheek, and he slides the backs of his hands across the table with palms open wide before him. Head low and eyes turned upward, searching his little face.

His baby places his tiny hands in his father’s weathered palms. Levi’s hands gently close over top, squeezing him in comfort.

“I’m not going anywhere, okay my love? You don’t have to worry about me. I’ll always be right here.”

The boy blinks back tears and a small smile begins to form at his father’s tender voice. Daddy never lies and he always has a way of putting things plainly, so that he can understand, speaking to him as an equal.

Your son reaches upward towards the white fabric draped over the worn wooden table hanging from his father’s neck. His fingers run through the soft cravat and then travel further upward to his father’s cheek, stroking him in comfort.

Levi turns into his tiny palm and plants a kiss that slips into playful nips after his retreating fingers, sending your baby into a fit of giggles. A smile sets on both of their faces with a glassy look in their eyes as they hold each other’s gaze in their own little world.

You look on in wonder as his strength never seems to surprise you. See Levi, I knew you could do this. Your musings slip into the air between them both.

Your son’s fingers return back to the neck tie.

He never wanted to sleep with a stuffed animal or blanket, but would only accept the humble cloth as a companion in the night, the fresh smell of linen and tea leaves lulling him to sleep.

You don’t know when the love of the tie began, but it had to have begun when Levi would rock him to sleep at night against the warmth of his chest when he was just a baby.

Tucking his son into his covers, he slips off the cloth again, draping it over his baby. The boy nuzzles into it, taking it into his hands.

“See, my love? I told you, I’ll always be right…,” he whispers and presses over his heart through the fabric, “here.”

He looks up into his father’s eyes and knows he means every word, but the impending loneliness from today’s revelation continues to eat away at him deep into the night. He has to make things right.

***

Levi wakes with the dawn and can feel your warm embrace with your arm draped lazily around him.

Puffs of air fan out over the back of his neck as you slumber on. He melts into your touch behind him as your chest presses into his back with each breath.

He can see the morning light creeping in underneath the room’s door, and then, something entirely new…

He spots two little feet nervously padding up the door and two tiny knocks sound against the wood.

“Baby, are you okay?” Levi gently calls out to his son.

“I…I, um,” Levi chuckles internally at his stammering.

“It’s okay, just come in,” and as the door opens you rise to look over Levi’s shoulder. The sight before you has you gripping Levi’s waist, hiding your smile in his neck.

It isn’t that your little boy brushed his own hair and dressed himself at 5 years old…It’s the anxious, downcast eyes over the white fabric hanging from his neck…Levi’s cravat tied clumsily around him.

“Happy Father’s Day, Daddy!” He beams and you look over to Levi to catch his expression with the biggest shit eating grin on your face.

Levi is at a loss, lips slightly parted with an unreadable look.

It causes the boy to retract his excitement just a little with eyes shifting down, “Sorry, Daddy…S’not as good as yours, but I…” He bravely looks back up to his father, “I know you said it’d be okay, but I wanna be Daddy’s daddy for Father’s Day because he’s a good daddy and I want him to know what it’s like to have one!”

Levi’s jaw closes immediately.

A beat passes and he covers his eyes with his hand, running his fingers through his hair with his head tilting back. A shaky sigh leaving his nose.

Looking up at the ceiling he whispers, “Come here.”

His son takes tiny steps forward and his anxiety blooms in his chest.

“M’sorry, Daddy…If you don’t like i-“

“-Stop, saying sorry…” He drags his hand away from his eyes and the boy gasps at tears threatening to spill over his dark lashes.

“Daddy, don’t cry…I’m right…” He pokes at his father’s heart, “here, remember?”

Levi takes his little hand in his again lifting it to his lips for a kiss.

The room erupted with a bunch of “yes’s” and “why’s?”.

“Uhm, yes?” Mark said as a matter of factly, “If someone should be feeding my baby, it’s me.”

“Oh please, it’s just food.” His girlfriend responded with a scoff.

“Just food? Just food?!” He asked and she nodded. “So if we were out with one of your single girlfriends and she fed me, you wouldn’t be jealous at all?”

“Well now, that’s different!” She defended causing everyone to laugh and Mark to scoff playfully.

“How is it any different? It’s the same thing!” He said and huffed.

