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I don't have a niche. I post unboxing, memes, love island, tech, bookish, music & singing, theme parks (Disney, Universal, Epic Universe), lifestyle, what I had for lunch, whatever I want.

That's my diary. Y'all are just allowed to read this one 😅

Well, hello there. It’s been a while, Tumblr. I actually tried to stay away from here, deleted the app and everything. Look at me now.

I am back in Jacksonville. Have been since The first of January. However, soon after I got back here, I applied to go back, and Walter Elias Disney just couldn’t have me gone for too long, because I’m going back home to Orlando in may!

I know what the three people who read my posts are probably thinking, “what the hell?”, and yea. Me too, bud.

It didn’t take too long for me to remember just how toxic this place is. Not long at all. It took less than thirteen days, basically. Because that’s the amount of days between the day I got back to Jacksonville, and the day I applied to go back to Orlando. And let me tell ya, it did not take the full thirteen days. 

I feel alone again here. It’s insane. I was excited to go back to school, back to chorus, really, but that sucks. I hate it there. It just feels so forced and fake and I just don't feel welcomed there, so I don’t go anymore. It doesn't help that my only on campus class is on wednesday mornings, so it just means that choir is both depressing, and inconvenient. 

Back to being alone. I’m still single. Painfully single. I hate how much of a deal that is to me, but it’s a big deal. I’m still semi heartbroken over this douche, but here I am, thinking about him multiple times, every single fucking day. It’s insane and I hate myself for it. I am not going to settle though. I’ve been asked out and flirted with quite a bit since I got here. Sadly, all from guys who are dating friends of mine (I know, disgusting), and if it isn’t that, its just a guy that I’m not interested in. It sucks. Love sucks. Relationships suck. I just wanna find my Prince Charming and live happily ever after. Maybe I’ll find him this time around? Maybe not. Oh well. 

Onto something less depressing. My hair is growing! It really is! Of course, not as fast or as long as I’d like it to, but it’s definitely better than before! I’m also getting used to extensions, or at least the ponytail! I can’t wait to wear it regularly in Orlando!

Another great thing is that I’m most likely getting pet rats! They will be emotional support rats (I know, don’t judge) and I can’t wait to get them! It’s really only if I’m living in my own room in Flamingo Crossing, and that can only happen if I’m working in Magic Kingdom again. I really hope I am. I wanna work in Tomorrowland or Big Thunder! Or maybe some other place I haven’t thought of, but will love! I also really miss The Mouse, preferably Tres! The rice and beans haunt me in my dreams, I swear.

Well, I’ve kinda run out of things to talk about at the moment. It’s also after 2 and I’m exhausted, so I’m just going to embrace my ruined sleep schedule and go to sleep. Tomorrow, I plan on doing a lot of reading and possibly filming a new YouTube video. Which reminds me, I need to tell you guys about my newest obsession with TikTok, but we won’t get into that embarrassment tonight, don’t worry.

Goodnight!

I made a video to help those who are preparing for a DCP phone interview. Go ahead and give it a watch!

I talked to a good friend of mine tonight and had a good cry. Found out I was still scarred from a few things that happened years ago. Hopefully now I can do things for myself and only for myself. I need to put my happiness first, truly, and do what’s best for my mental health. Starting with going home and moving into my own apartment, going back to school, properly studying the witchcraft I’ve been drawn to, but shielded from by my catholic mother, and just do what’s right for me and not for anyone watching.

Hey there, it’s been a while. 

I haven’t been in the best place, mentally, as of late. It’s actually the worst I’ve been since I got here. Today was the worst day of work I’ve ever had. I learned that I truly have no friends at work, I can trust absolutely no one, and it doesn’t matter what I do, nobody will ever respect me there.

I sorta forgot to mention that I finally started my YouTube channel, and I uploaded my first video this past Monday! It’s all about my past experiences with applying for the Disney College Program, including this final time where I actually got accepted! My main goal with this video was to explain just how unpredictable the process is, and how it doesn’t matter when you applied, when you got your WBI, none of it matters! Just be yourself, and know that the recruiters are doing the best that they can, and that everything happens for a reason. Have faith in that. Anywho, watch my latest video here, tell me what you guys think, and don’t forget to like and subscribe!!!