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A reliance on Nazism as the pinnacle of exterminatory violence effectively renders violence against non-white bodies illegible.
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whatâs up family. last semester for book club we read two books I enjoyed: âExperiments in Democracyâ by Benjamin Hurlbut and âBeing Mortalâ by Atul Gawande (whose first book we read was just terrible). both dealt with how we (Americans) manage the most extreme stages of human lifeâHurlburtâs book tracks US federal policy and the surrounding politics of human embryo research and Gawandeâs describes the shortcomings of elderly care and offers some suggestions for making their lives less shitty (spoiler: buy them plants)
man I really learned a lot from Hurlbutâs book. it took me three reads to make it through the prologue lol he summarizes Sheila Jasanoffâsâthe goat of science legal theoryâscalding hot take that science holds a special, elevated position of authority in the court system. itâs âspecialâ because there is no constitutional basis for it. scientists are paraded into court to provide unquestionable evidence as singular authorities and stewards of truthâthe judges, the lawyers, the jury, all the public, must swallow scientific data as incontrovertible Facts like the uninformed plebs they are. scienceâs role is of course good and bad: good because it really can help provide input on legal and policy decisions but bad because, as Hurlbut goes on to describe in the next 300 pages, it has contributed to the erosion of trust of scientists due to their mismanagement, often through unsubstantiated claims of future discoveries (and sometimes plain misuse), of that authority. how has science ~really~ made our lives better? and specific to human embryo research, what treatments have come out of the last 20 years of research? are scientists any more moral than âregularâ people? the answer is clearly no and to continue to state the obvious, science has a long history of exploitation that is rarely discussed by the folks actually doing the research in an effort to put a big shiny gold star on Science to get more money to do, well, more research
building on Jasanoff, Hurlbut describes how scientists in federal advisory committeesâin this case ethical review boards both in HHS and the White Houseâhave positioned themselves as the sole arbiters of what he calls âreasonable pluralism,â a âdemocraticâ process to account for all viewpoints in a final decision. of course, none of the committees he documents really do that effectively and heâs not clear on what that would actually look like in practice. stem cell policy is wrapped up the politics of each administration and that influence is clear in the products of these âindependentâ policy bodiesâthe president can more or less place who he wants on these committees, even at the agency level
with scientists deciding what is âreasonableâ they have often excluded public views, sometimes religious, from ethical deliberations, or at a minimum, included them insofar as they can be rationalized by scientific fact, i.e the 14-day limit on culturing embryos outside of a uterusâat day 14 after conception, the embryo develops whatâs known as a âprimitive streakâ the first real cellular structure that eventually becomes a humanâs nervous systemâbecause the public is too stupid to understand the science. and this returns us again to the bookâs central thesis: bioethicists wield too much power in making policy decisions, have a clear conflict of interest in establishing such an authority, and to date no committee has followed anywhere near a âdemocraticâ process in establishing research guidelines. in Hurlbutâs view the closest advisory committee to undertake a near-pluralistic approach was G.W. Bushâs âPresidentâs Council on Bioethics. â and as Kirstin pointed out to us, the authorâs father was on that committee so lmao
the book made me think about the distinction between ethics and morals, which now seems obvious: collective versus individual value systems. it also made think about my own definition of personhood and my stance on the âmoral statusâ of the embryo, which I will spare in this already long-winded book review. pt ii of this post will cover Gawandeâs book on getting old and progressively more miserable. stay tuned ;)

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Well, sheâll say â I mean, thinking, she says, is not the same as judgment, but it creates the right conditions for judgment. But also, she says, if you canât have that inner dialogue, then you canât speak and act with others either because itâs part of â if youâre already divided in yourself because youâre having this conversation with yourself, and thatâs the passion of your being, people who can do that can actually then move on to having conversations with other people and then judging with other people. And what she called âthe banality of evilâ was the inability to hear another voice, the inability to have a dialogue either with oneself or the imagination to have a dialogue with the world, the moral world.
