kiray

[Maybe Yoonchae has it easier, having no one to impress, no one to let down in a way that matters. Maybe it’s easier being nobody’s daughter. 

Easier, and exactly what she deserves.]

then in chapter 4 you upgrade to a brick:

[This awkward, palpable almost-silence? It’s probably (albeit dramatically) the most painful thing she’s ever experienced, and for once in her life, she’s weirdly glad to not have grown up like a normal teenager. 

Because if she was normal, if she didn’t know she would never get a second chance to fix things, she might’ve been too afraid to say, “I like Megan.”

Daniela stiffens, shutting her book. She sits up. “What?”

“I like Megan,” Yoonchae repeats, tracing the outline of her star-shaped scar. “She is easy to like. But I don’t…not like that. That’s not—she’s not something I want.” She’s not something I can have.

“I…” Daniela’s mouth opens, closes, reminds Yoonchae of a fish. “Why are you telling me this?”

“No reason.” Yoonchae shrugs. “Just thought I’d let you know.”]

and in chapter 5 you’ve fully committed to a boulder:

[“It’s complicated,” Manon says.

“It’s always complicated.”

“That’s just how this shit goes, kid.”

“No. When she hurts you, or you hurt her, she will run, and you will hide, and I will wait and watch until you both forget why you are running and hiding. But I will still be watching and waiting for…for the”—Yoonchae raises two clenched fists, and quickly relaxes them, fingers exploding outward—“Because you don’t talk, not really. Not when it gets too…too loud, too much, and not until I ask–no, not till I begyou to forgive one another. Then you will tell me you’re sorry and Sophia…she will tell me I’m being very mature about all of this, and then you will do it again. Like you’re doing now. That’s how this shit goes. And I am tired of it.”

The glossy sheen in Manon’s eyes well and fall, pooling at her smile lines like the hot, sticky crimson beneath a roadkill fawn. Oh. Yoonchae hadn’t meant to make Manon cry, just wanted to be honest. They say the truth sets you free, but all it’s done is make her want to cry too.]

what’s next??? a semi-truck??? a cannonball??? a semi-truck that’s on fire because of the cannonball???

i’m so scared for the last chapter kiray like you don’t even understand 

like what the actual fuckity fuck fuck fuck is wrong with you (said with love)

the “(said with love)” is genuinely frying me 😭

i saw this on pinterest and i think it perfectly encapsulates “what the actual fuckity fuck fuck fuck” is wrong with me:

like HUH??? and she LOVES spiderman and she loved that movie, so this is revolutionary news

(but in a contemplating life on my bedroom floor kind of way)

LOT OF BAD HABITS YOU BURNED IN MY MIND I’M NOT SAYIN THAT IT HAPPENED OVERNIGHT BUT TIME DID ITS SHIT AND FINALLY IT HIT I DOOO UuUuNnnNnLOVE YOUUU

(but in a driving on an empty backroad in the dark with the windows down wind in my hair speakers blasting scream-singing at the top of my lungs kind of way)

there are so many banger lines and moments but i think my favorite part was this cozy little chunk:

[ Sophia and Dani host a friendsgiving celebration at their apartment. It’s a potluck, but Manon brings Spoon instead of food. She’s getting bigger and sassier, but is just as disinterested in the living room carpet as she was the first time she played The Floor is Lava with Yoonchae’s body.

Yoonchae tut-tuts when claws catch the loose threads of her sweater. She scoops up the clingy cat before she can do any real damage, cradling her close to her chest. Gray fur and a tiny wet nose brush her chin.

In the kitchen, Dani and Manon are tossing mini marshmallows across the table and into each other’s mouths as Sophia attempts to salvage the sweet potato casserole, now that their classic topping supply has depleted. After dinner, Megan and Lara improvise an interpretive dance to prove they deserve a sleepover, like they’re twelve years old or something. The night breathes home-cooked meals and unbridled laughter and cheesy movies with cheesier endings.

