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“why not?” caden smirked as her thumb rubbed across her jaw, a small, soft chuckle slipping from her at melodie’s words. she let her hands slip further down the other’s back, eventually resting them on her ass, squeezing gently. when melodie pulled away from the kiss, caden kept her arms around her, holding her close still. “you’re unbelievable.” she mumbled as she let their foreheads rest together, allowing them to catch their breaths. “we should do that again.”

“then i want to go to bed with you every night, and wake up to you every morning.” emily smiled, nuzzling her nose against jj’s. another moan slipped from her when she felt the blonde’s teeth around her nipple. being this close to jj was everything she had needed, everything she had wanted for so long now. with her hand still tangled in the blonde hair, she gave it a light pull as she let out another moan. the brunette didn’t hesitate to lift her hips as jj tugged at her underwear, letting her make easy work of them. as she settled between her legs, emily pushed up on her elbow, keeping her other hand in jj’s hair as a smirk settled on her lips. “i want you to make me come.”

how maya was doing was none of carina’s business. it really wasn’t. even though maya wanted it to be. “i’m fine though, you’ve no reason to keep me here.” maya groaned, rolling her head back onto the pillow as she let out a sigh. "i was just doing my job, carina.” she couldn’t help the butterflies swarming back to her stomach when she felt the brunette’s hand in her own again. it calmed her down somehow. it shouldn’t. but it did. her jaw clenched shut again at carina’s words. it took her a few seconds to wrap her head around what she had just said. “you said you love her. you said she was good to you. that you were happy. so you shouldn’t have done that.” it wasn’t like maya hadn’t done the same thing. well, she had gone home to her own place and not talked to her girlfriend since. she hadn’t – really told her what was going on, but – she was convinced she already knew the blonde wasn’t invested the way she should be. 

maya x carina [ @chis1x1 ]

maybe it was because of the night before. maybe her head wasn’t where it was supposed to be at. maybe she was overwhelmed by her emotions. whatever it was – maya had pushed too far at work. catching a ride with the ambulance to the hospital, she was shoved onto a hospital bed by one of the doctors swarming the ambulance as they pulled up in front of the pit. “fucking hell, i can walk just fine.” maya groaned as she pulled the oxygen mask from her face, only to have the doctor push it back against her. she rolled her eyes as she was wheeled into the pit. the adrenaline rush from the fire has started to wear off, and her shoulder was hurting more by the second. she knew it was dislocated, but goddamn was it supposed to hurt this much? ‘eyes forward and shake it off’, maya thought to herself, trying to stick to her guns. she looked around the er as she was wheeled in, praying to god she didn’t have to see carina around. it wasn’t that often she would be anywhere but her own floor, so maya tried to convince herself the chances were slim today too. she wasn’t really paying attention as the doctor described how he was going to fix her shoulder, her brain was too occupied with worrying about seeing her ex-girlfriend around. it wasn’t until they started wrestling with her arm she slept out a loud groan at the pain. “fucking hell, are you trying to kill me?” she yelled at the doctor, her jaw soon clenching shut as she realized what she had done. “sorry. i’m fine. I’m fine, that feels better. can i go now?” she asked, pulling off the oxygen mask again, only to have is slapped back on by the doctor again. “i don’t like you very much.” she mumbled under her breath, soon letting out a couple coughs.

maya sighed when carina picked her up, wrapping her arms around her neck as she carried her towards the sinks. she placed her hands on the brunette’s ass, pulling her closer against her. a small groan left her as carina moved away. she knew this wasn’t fair on either of their girlfriends. she knew it was wrong, but everything with carina felt so right. “i know.” she let out a sigh and held on to carina’s hand. “don’t tell me it didn’t feel right though. ‘cause I won’t believe you.” maya said, pushing away from the sinks and turning around to fix her hair in the mirror. “i still don’t really know what that reason was though. but – i’m sure it makes sense in the big picture. i shouldn’t have come after you. you didn’t want me to do it then, so i shouldn’t have assumed you did now.” maya gave her a small smile before making her way to the door. “take care of yourself, dr. deluca.” she gave her one last glance before making her way out of the bathroom.

maya was right, it felt so right and there was no going back from what had just happened but there was still the issue of them both having girlfriends who were in the club behind the door they had just kissed against. “maya, wait. don’t dr deluca me. please, don’t leave like this. i don’t want you to leave like this.” she had to fight the urge to tell maya she was in love with her, she couldn’t do it. not after she’d just told her to leave. “we can be friends maya, it doesn’t have to be like this. i missed you so much.” while carina only cared about maya in that moment, she had to think of her girlfriend, she was a good person and she was completely innocent in all of this. “i’ll see you around, okay?”

