Thatdeadgirl & Friends

I don't like conflict. Never have. When I've tried to stand up for myself, I've *literally* gotten slapped in the face. As an adult and trying to communicate with my SO, it's fucking tough to not sound I guess like I'm trying to argue with him. But I'm really not trying to, I just come off as such? I don't really know. I ask simple things of him or ask for an opinion and he immediately thinks I'm trying to fight for no reason? I don't understand and then I feel bad and have the need to apologize for the thing I asked and I still don't have a solution or answer. I know I can get this into words but he's more of an action type of guy versus reading. I know I couldn't speak about this without crying in front of him which I'm okay with but it feels like crying would defeat the whole purpose of trying to get my point across? I don't know. I'm lost and struggling with a lot.

I'm glad my circle is small. It's unfortunate the circumstances that's caused me to have such a small circle, but clearly the universe said "focus on you and yours, and fuck everyone else." The disrespect and hate my circle has received the last year is disgusting, and there are at least 2 people who are rolling over in their graves. We were not raised this way. We were not told to disrespect each other. We were not given the authority or permission to act this way towards each other. I have kept my mouth shut mostly this entire time. Only have I expressed my issues and concerns within my circle because expressing them outside of my circle would fall upon deaf ears or it just wouldn't matter. But the way my mom and sister have been spoken to by others outside of the circle, I hope you all rue the fucking day when it's YOUR judgement day at the "pearly gates" and the savior asks about that time in March - May, 2023. You all know who you fucking are and I hope you have all lost sleep over this. Whether it be regret, sorrow, or mournful, may your sleep forever be disturbed and may *God" have mercy on your soul. Oh and, Bless your hearts too.

When your husband doesn't listen to you and just completely ignores you. To give some context, he's playing Fallout 76 with his family and asks a question where/what something is and I tell him and he completely ignores me and my knowledge of the game. I'm over his obsession with this fucking game.

Probably gonna be here more often than i have been. Facebook is trash, Twitter (X) has been dead to me for years, and Instagram never works for me. So here I am I think. This will be a safe space for myself and everyone who follows or chooses to join me on the chaotic ride called life.