“Okay, Jaehyun… you are awfully quiet.” Leia taunted.

Your boyfriend sat silently, just smiling at the chaos unfolding. He hummed when the attention was on him and shrugged.

“No, I wouldn't get jealous. There’s no need to.” He said softly, smile still on his face.

“Ooh, what’s that supposed to mean ____?” Jungwoo teased and you rolled your eyes.

“Nothing, I just don’t think there’s anything to be jealous for.”

“So, _____ is not worth getting jealous for? Is that what you’re saying?” Leia teased and Jungwoo followed with an “ooh…”

You looked at your boyfriend who seemed to have a stutter now.

“Th-that's not what I mean. I mean that I don’t have to get jealous cause I know she won’t leave me for anyone else…”

“Hmmm, I see…” Jungwoo scratched his chin and opened his mouth again. “So, if a friend of _____’s did that with you, would you accept it?”

“Yeah, why not? It’s just food…” he shrugged but something about his statement made your heart sting lightly.

“THANK YOU!” Mark’s girlfriend said.

“What about you, _____? Would you accept it?” Leia asked and everyone looked at you intently.

“Yeah, it’s just food…” you said. “Plus, like Jaehyun said, it’s not like I would leave him for someone else. Leave him alone…” and you really wouldn’t, but would he?

Jaehyun hummed confidently and placed a kiss on your temple. He was sure of your relationship and nothing was going to change that—or so he thought.

Now, you all gathered once more, this time at your house. You all sat in your backyard while Jaehyun and Taeyong grilled some meat and a few of the girls prepared some sides and drinks.

“Some of the meat is ready if y’all want to start eating!” Taeyong said and called you over to hand you the plate to put on the table.

“Yo, ____! I didn’t know you had this!” You heard a voice called when you placed the plate on the table for some of your friends to start eating.

“Oh, yeah! My mom saved it and passed it on to me a few months ago.” You smiled at the sight of Johnny holding a photo album.

You both grew up next to each other, which resulted in you being best friends. It wasn’t until you had to leave for college that you were separated for the first time, but it was all good as that’s how you met Jaehyun.

One spring break, Johnny came back with a new friend he had met at his university. He planned on showing him around until he saw you were back too, adding you to their plans. He would definitely say it was love at first sight, he felt like the third wheel during the whole thing—just like he planned.

Jaehyun understood your relationship with Johnny was special, your bond was unbreakable and he knew not to be jealous of your closeness to the tall man. Until tonight.

“Look at you! You truly had the cutest cheeks ever!” Johnny squealed and tugged at one of your cheeks. “Still do!”

“Ew John, leave me alone…” you smacked his hand and laughed. “Look, I can’t believe my mom captured this moment!” You gasped before laughing out loud, catching Jaehyun’s attention, who was helping Taeyong with the meat.

“Oh my God! No! Why would she do that to me?” He screamed when you passed the photo around to the people at the table.

“Nice butt, man…” Mark smirked and giggled.

“Shut up, Mark.”

“I’m definitely saving this one to show your future girlfriend.” You said and he rolled his eyes.

“You should come with me to Chicago one of these days.” You said, “she has been asking for her little John nonstop.”

“I should! I miss her cooking so much. Remember that cake she made us for our senior road trip?” Johnny asked with a smile and Jaehyun started feeling an unfamiliar sting on his chest.

“Yes! It was so good, too bad you ate it all before we even got out of Chicago.” You smiled. “My mom loves you, dude…”

“Can you blame her? I’m the best!“ he said smugly.

“You are…” you said and Jaehyun felt sick.

“Here’s more meat.” Jaehyun came over and placed another plate on the table.

“Baby, are you okay? You look sick…” you asked worriedly.

“I’m fine, I think I’m just hungry.” He answered and sat down in front of you before grabbing your hand that had reached out and kissing it.

“Do you guys want some perilla leaves and lettuce for the meat?” Maria, Mark’s girlfriend, asked.

“Yes, please!” You said and reached to grab the little wooden basket with all the greens.

“Mmm, this is so good, baby!” You said after biting a piece of meat wrapped in a piece of lettuce.

“Thanks…” your boyfriend replied bashfully, making your heart flutter.

Jungwoo and Leia watched intently at the three of you eating—Johnny looked to the side and met eyes with them both.

