Ven

i think about their little monster-hunting club they form. how they swear to protect their island from danger. how late they’d stay in the cave and their parents couldn’t find them when it was time to go home. how the parents demand to know where they were but they refuse to tell them because it’s a secret. how all the drawings are from all of their monster-hunting adventures.

then i think about kairi arriving on the island for the first time and sora becoming her friend immediately, riku being slow to warm up. sora one day invites her to the cave and tells her it’s a secret and she can’t tell anyone about this place. riku finding the two of them in the cave some day and getting mad at sora for breaking their secret without asking him. it wasn’t the fact that he didn’t trust kairi to keep it a secret or was opposed to her joining their club, it was that sora just made that decision without him and didn’t care to know what he thought or felt.

and maybe all those feelings come back when riku sees sora with donald and goofy in kh1. how easy he found friends after being separated from him and kairi, it feels the same.

my shane who’s baseline state is anxiety and manages to constantly find something to stress about. my shane who can’t stand normally because he’s constantly thinking about how he’s standing and how other people are perceiving him and how he’s standing. my shane who stays awake at night thinking about the last thing he said to ilya and the millions of things that ilya could be thinking right now. my shane who has visualized and mentally played out every possible scenario of them being outed in his head. my shane who is constantly petrified of doing the wrong thing or upsetting someone so he craves reassurance but doesn’t want to appear a bother so he never asks for it directly. my david and yuna who raised shane with constant reassurance so when shane encounters a communication-less situationship he has no idea how to soothe himself. my shane who becomes addicted to getting fucked because it’s the only time his overactive brain shuts off.