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we read another book for book club finally lol. all of us hated it. itâs called âstrangers in their own landâ by Berkeley sociologist Arlie Hochschild. it is yet another anthropological study written as a long, boring story full of corny narrative flair that would accomplish more as a 2000 word peer-reviewed journal article.
she interviewed about 60 people from coastal Louisiana about their âdeep storiesâ in an effort to hurdle the âempathy wallâ that distances them (tea party members) from the ostensible audience for the book, and the author herself (liberal jerks) on environment regulation. in particular, she tries to answer the question: why are those most affected by environmental pollution the least likely to a.) care and b.) want the government to do anything about it?
the subjects have had their lives completely destroyed by local chemical plants: their family members dead from cancer, their homes swallowed by giant sinkholes, their jobs lost to temp laborers, their lives spent fighting faceless corporations in endless, fruitless legal battles, and their land sold by the state to the same companies (now under different names) theyâve spent their lives suing after the loss of their families, homes, and jobs.
however the prose is anything but empathetic. mostly because the author uses the phrase âempathy wallâ so loosely--how can she feel empathy for these people? how can i? or literally anyone else the book is targeting? (it made allllll the best seller lists). toward the end of the book she tries to bring down the empathy wall through a metaphor about a âlineâ: the Louisianians feel as though theyâre patiently waiting, watching others âcutâ in line with the help of government programs, even though many of them benefit from the same programs. here then is the supposed common ground: everyoneâs in the line and we all feel like strangers in some regard, ie., they feel like their values (AMERICAN values, religion, hard work, being white) are being erased by progressives and immigrants and we feel like far right conservatives and Trump supporters are racist, ignorant shitheads.
the result of the study was that people are driven by their values rather than information. more information never helps, and in most cases, it hurts--the state becomes an enemy and any sort of intervention (taxes, regulation) is bad. there is plenty of science to back up this conclusion, much of it well publicized in the wake of Trumpâs election. Kirstin mentioned that she thought Hochschild should have touched on corruption, and some reviews point toward the omission of a discussion of capitalism as the driver of rural decay. neither âcorruptionâ nor âcapitalismâ were used in the book that i can remember *thinking face* rather than break down the wall, she could have spent any time at all arguing why the wall exists
i guess i didnât hate the book, but i did hate reading it. there is a wall in my life (jfc lol)--i donât know many poor white people or Trump voters. it was good to hear their voices, even if filtered through someone somehow even more elitist than i am. i also appreciated the appendices which lay out the âgreat paradoxâ with data rather than observations. 6/10 will keep on my shelf just so i can roast it if people ask
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The others, in the broad meaning of the term, as I said, continually collide with us and we collide with them. Our singularity, our uniqueness, our identity are continually dying. When at the end of a long day we feel shattered, âin pieces,â thereâs nothing more literally true.
Elena Ferrante
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a month or so ago i got a chance to see my friend Lauren give a lecture-performance at the Menilâs Byzantine Fresco Chapel. Laurenâs practice has always been meaningful to me -- my brain idly drifts to her work as much as it does for nearly any other artist, favorite song, or memory. itâs generous, beautiful, and often l.o.l. funny
i spend a lot of time worrying that iâm not engaging with content âthe right wayâ, that i am not having the ârightâ experience. iâve more or less stopped going to ânew thingsâ or go and feel detached as to avoid the painful and distracting âam i consuming this appropriatelyâ sus spiral. or worse yet could also just as easily be instead the garbage narrative of disengaging lamely and lazily because sincerely enjoying things is hard. with with Laurenâs work iâve always found being present to be easy, like even her paintings are somehow kind, inviting
in conversation, Lauren uses a phrase i really like: âiâve been thinking about _____â. like âi am dedicating time at the front of my brain to thisâ and by doing so imbuing it with meaning. during her talk was the first time i had thought about prayer or thought as a process that has its own intrinsic value. that the product of the thought is sometimes just that it existed. like how sometimes it can be powerful to ask the right question rather than try to answer it. âiâve been thinking about...â invites this open dialog
however, Lauren is also very skilled at collecting experiences, drawing associations between them, and sharing these lines of thought in coherent and enjoyable ways. thought as an outcome is then also powerful because she thought it and has chose to share it, and in what context