Leia gave him a thumbs up and Jungwoo a smirk, which Johnny mirrored before looking back at the food. His hand stuck out to grab at the perilla leaves, to their luck, they were 2 stuck leaves.

Jungwoo poked at Leia to watch you again, this time your eyes met and you rolled them playfully.

“Oh, I got two…” the man next to you said and separated the leaves before wrapping one around a piece of meat and giving it to you.

Jaehyun couldn’t help but frown at the interaction, chewing slowly at his rice as he saw you smile and open your mouth for your best friend to feed you.

“Thanks…” you said with your cheeks full and Johnny hummed.

“Be right back, I’ll get us something to drink. Do you want anything, baby?” You asked.

“A beer is okay…” Jaehyun said softly and kept his eyes on his spoon.

You walked over to Jungwoo and Leia, who handed you 2 beers and a soda.

“It’s not working… I’m telling y’all, he never gets jealous…” you said.

“Oh c’mon, ____… all men get jealous of their partners.” Leia said. “He has to get jealous at some point.”

“Now that I think about it, I have never seen him jealous before…” Jungwoo pointed out.

“Do you think he just doesn’t like me enough?” You worry and their faces soften. “Maybe that’s why he said there was nothing to get jealous for…”

“What? Of course not! We were just joking around last week, he adores you.” Jungwoo said. “Believe me, he absolutely loves you.”

“Hmm, I guess…” you whispered and left back to sit with your boyfriend and best friend.

Johnny was the first to notice your change of facial expression since Jaehyun was intently staring at his food since you left.

“Are you okay?” The man beside you asked.

“Hmm? Oh, yeah… I’m fine.” You gave him soft smile and Jaehyun rolled his eyes at the fact that Johnny noticed first.

“Here, let me make you another wrap.” Johnny said and Jaehyun was about to burst.

He couldn’t understand why he was feeling like this when he swore he wasn’t a jealous boyfriend. Even when he dated his ex-girlfriend, he never felt jealous whenever someone would flirt with her, yet here he was nearly fuming at the sight of your best friend simply giving you a perilla leaf.

A leaf! He was getting angry over a leaf! He absolutely hated the feeling in his chest and stomach, and your soft smile directed at Johnny only made it worse. Of course, he knew Johnny was an attractive man. I mean, most girls in college were in love with him—they also favored Jaehyun, but that’s besides the point because he fell in love with you, but Johnny seemed to be waiting for someone— he just hoped it wasn’t you.

“Jae, baby, I’m talking to you.” You said softly when you noticed he was spacing out, his eyebrows furrowed and an angry pout on his mouth.

“What happened?” He asked softly but still furrowing his eyebrows. He just couldn’t control his face for some reason.

“I asked if you wanted more meat…”

“No, I’m okay. Johnny might want some though.” He rolled his eyes before he could stop himself.

Johnny smirked and continued chewing on his food. You, on the other hand, couldn’t stop a smile from forming on your lips.

Jaehyun looked up to grab some lettuce when your smile caught his attention.

“What are you smiling for?” He asked.

You leaned forward and rest your chin on your hand, smile still on your face.

“Is my baby jealous?” You teased and Johnny chuckled while Jungwoo and Leia attentively watched things unfold from the sideline.

“I don’t get jealous.” He said sternly, again, not being able to control his feelings at that moment.

“Then stop furrowing your eyebrows, you’ll get wrinkles.” You said and stroked the skin between his eyebrows with your thumb, so he could neutralize his facial expression. You noticed his ears getting red as you did and tugged on them lovingly.

“I’m not jealous.” He stuffed his mouth with rice.

“Mhm…” you hummed staring at him lovingly.

“I am not.” He said and his eyebrows furrowed again.

“Okay, we get it! You are totally not jealous.” You said and he stared at you when you reached over to grab a perilla leaf. Jaehyun watched you as you put his favorite meat and banchan on the leaf before rolling it up and putting it in front of his face, waiting for him to open his mouth—but he refused, even though he really wanted to accept it.

“Say ‘ahhhh’” you opened your mouth as if you were talking to a baby and he did, your hand stuffing his mouth with food. “Look at my pretty baby, such pretty full cheeks, hmm…” you cooed and squished his cheeks.

