The Shy Blossom

Wow sure looks different on here lol it's been a long time anyhow guess I'm back? :)

If I started doing nude pics and maybe more should I get to know u would anybody actually be interested pm my inbox

What do u do when u give up..... I don't wanna be here anymore

How do I let this out it swirls about inside me like waves breaking on the sand, am I the ocean or the shore. It hurts... it grabs at my heart and pulls making sure not pull to hard. Is this despair..... it hurts, my head is spinning and can't seem to find air so why am I content it hurts but I dare not let it go. It's warm and embraces me comforting somehow as it digs it's knives ever deeper covering me more and more the waves have stopped and I'm staring at the surface but all I see is me... reaching ever upwards. Why can't I reach it's cold but it will keep me warm calling me down I don't understand. Happiness warmth sadness despair love enjoyment depression they all form the black bleeding warm ball in my chest always telling me to be happy enjoy and don't be shy I dash forward only to be dragged to my knees again comforted but what could be but not for me why do I encourage myself when I lock my self to the floor and throw away the key