broadly (and basic-ly), so much execution is based about who is doing it as much as how theyâre doing it. this conflict of what iâm doing vs. am i apt to do it is present every single afternoon iâm at work. what was so disheartening about last fall -- and bad moments this fall -- is that the feeling of self-doubt had nothing to with what i was doing and if it was doable (grad school), but whether i am capable of doing it (anything at all)
aye so Kirstin has us reading books as a group every month which i am happy about because i love assignments. the first assignment was called The Checklist Manifesto and well, yikes. itâs written by surgeon and occasional writer for The New Yorker, Atul Gawande, who dedicates half the book weaving together disparate examples to loosely develop a rather low stakes argument. in this case: checklists are helpful in solving complex problems. itâs a long, straightforward narrative written to be âfascinatingâ but is little more than basic research journalism bound to hardcover
Dr. Gawande led WHO team which aimed to create a set of basic instructions for all surgical procedures that would tackle a shockingly common set of hospital malpractices: infections, operating on the wrong side of patients, or even on the wrong patient O_O and piloted a study in 8 hospitals worldwide to see if the checklists made any improvements. I have never read about hospital culture or really even consumed any content medicine-related content because Iâm squirmy, like even on the level of Scrubs lol. So just hearing in plain terms about specific cases and the truly insane amount of steps that goes into treating all of the worldâs illnesses and injuries was enough to be like wow this is really neat that yâall can do this. But then he switches to an equally dramatic example, airplane crashes, and then finally less dramatic but equally âepicâ example, skyscraper engineering. Why
Well Iâll let you why lmao -- the book would be four chapters long. And itâd be great. Iâm not sure what bringing up wikipediable facts about early plane disaster plans does..... besides give another vaguely related example of why effective planning for complex problems, where so much is unknown and the outcome even if done right is uncertain, is super important. Cool. But extending this narrative to anyone outside people in extremely high stakes, highly skilled fields makes zero sense. The book makes more sense as a placeholder to advocate for the checklistâs use, which has proved extremely effective in thwarting complications in all types of surgeries, as it still (I assume) gets pushback from hospitals and surgeons who have set practices and donât want to be told what to do. So it works more as a policy document than a popular self-help book, the way itâs titled/promoted/filled with four central chapters of garbage
I have an almost superstitious idea that you only get really good at something when youâre fully cognizant of the problems that it contains, and youâre in touch with your failure, not in the sense of a deliberate failure or modernist grand failure or whatever, but just in the sense that at your utmost extension, with everything you can give to something, it will still somehow fail to be adequate to reality or experience.
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wsup fam today i was reading this book âNo Way Outâ i had to return after months of it sitting untouched next to the green couch. the book is the product of the authorâs visits to an (anonymous) hood in the northeast over seven years. the study started as a way to collect evidence as an expert witness in an accessory to murder case, but expanded into a larger ethnographic research project about social dynamics in isolated communities of extreme poverty.
one important thing Dr. Duck stated which i liked is about the oft-used phrase âculture of povertyâ which outsiders, usually white, describe poor people as living chaotically -- with hella trash, deserted homes, and other indicators of poverty. his point is that the âcultureâ is a consequence of the environment, not the cause of the environment. rather than holding individuals accountable we should look for systematic ways in which these communities were established and are held in place by racist housing policies, welfare reform, and shitty schools. further, that the hood operates with itâs own set of independent rules of trust, commitment, and other social factors, in response to the poverty. and, that this social structure is fairly advanced and well defined.
several general rules he laid out struck me from my own, very limited experience living on Holman. one: people talk. never in my life have i been greeted so much, so frequently. even when people hadnât seen me around before. several people went as far to give me nicknames, like, immediately. and, two: he spends some time discussing how drug dealers in isolated communities differ from their depiction in popular media and also in major cities. in isolated poverty, everyone knows where people are selling drugs and who those people are -- they are embedded in the community. as Dr. Duck writes, there are appropriate times to make eye contact and times where it should be avoided. i am sure he goes deep into these dynamics in the book, i regret not picking it up sooner.