“Stop…” he said bashfully yet he melted in your hands. You could feel his warm cheeks as they got pink.

You could hear your friends giggle at his face, so you decided to move over and sit next to him. He refused to look at you, so you pulled his face towards you and placed a big smooch on his cheek—followed by another and another and another all over his face.

“Hmm, look at my pretty baby all jealous.” You said between smooches. “So cute, hmm, look at your pretty pink cheeks!” You kept on cooing and kissing his face while your friends laughed and hollered.

“Baby, you are embarrassing me…” he whispered and hid his face in the crook of your neck.

“Told ya it would work.” Johnny chuckled and left to watch tv in your living room, the people at the table leaving inside to play some board games and leave you two alone.

“I’m mad at you.” You heard him whisper. “I know I shouldn’t, but I can’t seem to help it.”

You embraced him and kissed his ear.

“I also hate Johnny very much right now.” He confessed and you giggled. “I hate this feeling, I’ve never felt like this with anyone before.”

“Why do you think it’s that?” You asked genuinely and felt his lips kiss your neck.

“I think I love you too much…” he confessed and softly bit the skin of your shoulder, sending shivers up your spine. “I don’t like sharing. You are mine. Only mine.” He said deeply before lapping at the bite mark.

“Yes, I am…” you sighed shakily when you felt his thumb graze your hardening nipples over your shirt. “Jaehyun, there’s people here.”

“I don’t care.” He whispered and bit your earlobe before looking back to make sure your friends had closed the doors, the glass wall was covered, which meant they had closed all the blinds. “They can’t see us anyway…”

He moved in his seat to straddle the bench and pulled you to do the same—facing him. His hands softly caressed your thighs and pulled them to place your calves on top of his thighs, bringing you closer.

“You’re mine.” He rasped out again, his fingers hovering over the fabric covering your center. “Say it.”

“Say what?” You closed your eyes when he bit your collarbones.

“Say you’re mine.” His hands moved back up to knead at your breasts.

“After you say you’re mine…” you smirked and leaned to kiss his neck, making him groan.

“I am all yours, princess. Only yours.” You grinned and captured his lips in a slow kiss. “Do you have the back house key with you?” He asked.

“Always.” You felt his strong hands grip your ass as he stood up, carrying you over to the little house by the pool.

After opening the door and locking it behind him once you were inside, he turned on the lamp by the guest bed.

“Did you plan this beforehand?” He asked when he felt the cool temperature in the room, the a/c was on and you only turned it one when you wanted to have sex by the pool.

“Making you jealous was all Leia, Woo, and John… having sex was all me.” You said and push him unto the bed.

“Good. Cause I need to do something about the anger I’m feeling cause I can’t shake it off.” He said and pulled you in by the ass.

“What are you gonna do about it?” You asked and felt him smirk against your ribs.

“Fuck the hell out of you.”

“Don’t threaten me with a good time, baby.”

“Oh baby, you have no idea.” He bit your breasts over the fabric of your shirt before moving his hands to remove it, leaving you in just your lacy bra. “Look at these pretty tits.”

You moaned when his hands squeezed them and he groaned. Strong hands kept kneading your breasts before his fingers pulled down the cups of your bra, revealing your perked-up nipples for him.

“Fuck…” he groaned and teased the buds with his wet tongue.

“Jaehyun…” he could feel the goosebumps on your skin, it only made him moan against your nipple.

He was always messy whenever it came to your chest. He loved sucking, tugging, biting, kissing, and licking your pretty buds until they were swollen and glistening with his saliva. It was almost funny how much he loved seeing your nipples covered in his slick, the shiny look made you look even sexier.

You heard his slurp around your skin before biting you softly. The action distracted you from what he did next—a hand fell harshly on your ass, making you jump forward and whine out loud.

“You are so beautiful,” he licked and sucked both your tits once more before looking up at you—who stared back at him with droopy eyes and drool almost flowing out of your pretty lips.

“Are you still angry?” You asked and he chuckled darkly.

“Yes, hearing you tell Johnny he’s the best hurt my feelings…” he confessed.

“Awe baby… you know you are the bestest!” You cooed and placed soft kisses over his plush pout.

