Stargirl

- Because I once had breakdowns every time i wanted to go out, cause i didn’t want people to see how disgusting i got

- To be considered a person with feelings again.

- To wear whatever i want without thinking too much: almost anything looks good on a skinny person!

- To feel light: when standing up, after waking, basically all the time!

- Smooth movements

- Feeling cold all the time even in summer

- To feel empty/ clean

- Small wrists/ collarbones/ thigh gap/ jawline

- To prove to them and myself who I really am

- Buggy clothes/ boots/ leggings combo

- Be hugged and called small and dainty, fragile!

- To like what i see in the mirror, even a little

- Small clothes (s, xs etc etc)

- Wrapping my arms around myself and feeling so small

- Small legs when sitting down

- To prioritise myself above most stupid things and people in my life

- Feel free, confident, clear headed

- Prove to myself i can do anything

- to never be completely mentally crushed ever again, cause at least I’ll be skinny

- stabilising many health issues: skin/ gut/ hormones….

- to give myself hope that I will eventually be able to master other parts of myself and my life

* drink a glass of water

* go on tumblr

* look at yourself in the mirror

* workout

* read

* chew gum

* pick up a new hobby

* go for a run

* scroll thInspo

* watch mukbangs

* start a new tv show

* make a list of reasons why you want this