Beer and pussy. That's all I need

i love you i miss you

while i was at Ss’s “breaking up” with him cause i’m in love with Cherry, Ç (Lulu’s ex) went to our place and gave the girls smack after i told him Rocket oded yesterday and ignored his texts where he offered it to me this morning. and the od is the reason why Cherry’s mother (who is a h addict) wants her to leave the country in a week to get clean in Athens, can this be any more fucked. but they wanted it and they would have done it anyway, been there. so… i’m going there.

WE VE GOT NICKKKNAMESSSS

just woke up at the girls’. the friends i’d never had. a fellow h baby, abused as a child and whose mother will never get clean but loves her, while the other was beaten up since she was born and has no contact with her family; they’re their own little family, a pisces/pisces and a virgo/virgo who spent their life together, in and out of rehab, Greece, Germany, US. they’re younger than i am and i fell in love with them but no one’s trying to save anyone, we’re just all on the same boat. they keep asking “are you gonna stay for real? because no one stays, no one” and telling me that reading this blog has gotten them through so much i can’t imagine. and even if i try, i really can’t, but i’m glad.

i remember you and me lying in bed  together and you made me feel complete

found myself a family finally

have you ever seen someone you love get a naloxone shot while you’re having a panic attack and some doctor screams at you very loud that you’re all gonna die? that’s the day you’ll stop joking about death. and doing smack probably.