“Yeah right…” he rolled his eyes and you could see his ears turning pink again. Poking your tongue out you licked his lips softly, the drool pooling on your tongue making it easy to glide it over his plump lips.

Your lips remained on his while your tongue teased his pouty lips.

“Let me show you how great you are, yeah?” You whispered and knelt before him. Soft hands traveled down his body, burying under his shirt to touch his toned body. “So perfect…” you leaned in to press a kiss on his bulge over his sweats.

He could feel his dick twitch when your fingers teased his nipples and your mouth pressed kisses over his pants. He wanted—needed— your warm mouth around him.

The sight of your sparkly eyes and curled lashes while your lips kissed his boner had his mind going crazy. You looked absolutely beautiful kneeled down in front of him.

“Take off your shirt, baby.” You said and he obliged. His toned torso had you salivating.

His pretty milky skin was so soft to the touch yet so manly. Your hand ran down from his collarbones to his belly button, before your head leaned over to kiss him from where your finger left off down his happy trail. The small trail of hair that led to his pants drove you insane. With him, you had found beauty in such a small thing.

“You look so pretty, princess.” He husked when your tongue poked out to lick a strip from the waistband of his sweats to the part right below his belly button.

His eyes followed your mouth, from his belly button to his abs, where you licked and kissed your way up to his chest. You placed a small kiss on the valley of his chest before running your teeth over his skin until you got to the nipple that you were teasing earlier. You didn’t waste any time sucking his bud into your mouth, the feeling of your warm tongue flicking over it making him groan.

“Such pretty sounds…” you whispered and grabbed his face to bring him down for a kiss. “Can’t wait to taste you.”

He bit his lip as he saw you go back down to his pants, this time your hands pulled the waistband of both his sweats and boxers to reveal your treat for the night.

You felt his hand fall on your head, his fingers caressing the strands of your hair while you kissed around his pelvic area.

“You’re all mine.” He said and smirked lazily at you.

“All yours, baby.”

A loud groan left his throat when your mouth engulfed his tip. You stayed sucking the tip of his cock for a few seconds before going down further. Jaehyun kept on petting your hair and panting heavily.

You came up for air and kissed his tip. “Such a pretty cock… so big…” he smirked at your words. “I only want you, baby.”

“Yeah?” He questioned and you gasped when you felt his hand take a grip of your hair harshly. “How bad do you want me, kitten?”

“So so bad, baby.” You breathed out shakily as he smirked. “I nee-“

Your sentence was cut short when he pushed your face down, his cock filling your mouth to the brim. He let out a guttural groan and moved your head at a fast pace.

Tears pooled in your eyes as you clenched around the air. You loved the feeling of having your mouth stuffed with him, sucking him off was one of your favorite things to do. The head of his cock repeatedly hit the back of your throat making you gag a little until he released himself off your mouth. A shiny string of saliva connected your open mouth with his dick and your cheeks glistened with tears.

“So fucking pretty.” He groaned while slapping his hard dick on your face and removing his grip on your hair. “Get up.”

You obeyed the man and stood up, his hands instantly circling you to remove your bra completely before removing your sweats and panties.

“Nobody else will ever touch you like this,” he groaned. His lips hovered over your neck, where he pressed soft pecks up to your jaw and until he got to your ear. “I will be the last to ever fuck this pretty body, princess.”

“I wouldn’t have it any other way…” you squirmed under his touch, the feeling of his hot breath on your skin had your knees weak. “Please…”

“Please what, sweetheart?” He asked in a sweet tone, voice still deep as the ocean. Jaehyun kissed your cheek softly waiting for your answer, even though he knew exactly what you meant.

“Please fuck me already…” he smirked against your skin but didn’t budge. “I need you inside me, baby…”

“Hmm, do you deserve it though?” He pondered and rested back on his hands leaving your body unattended.

“Yes, I do…” you pouted and he only smirked.

His eyes closed as if he was thinking real hard about something, but in reality, he just wanted to find a way to punish you for making him jealous on purpose. The feeling of anger was still very much present in his tummy, he couldn’t stop thinking about your voice telling Johnny he was the best. Like, how dare you!

If anyone was the best it was Jaehyun, he couldn’t believe you would tell someone else that. He hated watching Johnny feed you—which he has done countless times before—but tonight was different, he couldn’t stop the heaviness in his chest.