“We’re all growing up,” Yoonchae whispers to Spoon, nestled on the couch and trying to be gentle the same way others are often gentle with her. “But we’re all going to be okay.” ]

the found family is so beautifully and accurately written i could cry

and i could cry some more because of this:

[ “Last day of being a teenager,” Megan says, bumping her shoulder against Yoonchae’s. They’re sitting on top of a picnic table beneath a pavilion, waiting out the storm. “How are you feeling?”

“Scared,” Yoonchae admits. She counts five of her fingers before deciding they’re better off laced with Megan’s. “But brave.” ]

like sure growing up sucks and it’s so scary but hell yeah i’m feeling braver now too because of this so excuse me while i go contemplate my entire existence 

tysm anon, happy to hear you enjoyed reading!! it is the greatest honor to know that my fic had an impact on you and that it made you feel brave, especially since i wrote this based off of fear. that’s like…kinda poetic huh

i don’t really have any more katseye related stuff if that’s what you wanted 😅 but i do have this thing i made when i was bored and wanted to try graffiti lettering:

and this i made when i was in my yellowjackets phase (it will definitely return once that new season drops 🙏) it’s not technically from the show, but it is a portrait from one of courtney eaton’s other projects ft her song growing pains

and 2025 superman because i love that dimpled diva. i drew the main portrait on a nothing bundt cakes brown paper bag that i fished out of my recycling bin lol

anyway i want to know what your favorite scenes/lines/paragraphs/moments you’ve written are! they don’t have to follow that “trademark” i just thought that was a good observation

thank you so much anon! this is very kind and i’m so honored that some of my writing has stuck with you. that truly means a lot <3

i just plucked my favorite moments from each of my fics. i don’t really have a specific reason for choosing any of these other than the fact that when i reread them i feel kind of proud to be the person who wrote them

uhhh right now it’s STERLING POINT OMG UGH ITS TOO GOOD ITS ALL IM THINKING ABOUT LATELY IT HAS CONSUMED MY ENTIRE BEING AND PERSONALITY AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH (and i kinda need someone to write a katseye fic based on it now…)

but i also love cw supergirl, locke & key, stranger things, the big bang theory, heroes, hanna, the good place, gilmore girls, arcane, yellowjackets, atla, the queen’s gambit, wednesday, agggtm, anne with an e, asoue, the haunting of hill house/bly manor, killing eve, paper girls, the artful dodger, i am not okay with this, gen v, house md, the bear, hsmtmts, the fosters, dance moms lol

the list could go on forever and ever but that’s all i can think of right now. ughhh i love being a fan girl there’s so much content to consume

who’s your katseye bias?

you’re gonna hate my answer because it’s cliché af…but i truly genuinely love all of them and what they all bring to the table and i couldn’t possibly choose a bias if i tried

lol sorry if this is weird i’m just curious and bored

creeped out ❌ kinda sorta maybe flattered ✅

and lol yeah sorry i don’t know what to put in an introductory post and quite frankly talking about myself like that just feels cringey i don’t know why like it’s not that deep 😭 but honestly this might help shake those gears (is that even something people say??)

me and my homies

you are always welcome here ☺️

i love her and i haven’t forgotten about her i swear!!!!!!!!! tho like idk the premise is ot6 falling apart and losing memories of each other + sophia trying to reunite her found family which just makes me so devastatingly sad to write considering the latest circumstances 😭😭 so the motivation is sorely lacking…but but but i do have stuff (albeit a teeny tiny portion, but stuff nonetheless) written for the next chapter and i do know vaguely how it will play out from there and i know exactly how it will all end 😈 (it’s just the middle that’s a little fuzzy and needs some workshopping) — but you’re so right that is my child and she deserves my attention, so i will be opening that doc again soon trust 🙏

please take this crumb as a token of my appreciation for your devotion and patience:

—aughty! (sometimes you have to be a little bit)