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Trevor Noah interviewing Judith “Badass” Heumann

Judy Heumann believed in the inherent value of each disabled individual and would never back down on what she thought was right. Her friends and fellow activists remember her as a strong leader.

Judy Heumann

December 18, 1947 - March 4, 2023

Number one reason being my back. It WILL absolutely get fucked up again from even carrying a pregnancy, so I have no desire to do that. I wanted the day I took off work for today to be mine and ONLY mine, so I'm not happy. I told them: how would they be responsible for a kid (who is 100% reliant on the adult) if he cannot remember vital things like keys?

Reading Bloodfire Baby, and I am on page 247, nearly finishing it on our plane rides, and the character Eirinee Carson writes I feel like I am channeling. I am channeling Sofia, because I just want my own time, not being constantly blasted awake by everyone else's needs.

Literally, many people have told me before essentially I do not think of myself enough, which is true, because I give EVERY OUNCE of myself to everyone else. I don't want to do MORE of that after I am done working for the day, so kids are not something I see myself doing and being HAPPY. I know for a solid fact that I would become depressed and suicidal. The only things I want to do when I am not working are sleeping, lifting weights, drumming, making my healthy meals, and trying to get back into writing. I do NOT want to be responsible for anyone else. I have had actual nightmares as a KID about having kids. Especially if you're going to be the only one actually performing all of the acts that having a kid entails. I would actually take my own life because I would not be happy having ZERO me time. Hell fucking NO. I want all of my free time to myself, and I do not want anyone else dictating that at all.

My significant other is literally the best relationship I've ever had, but it bothers me that they seem very forgetful of vital things. Things your partner should not have to assume responsibility for. I feel badly being aggravated with this, as they literally have suffered brain damage from injury in the past.