“I don’t think you deserve it.” He said and moved on the bed to lay down comfortably and get under the covers.

The t.v suddenly displayed a sitcom as you stood there by the foot of the bed completely nude and face still fucked out from sucking him off. Your mouth hung open when he started browsing through channels to find something he’d like. The man was butt naked under the covers, with a nude girl—that was just begging to be fucked—in front of him and he was watching t.v., how insane does he have to be?!

“Are you- are you serious?” You asked softly, still confused.

“Yep.” He popped the last consonant. “You are free to join me and watch a movie or you can go back to getting fed by Johnny.”

He really wasn’t going to let it slide. Jaehyun knew nothing of what happened meant anything, but for some reason being petty was the best idea his jealousy-clouded brain could come up with.

“But baby…” you whined and climbed on top of him. As soon as your head rest on his shoulder, his hand reached to pet your hair. “I love you.” You pecked his skin but he only hummed.

Your hands traveled down his body to grip his still wet cock, the feeling of it in your hand was making your pussy as wet as it could get. He didn’t budge, though you could hear him giggle over a joke said on the tv.

“Maybe I should go to Johnny.” You said softly, maybe poking the already angry bear would make him explode and eventually fuck you into the mattress.

“Go ahead.” He simply replied, hand still stroking your hair.

“I bet his dick is huge.” You felt him tense beneath you. “I bet it would feel so nice to be full with-“

“Watch it, sweetheart.” Jaehyun said sternly and you could feel his heartbeat picking up.

“Mmm…” he heard you moan and looked down at you. Your hand was hidden between your legs, stimulating your clit. “I should really give it a try. Just thinking about Johnny filling me up makes me so wet.” It didn’t. And you weren’t thinking of him at all, but you knew it would tick your boyfriend off.

“Okay, that’s it.” His hands harshly pushed you off him and unto the mattress, as soon as your back hit the bed his hand engulfed your throat, pressing softly and making you gasp. “You really wanna get dicked down? I’m gonna show you who’s dick you should be thinking of.” His—and you were, it was all you craved.

A slap on pussy made you yelp loudly. Jaehyun let go of your neck to grab your jaw roughly and lowered his face so it was close to yours, your noses touching.

“You really think this is funny?” He asked but you knew not to reply. “Huh? You think I will let you get fucked by someone else?” You’d never seen his eyes so dark before, but the thrill of being manhandled by him was making you clench around nothing.

Your eyes glistened and he just thought you looked so beautiful like this. His tongue glided over your lips, leaving your mouth open after—your tongue chasing after his.

“Oh? Now you want me?”

“I always want you, baby.” You answered quickly.

“Oh yeah?” Another slap to your pussy made you shut your eyes for a second before approving his question. “You like that, don’t you, baby?”

You could only hum in response, your center aching for the man hovering over you. Chuckling deeply, your boyfriend turned you around before circling his arm beneath your hips to pull them up. Your face pressed against the pillows and your knees held your ass up, showing him how wet you were.

“Look at that. Are you really this needy, princess?” You felt his hands follow the curve from your waist to your hips and eventually your ass. He squeezed your mounds before spanking each at a time, a strangled moan leaving your lips after each spank.

“Is this wet pussy for me or for Johnny?” He cooed, taunting you.

Bucking your hips into his touch you replied with a whine. “For you, only for you!”

“Are you sure, baby? Cause you were pretty into touching yourself thinking about him…” he was teasing you, but you could tell there was a hint of him actually believing you did.

“I’m always thinking about you. I only need you. I only want you!” You moaned when he slapped your ass again.

“Such a needy princess, tsk.” He spanked you one last time before bending down. “Look at this pretty pussy, hmm.”

His lips pressed softly against your labia, the sudden touch to your aching center had you moaning his name.

“Too bad you’ve been bad today… you don’t deserve my tongue.” You whined at his words, it was almost embarrassing how needy you were for the man.

“Honey, please…” he smirked at your face. It was just so stunning—your eyes shut, eyebrows furrowed, and mouth open. Jaehyun loved how your flushed skin looked and he couldn’t wait to hear you scream his name.

He grunted as he slapped his hard-on on your wet folds, earning a moan from you.

“Do you want this baby? Do you want my dick filling you up?”