i am a tall, affluent white man. i am also only living in third ward for a few years and have the ability to leave at any time. i know that the extreme privilege those things bring me affects these social dynamics in ways i do not fully understand and am always learning about. i try to be very visible but respectful that it is not my space. i donât know a better way to go about living there, except that i should volunteer or work in third ward if i plan to stay there longer term and probably should have started up somewhere when i moved there.
my privilege got pointed out to me twice yesterday and both times i felt the super entitled, defensive susness rearing up in my brain. one time out of the two, i did react defensively and oh wow do i regret it. it is not my place to ever ever ever feel hurt by someone helping me recognize ways in which things are much easier for me than for them.
hi so iâve been reading this book âDebt to Societyâ the last day or two. the book gives examples of how the modern system of financing has abstracted (often this just means âimpersonalizedâ) debt through the use of statistics (ie. credit scores) and other metrics (ie. creditors susly target individuals by race, gender, age, education, etc) and how this process of abstraction plays out in community building (or dismantling). accruing debt, through its abstraction and growing presence in the daily life of the vast majority of Americans, has become normalized to the point of it it being an integral part of identity building and the way we establish and maintain relationships and cultural practices.
one primary argument is that as âhuman economiesâ, where goods have value based on the complex system of interpersonal relations, become âcommercial economiesâ, where money is used strictly to make more money rather than service the needs of individuals, individuals are reduced to their value based on a set of predetermined statistics based on their race, gender, age, education, credit score etc. individuals are removed from the context in which they decided, or were forced, to take on debt and become a source of revenue. this is evident in the development of, say, the automated teller, where debtors donât necessarily deal with the creditors directly but rather answer to a giant, faceless banking system. As the author puts it, âthe narrative of communal decline... [describes] a replacement of âinterpersonal trustâ with âsystem trust.ââ
abstraction is a method, then, for creating uniformity of social groups, and thus creates an iterative process for reinforcing cultural stereotypes. the author of course discusses subprime loans directed toward poor p.o.c. in time leading up to the housing crises. mortgages were abstracted one step further from the people living in those houses to become betting chips for hedge funds. wild. worse yet âaccountabilityâ in this system is grossly unfair, where an inability to pay off loans strips people from their community, as well as access to both social and financial resources--and further, is often conflated with moral character--while most creditors, historically (at least with respect to the 08/09 bailout) are not held responsible for their shady or illegal banking practices.
iâd imagine all of this this feels kind of like âokay, yeah duhâ for people in debt, especially those living through the housing crisis. a lot of the language is fairly dense, so it feels like iâm supposed to be drawing more from the discussion on labor and Marx and âaccountingâ. but eh, i think itâs kind of just like âyo here is one way the ~system~ is fucked up because of a number of interacting social dynamics and financial forcesâ, although instead of me just ranting, the ideas presented are based in robust sociological and economic research.
the first two chapters have also made me think about how and why i ascribe value to some things and not others, and how intensely personal and subjective that process is (not too far from the iterative process of personal and product branding). and itâs taken me to a weird place thinking about âlaborâ as analogous to âcontentâ in the sense of how these concepts can be abstracted to basically mean anything at all with the appropriate metrics and outcomes. it is what makes someone semirelevantâs presence a party âcontentâ or the photo of a cassette âcontentâ even if these things are not actively âdoingâ anything at all, at least not in a concrete way (the person is probably relevant for having done *something* not just for *being* although that is possible too, and the tape is not serving its stated purpose, although aesthetic arguments could be made, especially on tumblr in 2016). it is also how reading the last chapter of this book which deals with the abstraction in tech transfer in universities is labor/content enough that i can bill my job for actual money. and that these abstractions play out, even if indirectly, in super real ways that can be monetized (the party organizes push their brand, discogs sells out of the cassette and the asking prices goes up), including the value, whatever it is, of me sort of understanding wth this book is talking about and how it extends to academic scientific research.