Just A Dreamer

I'm trying Curology??

Okay so i ordered the free trail and it says after that its $59.99 every 2 months so lets see how this goes.

What's on my face is constant. It does NOT get any better or clearer than this. My face and hair are so oily that I will go into work with my hair wet from my shower and by the end of my 5 hour shift my face is shiny with oil.

It hurts to touch and ontop of this I have major scaring which i hope to treat with a chemical peel if i can ever get my acne under control.

The cleanser, treatment and moisture are SUPER light weight and so far i haven't noticed any oiliness. Normally i immediately feel greasy no matter what kind of moisturize i use or how much/little.

For anyone wondering, I do not use makeup. I might do my eyebrows once a month and some eyeliner but no foundation or anything of that sort.

I really didn't want to post these but i know i will want progress photos before this is all over.

So my initial goal is to be down 30lbs by my birthday. That gave me 5 months from my start date. I'm already down 10lbs.

I'm 30% done with my small goal and 10% done with my big goal. I have no clue what my next small goal will be.

My reward to myself is a shopping spree in my goal size, which is a Medium. I am currently busting out of a XL.

The reason I decided to start my weightloss journey is because I started watching My 600lbs Life on Hulu.

I started noticing how my behaviors were parallel to people who weighed almost 700lbs.

I felt how tired my body was. I understood how easy it would be to let my body fall into disrepair.

I sit and fantasize about eating 3 Mcdoubles, a large fry, a pack of cookies and a large Coke.

An entire box of macaroni and cheese. Half a cake made from the box.

Soda after soda after soda...

Its been 2 and a half weeks, no liquid calories other than water and the creamer in my coffee. I still have sweets, IF I can fit it into my calories, same with macaroni and cheese.

But instead of 12 cookies. I have 2. Instead of the whole box of macaroni and cheese I have 1 serving size.

I'm so tired of being weak. Of having to talk myself into getting up to use the bathroom. I'm only 23 but I feel old and weary. My body eats away at my soul.