“Yes, please!” You begged repeatedly, “Punish m- ah!” The sudden snap of his hips against yours had you screaming out in pleasure.

“Fuck, so wet for me.” He growled and his hip movements faltered for a second. “You’re mine. I’m gonna make sure you and everyone else understands it.”

“Jaehyun! Right there, ah~ feels so good!” You moaned, drool falling past your lips and onto the pillow below. He had never seen you drool during sex before, and to be honest it was the first time you’d ever done it.

The position made every thrust of his hips feel like it was done with much force. His cock entered you fully, hitting your g-spot every time. You felt completely stupid, every single thought had left your brain, all you could think about was the fast and rough thrust of his hips and how good he felt inside you.

“Look at my dumb little baby…” his hand stroked your face while his hips snapped into you faster. “What’s on your mind, princess? It looks like you are thinking very hard.” He taunted you.

It was hard to find strength in you to answer with anything else than a moan. “So good… so big inside me.” He moaned your name over and over while he kept a steady pace, but it didn’t feel enough.

“Fuck,” Jaehyun grunted before leaving the warmth of your hole, he wanted you closer. You whined, feeling empty, tears leaving your eyes as you did. “I know, baby, I know. Let me flip you over, beautiful.”

He laid you on your back and dropped his head to hide in the crook of your neck, where he kissed and sucked.

“Mmm, I love that.” You grabbed unto him, nails digging on his back, once he entered you again. His mouth made wet sounds as he sucked on your neck and his balls slapping against your ass was giving your ears a sensory overload.

“Ah- I love you so much.” You moaned and his heart beat faster.

“Yeah?” He huffed out, he was close.

“Yeah…” you whispered and he kissed your lips softly—you could feel butterflies in your stomach as he did.

“I love you more, princess.” He kept pecking your lips, a needy pout on your face as he did.

“I’m so close, baby…” you whined and his hand snuck down between your bodies to stimulate your clit.

“Let go, sweetheart. Cum for me, beautiful.” His lips engulfed yours to swallow your moans. Jaehyun’s eyes shut off as you clenched around him, your hands gripped strongly at his biceps.

“Like that, baby… hmm-“ he grunted and thrust into you harshly making you scream out.

“Jaehyun! Ah!” As if you had been holding it forever, your climax came and washed all over you. He hissed when your nails clawed on his skin, leaving red marks behind.

“Hnng, Jae-“ you tried pushing him away when he kept rocking his hips—the overstimulation was building something else up in your stomach.

“I know, baby… I’m so close, pretty girl.” His groans grew louder—deep and sexy groans that weren’t helping with your issue at hand.

You could feel your second orgasm building up, but you knew it was going to be different and he hadn’t seen this side before.

“Jae- please-“ he shushed you softly and pecked your lips before grabbing the back of your thighs and pushing them up to rest at your sides. The new angle provided him a way to enter you completely, his big dick felt so delicious rubbing against your sensitive walls and you couldn’t hold it in.

“Holy- fuck!” His went eyes wide and you screamed his name and shook beneath him.

“I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry!” You tried hiding your face with your hands when a hot gush of clear liquid squirted all over his abs, but he grabbed them quickly with one of his hands.

“Do that again.” He said darkly and dipped his head down to suck on your nipples.

“Jaehyun~” you cried and dragged on the last syllable when he resumed drilling his cock into you.

His mouth was so warm on your skin and his teeth sharp. The overstimulation had you sobbing, crying his name loudly that you were sure your friends could hear at this point.

“AH! JAEHYUN!” You screamed and squirted again, this time he groaned loudly and you could feel his cum filling your pussy.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” Your boyfriend panted before removing himself from you. You were a mess, sprawled all over the mattress, red marks over your skin, teary eyes, and glistening body. “You look so pretty…” he breathed out.

“Hmm…” you whined when his lips pressed soft kisses all over your face.

“You did so well, princess.” Your sleepy eyes clenched his heart. “Was I too rough, love?”

You shook your head and pulled him in to hug you and he chuckled.

“I didn’t know you could squirt.” He said after a few seconds.

“Hmm, I only do it when I touch myself.” You said nonchalantly but his mind flooded with pictures of you touching yourself and making yourself squirt.

