ʙαяᴋɪηɢ

eyes   flicker   to   the   ground   ,   feels   guilty   about   her   rendezvous   with   somebody   else   –––   though   they   weren’t   together   and   technically   he   had   no   right   to   be   mad   over   it   .   wouldn’t   bring   that   tiny   fact   up   ,   though   as   mackenzie   was   fully   aware   that   if   the   roles   were   reversed   ,   she’d   be   acting   the   same   .   maybe   worse   .   ‘   then   what   are   we   doing   ?   ’   she   asks   ,   was   a   rhetorical   question   really   ,   she   didn’t   want   or   need   an   answer   .   scared   that   whatever   his   answer   was   would   break   her   heart   .   his   reaction   confused   her   ,   didn’t   understand   why   he’d   be   angry   at   such   a   confession   ,   isn’t   that   what   he   wanted   to   hear   ?   it’s   what   mackenzie   wanted   to   hear   from   him   ,   even   though   their   relationship   was   too   difficult   to   maintain   .   ‘   i   do   hate   you   .   ’   she   says   ,   moments   before   he   rests   his   hand   on   her   cheek   –––   angry   that   he   had   the   audacity   to   be   irritated   at   mackenzie   admitting   her   love   for   him   .   pauses   ,   takes   a   long   look   into   his   eyes   ,   this   couldn’t   be   what   he   really   wanted   .   there   was   no   way   kieran   stormed   into   that   bedroom   twenty   minutes   ago   for   the   blonde   to   tell   him   that   she   hates   him   .   ‘   i   hate   that   i   love   you   ,   i   hate   that   i   can’t   move   on   from   you   .   i   hate   that   i   don’t   really   hate   you   at   all   .   how   can   i   when   i’m   this   in   love   with   you   ?   ’

heart  almost  jumps  out  her  throat  when  he  takes  the  phone  from  her  grip  ,  was  he  actually  going  to  do  it  ,  is  that  what  he  wanted  ?  she  ignores  the  question  ,  doesn’t  know  what  it  is  she  wants  .  yes  ,  she  wants  his  number  gone  so  that  she  can  at  least  try  and  move  on  but  no  ,  would  hate  to  no  longer  have  the  ability  to  contact  him  .  rolls  her  eyes  as  he  asks  about  her  intimate  relations  with  other  people  –––  or  lack  thereof  ,  which  kieran  didn’t  seem  to  know  of  .  ‘  one  person  ,  kieran  .  one  .  ’  she  informs  him  ,  mainly  to  defend  herself  from  being  called  a  hoe  but  also  to  assure  him  that  she’s  not  actually  out  every  night  ,  sleeping  around  .  ‘  ‘cause  i  was  fuckin’  mad  at  you  !  ’  femme  tells  him  ,  running  her  fingers  through  her  hair  in  frustration  .  ‘  you  hardly  ever  reply  to  me  and  it  makes  me  feel  like  complete  shit  .  he  was  just  there  ...  ’  blonde  points  back  to  the  house  ,  referring  to  the  other  male  she  almost  slept  with  .  ‘  and  he  was  giving  me  all  this  attention  ,  making  me  feel  good  and  it  just  happened  .  ’  as  he  hands  back  her  phone  ,  she  almost  snatches  it  from  his  finger  tips  so  he  couldn’t  take  it  back  ,  pushing  it  deep  into  her  coat  pocket  .  ‘  no  .  ’  shakes  her  head  aggressively  ,  no  she  wouldn’t  be  alright  if  his  number  was  erased  .  ‘  i  would  go  absolutely  insane  ,  kieran  .  even  though  i  fuckin’  hate  you  ,  i  can’t  just  not  speak  to  you    –––  or  see  you  .  i’m  in  love  with  you  and  i  hate  it  ‘cause  we’re  not  good  together  .  ’

‘  oh  my  god  .  ’  blonde  gasps  out  loud  as  kieran  makes  his  presence  known  .  suddenly  not  in  the  mood  ,  she  pushes  the  other  male  off  her  and  quickly  throws  her  dress  back  on  ,  showing  the  two  males  as  little  skin  as  possible  .  should’ve  known  he’d  be  at  tonight’s  party  ,  when  the  pair  were  in  a  relationship  ,  they  never  missed  a  gathering  –––  showing  up  adorably  late  but  fitting  in  with  the  rest  of  their  peers  like  a  puzzle  .  mackenzie  ignores  his  question  as  she  pushes  by  him  ,  not  wanting  to  be  here  any  longer  .  fully  aware  that  he’s  following  her  ,  she  waits  on  the  grass  outside  ,  letting  him  say  what  he  needs  to  .  ‘  i’m  just  trying  to  get  over  you  .  ’  femme  whispers  ,  avoiding  eye  contact  with  the  brunet  .  ‘  i’m  so  tired  of  missing  you  like  crazy  and  then  waking  up  sober  ,  still  missing  you  but  knowing  we’re  not  good  together  .  i’m  sorry  for  toying  with  you  ,  you  can  delete  your  number  from  my  phone  if  you  want  .  ’  mackenzie  suggests  ,  reaching  in  her  jacket  pocket  for  the  phone  –––  holding  it  towards  him  .

