«L4DY L4ZARÜS»

The less serious out of “The Fame” bunch.

Since I was 10 years old going to local hardcore shows with my dad, the way everything played out always inspired me. The way people dressed, the attitude, the music, the inside jokes, the moshing, everything. It just made me want to experience that for myself in my own way once I got old enough.

It finally clicked here recently that sludge metal/doom metal is definitely a path I wouldn’t mind going down (and performing in one of those stuffy ass warehouse venues somewhere.)

My main takeaway in the scene would to make it known that I can be a queer person/woman in a male dominated space.

I want to be able to play shows and be respected by guys there, but also Kiki and smoke weed with the girls too (especially the ones that were “dragged to the show” by their boyfriends LMAOOO).

That being said, being a Genderfluid/DemiGirl (?) will most definitely have a big play in how I navigate my presence. I’m sure the men I’d be around would give me some sort of gender envy to where I start dressing like them (baggy jeans, chain wallets, hoodie/ baggy shirt, backwards hat, also maybe some sort of Lace bralette or thong to even out the energy 😭) but I also wanna confuse said men too and come to the stage in a high femme outfit with heels.

It makes me happy knowing I can confuse the hell out of an audience and scratch my itch for wearing everything and executing my own form of gender expression.

“The redheaded hussy sported in faux fur, leather, latex, lace, spikes and everything in between.

Class with a grit.

Loud, theatrical, political, flashy, low-brows high held gal.

Mixing high fashion with the underground.”

Student of Lady Gaga, Trent Reznor, Al Jourgensen, Charli xcx, and David Bowie (amongst many others)

A way to slither into a “stream” (maybe not mainstream).

A spiritually warded, oscillating sound reverberated from nostalgia.

“The Industrial Revival”

living out all your senses in a club; being fully alive.

All your primal desires all over the radio in the same way it did in the 90s.

A debaucherous sonic expression of molting.

Where it leads is unclear, the goal is to ride as far as possible.

Through fashion, through collaborations, through visuals, through connection the music brings.

“This life is the only option and By all fucking means necessary […] I will morph and transform until I die. I’m a transient being, and everything is temporary […] And so it shall be. On everyone’s screens, the papers, the radios…

Rare & Ruthless for the rest of my days,

The summer I was 16, I became obsessed with the idea of transmuting my life and visions into a tangible reality.

A vocal declaration of ideas I wanted my life to become; with or without someone.

A “Manifesto”

Since 2024, I try to set them up often as a form of self archiving.