“i didn’t say that.” maya sighed. she had by no means meant to insinuate that carina’s new girlfriend was bad at her job. she had simply felt the need to check up on the brunette. “that’s – nice. i’m happy for you.” she wasn’t. maya really wasn’t. she was jealous. “i just wanted to make sure you were okay. that’s all, carina. i’m sorry i overstepped.” she swallowed, looking down at her arms in an attempt to distract herself from how good carina looked. “it’s fine. i just wanted to check in on you. i’ll stay in my own lane. i’ll just – we’ll leave and go somewhere else. i didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable.” maya offered, looking back up at carina just in time to see the woman moving towards her. she soon felt all of the brunette’s body heat against her. “what are you–” she mumbled just as she felt carina’s lips against her own, her arms wrapping around the other’s waist and her hands settling on her ass as she pulled her closer. maya knew that everything about this was wrong, but she didn’t care. carina was home. carina was the love of her life. that had never changed. their bodies were made for each other, they fit like they were made for each other.

emily bit down on her lip as she watched jj throw her shirt to the side. she was beautiful. everything she had imagined and more. a grin spread on her lips as she helped pull her own shirt off, tilting her head as she looked down on jj. “is this what every morning with you is like? ‘cause if it is – i want it.” emily grinned, leaning down and pressing a soft kiss to her lips, one hand rubbing her neck as she did so. a moan escaped her at the feeling of jj’s tongue sneaking into her mouth. she sighed as as jj flipped them over, a smirk on her face as she felt her lips move down her neck, another moan slipping from her as a hand tangled in the blonde hair in front of her. 

“well, i live here too, so – i think i’m allowed to go out and get drunk when i want to. it’s – it’s been five years.” maya swallowed. five years was a long time, and it probably meant she should have gotten rid of the butterflies in her stomach by now. they should have left a long time ago. they should have left when they broke up, and maya thought they had. seeing carina again though – looking as beautiful as she did – nope. they were very much still there. she watched as the woman moved closer, and crossed her arms tighter to keep herself from reaching out and touching her. the last thing she wanted to do right now was open the floodgates. “i’m okay. tired though. work’s been kicking my ass.” maya swallowed at the nickname coming from carina’s mouth. it was one she had never thought she would hear again, at least not directed towards her. it felt warm. it sent a shiver down her spine. it made her feel all kinds of things. she tried to avoid the compliments from carina, not really knowing what she was supposed to do with them. “you – look really good too.” maya chewed her bottom lip as she eyed carina. she really did look so good. if anything she looked even better than before. she knew she shouldn’t be looking at anyone who wasn’t her girlfriend, but – she didn’t care. this was carina. this was – used to be the love of her life. maybe she still was? no. ‘stop that. eyes forward.’ maya thought to herself. “wow. okay, um – i just wanted to make sure you were okay. you looked upset and your – um, she wasn’t following you, so i just – i don’t know, i just wanted to make sure you were okay, i guess. i’m sorry i overstepped.” maya raised her eyebrows at the aggression from the other woman. the end of their relationship had been riddled with arguments and telling, and she remembered exactly why they had broken up now. the tone of carina’s voice made her stomach drop to the floor. “look, i’m sorry. i just thought someone should check up on you.” she could still read carina like an open book though. she wasn’t really mad, was she? she was scared. scared of her feelings. just like maya had been in the early stages of their relationship. just like carina had been at the end of it. “i’ll stay away if that’s what you really want.” but something told her that wasn’t what she wanted at all. it sure as hell wasn’t what maya wanted.

