you know whatās so hot? feedees who havenāt given up on their weight loss goals. feedees who know they have the kink, they know they love to indulge, yet they still believe that they can control it, manage it, and shed the weightā¦ again. this isnāt the first time theyāve lost the weight, nor the second- not even the thirdā¦ but they will never learn their lesson.
when that stab of shame, disappointment and maybe even a bit of guilt comes along again, theyāve got a brand new wave of motivation that feels stronger than before. this will be the one, this is the last time, itās gonna work this time.
theyāll deactivate their account, delete doordash and uber eats, they might even delete tumblr all together as well. theyāll go grocery shopping. theyāll pick out the greek yogurt and the diet coke spinach, and the egg whites: all with a smile in excitement to feel in control again.
and theyāll really do it!! they will stick to it, and the weight will melt right off. theyāll buy new jeans, and new crop tops that show off all their hard work and deviation. they did it!
but itās a lifestyle. and all the poor thing really wants is a donut :( but theyāve already had their cheat day a few days back at a friends birthday dinner. but, then again, they were out with friends, so they couldnāt really indulge in the way they wantedā¦
also, itās just a donut! who cares! theyāve been working so hard, they deserve an extra treat. besides, restricting their diet too hard is equally as unhealthy! and as they buckle their seatbelt and drive off to the closest bakery, they continue rattling off justifications for why theyāre allowed to cheat on their diet- just. one. more. time.
we all know where it goes. the donut just tastes soo good, and the seal has already been broken, so why not get another. as a matter of fact, they did an extra hour of cardio yesterday, how about they make it a half dozen? and itās later in the day, so the donuts are a little dry- why not get some ice cream too? and theyāre gonna need some dinner before dessert but they wanna save all their healthy food for meal prep, so why not something quick and easy. Mcdonaldās?? oh boy, itās been sooo long since theyāve had mcdonaldās. itās their weakness. one meal wouldnāt hurt? canāt hurt to make the meal a large, and get an extra side of fries. itās okay, this is their true cheat day.
and so, the endless barrage of excuses leads to a meal bigger than anything they ate before this go round with dieting. by the end of the night, they find themselves with their hand in their pants, tumblr, deviantart, twitter ect. all redownloaded to view all their favorite feedists once again, just to scratch that itch thatās been bothering them so bad.
they feel shame, sure, but the need to have one of those all encompassing orgasms that they just canāt get from cumming to literally anything else, blocks out all their other reservations.
finally, they cum. belly stretched tight and heavy for the first time in months. they know they just came, and the post nut clarity starts to rear its ugly head, and the shame begins to creep back in.
but they noticeā¦ theyāre still horny. and as they start humping their hand again, cheeks bright red, they bite their lip at themselves, as they redownload doordash and start filling up their cart. their heart races, they leak even harder, knowing whatās happening. and it just so happens, that every time they do this, they gain all the weight back and more, and then some. theyāre just going to keep getting bigger, and they are completely powerless to stop it.
might as well enjoy it in the moment, right?
