Secret Thoughts Of Me

Just realized that if my relationship with this boy doesn’t work out, I’ll be singing August by Taylor Swift for the rest of my life and really meaning it.

When I took public speaking my freshmen year of college there was this man in the class who was probably in his 40’s and going back to school but he fit in pretty well and was really well-liked and charismatic and by far the best public speaker in the class. Anyway one day he did a speech on the War on Drugs and argued that we should end the War on Drugs because it wastes so much money and we should just make every drug legal and let natural selection take its course. He was actually very convincing and had half the class agreeing with him, but I should mention he was an EMT so I often wonder how his patients are lmao

You know when you hang out with someone and you can smell them on you hours after they leave? But you have no choice as to when or where you smell them because when you try to smell yourself for traces of them you can’t find it. You just have to wait for it. That’s what waiting on you feels like.

Men really want an independent, outspoken woman until you call them out on their shit and it hurts their fragile fucking ego. Fuck that.

I had no idea that that day I learned about pronouns in 3rd grade would be so important now

People with a knife kink must love Loki

Okay so what we’re NOT gonna do is hate on Olivia Rodrigo like we did Taylor swift and make a young girl insecure for no reason. If you don’t like her just keep your comments to yourself. She’s a person, too.

I can’t find the one word for what I feel right now, but anger is a good place to start.

I am so in love with her. Still, after two weeks. The 4 days I spent with her wrapped around me and I around her were the most peaceful and quiet days of my life. I feel as if I could love her forever and be happy. But when we kissed, I knew it wouldn’t ultimately satisfy me. Though when she kissed me, I felt a feeling of euphoria I’ve never felt before. She told me she loves me. That’s an incredible feeling after being told, “I love you, but I’m just not IN love with you” and “don’t get me wrong. You’re really attractive, but I want to make one thing clear. I didn’t like you and I didn’t love you”. God, what is so wrong with me that I can’t be loved by someone I can have? Must I always fall for people who are unattainable or otherwise unavailable?

agfkjagsdfu ag ofiwe o i finally kissed her holy shit that was amazing holy shit fuck that was the best thing ive ever done in my life ah fuck i miss her already why didnt i do that sooner SHIT

One time in high school this hot guy I sat next to in economics and had had a crush on forever randomly asked me what color slime I wanted and I instinctively said pink and he pulled out a small clear container of pink slime and said, “that was the only color I had. I was really hoping you’d say pink” and that’s the story of how I fell in love