mouth  opens  for  only  half  a  second  as  she  was  about  to  ask  how  he  was  going  to  cover  this  up  ,  how  he  was  going  to  make  things  better  .  but  zoey  realised  she  didn’t  actually  want  to  know  ,  sure  this  may  have  been  all  her  doing  but  femme  wanted  nothing  more  to  do  with  it  from  here  on  out  .  afraid  if  she  knew  any  details  her  guilt  would  keep  her  mouth  from  staying  shut  .  but  monti  is  involved  now  .  her  life  saver  ,  she  couldn’t  risk  getting  him  into  trouble  .  ‘  okay  .  ’  she  agrees  ,  nodding  softly  –––  brown  eyes  watch  the  wrapped  up  lifeless  body  carefully  ,  almost  as  if  there  was  a  chance  he  was  going  to  jump  up  in  order  to  get  her  into  trouble  for  attempted  murder  .  as  monti  steps  closer  ,  zoey  tears  her  gaze  away  from  the  figure  on  the  floor  and  wraps  her  arms  around  the  blond  –––  doesn’t  know  how  she’d  survive  without  him  ,  would  most  likely  turn  herself  in  or  subject  herself  to  being  screamed  at  by  her  brother  .  nods  against  his  chest  as  he  explains  the  distorted  truth  .  it  wasn’t  her  fault  ,  if  she  hadn’t  done  what  she  did  ,  aidan  would’ve  hurt  her  .  ‘  –––wasn’t  my  fault  .  ’  she  continues  ,  pulling  back  from  monti’s  chest  but  reaches  for  his  hand  instead  ,  intertwining  their  fingers  .  the  dried  blood  coating  his  hands  was  an  uncomfortable  sight  to  say  the  least  ,  but  right  now  zoey  didn’t  care  ,  she  just  needed  to  be  held  .  ‘  can  we  go  ?  ’  she  asks  ,  looking  up  at  the  male  .  ‘  it’s  really  cold  ,  i  need  a  shower  and  i  can’t  look  at  him  anymore  .  ’

it’s  been  three  months  since  mack  broke  up  with  him  ,  three  months  since  he  broke  the  heart  of  the  love  of  his  life  ,  three  months  since  he  started  his  weekly  string  of  one  night  stands  to  stop  himself  hurting  .  none  of  them  worked  .  even  the  girls  that  told  him  they  would  be  able  to  stop  him  thinking  about  his  ex  ,  it  just  made  the  blond  think  about  mack  that  much  more  .  still  ,  his  routine  never  stopped  ,  still  allows  his  friends  to  drag  him  to  clubs  every  friday  and  saturday  night  .  empty  shots  of  tequila  cover  their  table  as  hunter’s  blue  hues  scan  the  crowded  venue  looking  for  another  cute  girl  to  make  conversation  with  –––  eyes  come  to  a  halt  when  he  spots  the  familiar  golden  locks  ,  smile  on  her  face  as  she  converses  with  a  friend  .  stands  up  from  the  booth  ,  his  friends  follow  his  eye  line  and  tell  him  not  to  bother  but  as  always  ,  hunter  refuses  to  listen  .  makes  his  way  over  to  the  femme  ,  he  stops  a  few  feet  in  front  of  her  –––  realising  he  hadn’t  planned  on  what  he  was  going  to  say  .  ‘  mack  ,  hi  ...  ’  he  mumbles  ,  a  part  of  him  hoping  she  hadn’t  heard  his  lame  opening  above  the  music  .