“Does that mean you don’t feel good when I fuck you?” He was genuinely curious, not because it hurt his ego, but because he wanted you to enjoy sex as much as he did.

“What? Of course not, baby!” You kissed his cheek. “I hold it in. The first time we had sex I almost did it when I first had you inside me. Dick too good.” He blushed at that.

“How come you hold it in?” It was outrageous! How dare you keep this from him!

“I thought it would disgust you.” You whispered. “The last guy I was with left when I did it and told me I was gross.”

“What? He must be out of his damn mind! That was the hottest thing ever. Don’t ever hold back with me, okay?” He kissed your cheek loudly, making you giggle.

“You know I didn’t mean what I said about Johnny, right?” You asked, wanting to clear that up. “I just wanted to piss you off so you could fuck me.”

“I know, love.” He chuckled and caressed your hair.

“I love you. So much.” You said and stared at him with those pretty sparkly eyes he loves.

“I love you more, princess.”

His warm, soft body felt so nice against yours—you wanted to stay in his arms, kissing him forever but you then remembered the sheets.

“We should clean up before it gets to the mattress.” He whined at your words but helped you up, holding you when your legs almost gave out.

“You good?” He smirked and you hit his arm.

“Yes, now help me put the duvet down.” Thanks to the thick duvet that you didn’t bother to remove, the mattress and sheets were dry.

“C’mon, let’s get cleaned up.” He hugged you from behind and kissed you.

“Let me get my phone to put some music.” You went to where your clothes were on the floor and bent down to grab your sweatpants, fetching your overloaded phone.

*99+ unread messages*

“Oh no…”

“What happened?” Jaehyun asked sweetly.

“I’m never leaving this room in my life!” You cried out dramatically and he grabbed your phone, scrolling down the blown-up friend group chat before laughing out loud and smacking your butt as you got in the shower.

Message from Mark

‘Can you guys hear someone screaming?’

Message from Leia

‘Yep. Mr. and Mrs. Jeong have been at it since y’all left to get ice cream.”

Message from Maria

‘Damn, is she getting murdered or something?! 😦’

Message from Johnny

‘Murdered? No. Impaled? Yes. 🤩’

Message from Jungwoo

‘Damn he’s loud as fuck too, bout to cause an earthquake with those grunts 😟’

Message from Yuta

‘Can someone tell them to shut the fuck up? I’m trying to beat some ass at UNO and I can’t concentrate 🙄’

Message from Leia

‘Did she just-‘

Message from Doyoung

‘Uhm… what was that. Did I hear that right????’

Message from Sooyoung

‘Must be nice 😪’

Message from Taeyong

‘What’s that supposed to mean???😐’

Message from Sooyoung

‘I love you bby 😚’

Message from Leia

‘AGAIN???? TWICE IN A ROW???’

Message from Taeil

‘What is going on? I just woke up…’

Message from Yuta

‘Jaehyun and _____ are getting freaky… WAY TOO FREAKY MUST I SAY!!! 🤨’

Message from Jungwoo

‘Leave them alone… they are in love 👩🏻‍❤️‍👨🏻’

Message from Jungwoo

‘Goddamn?! Three times in a row?????’

Message from Johnny

‘So she wasn’t lying when she said it was big huh’

Message from Taeil

‘WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!?? 🤢🤢🤢’

Message from Taeyong

‘She said what???’

Message from Mark

‘Taeil hyung where are u???’

Message from Johnny

‘Not y’all acting like you weren’t there when she said it.’

Message from Leia

‘I chose to ignore it 😀’

Message from Taeil

‘I’m upstairs in one of the guest rooms, I was peacefully sleeping until y’all started blowing my phone up 🙄’

Message from Haechan

‘Damn, I didn’t know ______ was freaky like that. Y’all hear all that? She’s loud as fuck!’

Message from Johnny

‘The phone woke you up and not ____’s banshee screams?’

Message from _____

‘Leave her alone!!! So what if she’s loud? Mind your own business, nosy mfs 🙄’

Message from _____

‘Not my fault she’s obsessed with this dick 🤪’

Message from Doyoung

‘Ya nasty…’

Message from Yuta

‘I am blocking ALL of you. Starting with Mr. and Mrs. Pornhub 😣”

Message from Taeil

‘I’m gonna go back to bed 🤕’