the way maya looked at her reminded carina of why she had fallen in love with her in the first place and that was terrifying, her girlfriend was literally just outside and so was maya’s. they couldn’t do this. whatever this was. “she didn’t follow me because i told her i was going to the bathroom, there was no need for her to follow me. are you trying to say she’s a bad girlfriend? because she isn’t maya…she’s perfect, she’s beautiful, she’s kind — i love her.” she wanted to add that she wasn’t in love with the woman somewhere the other side of the door, in fact she was pretty sure she was in love with the woman who was currently stood in front of her, the woman that she thought she had left behind five years ago. feelings stirred in her lower belly as she looked at maya again, the eye contact lasted for just a second or two too long and carina was completely hooked again. she wanted maya, she wanted her desperately. “no, don’t go. i’m sorry maya, for everything. i moved on…i love her,” it was as if she was trying to convince herself but it wasn’t working and despite her words she closed the gap between them and caught maya in a searing kiss. that was all it took, her heart beat in that moment only for maya and she forgot instantly that she wasn’t single and that what she was doing was wrong. she pushed maya up against the door, the kiss hungry and it more than made up for the last five years that they had missed.

caden wrapped her arms a little tighter around melodie’s waist as they moved to the music. it felt comfortable until their eyes met. her eyes looked like they were terrified. gorgeous – but terrified. cade offered a small smile when she felt her hand on her face in an attempt to relax the other. she slipped her hand under melodie’s shirt, rubbing circles with her thumb at the skin she found on her hip. she was soft. so soft. it wasn’t like caden hadn’t seen melodie before. but had she really seen her? it didn’t feel much like it right now. today was supposed to be about escaping romance and love, but – this didn’t have to be that, did it? it could be just – company. right? she didn’t know, but she leaned in and pressed a deep kiss to melodie’s lips, her other hand resting on the woman’s neck. 

maya hadn’t really been out like this in what felt like forever. work had been busy and she had been exhausted by the time she came home every day. it was fun, but everything hadn’t been going great lately, so she would really rather be curled up on the couch at home, or maybe in bed. maybe even go for a run. really just somewhere her girlfriend wasn’t. even if that sounded completely wrong. trying to shake the thought, she downed the rest of her drink, setting it down on the bar as she had a look around the room. her girlfriend was out on the floor dancing with some friends she had found at the bar. a small chuckle slipped from her at the ordeal as she shook her head, before scanning across the rest of the club. and there she was. carina. she hadn’t seen her in a long time. years even. several. her jaw clenched for a second, a frown spreading on her face as she saw the brunette running off to the bathroom. as if on instinct, maya pushed away from the bar and followed her into the bathroom, opening the door quietly in an attempt to not startle the woman. seeing her by the sinks, maya’s jaw clenched again as she crossed her arms, leaning one shoulder against the wall by the door as she watched her for a second. she was as beautiful as she had always been, maybe even more. the past five years had been kind to her. taking a deep breath, maya let out a sigh, figuring the least she could do when she had stalked carina in here was to look out for her. “you okay?”

carina’s heart rate soared as she heard the familiar voice of her ex, she turned to look at maya and couldn’t help but smile. she looked absolutely out of this world and the flutter of butterflies in her stomach only grew the more she looked at her. carina sighed and nodded. “i’m fine, i guess i just wasn’t expecting to see you here and especially not with someone else, i mean, it’s the first time since — well since we broke up.” she had no right to be jealous, did she? she was there with someone else too and she was pretty happy with how her life was at the moment, she was doing good things in the hospital and she was happy with her relationship but seeing maya stood there brought so many old feelings back up that she never expected to feel again. she felt remorseful of their break up and she was regretting everything that had happened to get them to that point. she moved a little closer to maya, her instincts to reach out and touch the blonde absolutely unbearable, but she refrained for fear of what would happen if she did so. “are you okay? you look good bambina, still, i mean. you’ve always looked so good.” she unintentionally licked her lips as she looked her ex up and down. this was wrong on so many levels, she shouldn’t be looking at her this way. “i should probably go,” she pointed to the door, she wanted maya to move, she’d never be able to leave with her stood in front of the door. did she even really want to leave? no, she was just scared of the inevitable, she was scared that everything she was feeling again was going to come to something that they wouldn’t be able to come back from. she thought about her girlfriend out on the dance floor, had maya seen them together? had maya seen how different it was with her? she looked back up at maya, a frown turning the corners of her mouth down. “why did you follow me? you have no reason to be in here, we’ve been apart for five years maya and you just — i need to leave, can you please move.” she wanted to cry, she wanted to scream at maya for being there but she couldn’t. not here, not now. she just wanted to run away and not turn back, she wished she had never come in here, she should’ve stayed in the club where she wasn’t alone with someone who she had once classed as the love of her life.