halloween  had  rolled  around  again  and  so  thomas  and  his  friends  were  back  at  their  tradition  –––  staying  the  weekend  at  a  lodge  in  the  mountains  ,  owned  by  the  parents  of  one  of  the  friend’s  .  they  had  all  headed  up  early  evening  apart  from  dahlia  who  had  to  work  and  wasn’t  able  to  make  it  until  later  and  so  as  the  group  settles  into  their  comfiest  clothes  to  play  corny  and  vulgar  drinking  games  ,  thomas  heads  off  to  pick  up  his  roommate  from  the  cable  car  station  after  she’d  messaged  him  about  arriving  shortly  .  didn’t  take  the  red  head  long  to  arrive  at  his  destination  ,  after  all  it  was  chilly  and  he’d  rather  not  get  attacked  by  snow  any  longer  .  ‘  finally  .  i’ve  been  waiting  here  forever  .  ’  male  tells  her  ,  a  smirk  on  his  features  as  he  watches  the  femme  step  out  of  the  car  .  actually  he’d  only  just  arrived  but  thomas  loved  to  irritate  her  .  after  reaching  out  and  pulling  the  brunette  towards  him  ,  male  leans  in  to  place  a  kiss  upon  plump  lips  .  ‘  did  anyone  ever  tell  you  that  you  look  kinda  sexy  in  those  boots  ?  ’

probably   should   leave   ,   it   would   be   the   sane   and   responsible   thing   to   do   ,   let   the   girl   have   her   space   –––   maybe   calm   down   a   little   .   (   although   she   had   every   reason   to   be   riled   up   )   but   unfortunately   hunter   had   neither   of   those   positive   attributes   ,   he   loved   her   too   much   to   let   mack   believe   for   even   a   second   that   he   was   into   someone   else   .   male   needed   her   to   know   how   regretful   he   was   –––   didn’t   want   to   be   grouped   with   any   other   guys   she   had   been   with   because   even   though   he   had   made   a   huge   mistake   ,   those   guys   never   truly   loved   her   .   not   like   hunter   does   .   ‘   baby   ,   you’re   reading   too   much   into   it   .   ’   he   tells   her   ,   eyes   fixed   on   hers   ,   afraid   the   moment   he   looks   away   ,   mack   will   disappear   from   his   life   .   ‘   i   don’t   miss   her   –––   i   can’t   miss   her   ,   it   was   never   that   serious   .   ’   god   ,   hunter   enough   .   he   wanted   to   scream   at   himself   ,   reminiscing   about   a   past   relationship   in   front   of   a   new   girlfriend   ,   regardless   of   the   context   was   always   a   terrible   thing   to   do   .   ‘   alright   ,   alright   .   i’ll   leave   .   ’   he   began   ,   taking   a   few   steps   backwards   towards   the   door   .   ‘   i   just   need   you   to   stop   thinking   it   was   some   intimate   fairy   tale   thing   where   i   kissed   her   because   i   realised   i’ve   always   had   feelings   for   her   .   we   were   drunk   as   shit   ,   mack   .   how   romantic   do   you   think   it   was   ?   ’

watches   the   male   grab   her   bed   sheets   and   frowns   in   confusion   before   immediately   turning   away   from   the   scene   ,   scrunching   her   nose   in   disgust   as   monti   rolls   the   body   in   her   sheets   .   every   second   that   passes   by   brunette’s   anxiety   rises   ,   sure   she’s   never   been   the   perfect   person   but   zoey’s   offences   consisted   of   cocaine   on   the   weekends   ,   not   murder   .   ‘   how   am   i   supposed   to   keep   this   from   him   ?   ’   she   asks   ,   voice   barely   audible   .   ‘   he’s   gonna   realise   he   didn’t   leave   with   them   tonight   and   he’s   gonna   ask   me   why   .   he   knows   when   i’m   lying   ,   monti   .   ’   nods   as   he   informs   her   that   he’ll   take   care   of   it   ;   a   part   of   her   is   relieved   ,   the   other   part   feels   too   guilty   .   ‘   maybe   nothing   will   happen   if   we   tell   someone   ,   i   mean   we   can   just   explain   what   he   tried   to   do   to   me      .   i   mean   ,   it’s   not   my   fault   ,   right   ?   ’   was   a   terrible   suggestion   really   ,   even   if   zoey   was   to   get   away   with   it   .   if   law   enforcement   were   to   get   involved   ,   the   media   would   find   out   and   her   parents   would   lose   their   careers   ,   leading   both   zoey   and   aaron   to   kiss   goodbye   to   their   extravagant   lifestyle   .   femme   shrugs   ,   doesn’t   spend   that   much   time   with   her   brother’s   friends   but   knows   a   little   about   this   one   during   the   amount   of   time   he   spends   here   .   ‘   his   name’s   aidan   ,   classic   asshole   .   takes   a   lot   of   ketamine   to   forget   that   his   mommy   and   daddy   don’t   really   care   about   him   .   our   parents   hate   him   ‘cause   he   got   aaron   on   it   and   he   almost   overdosed   .   ’