šTell me, will we survive?š
Phainon x Male reader, Mydei, Dr Ratio, Anaxa, Aglaea, Argenti x Boothill mentioned and previous relationship between Dan heng and Blade mentioned kinda tried to do sum like the original but iām lowk a lore skipper so sorry if itās wrongš„¹
Heh happy pride month heh kinda been looking for a certain writer who likes 007n7, dandyās world, bna, has a fat obsession w Laios too, and is gay, heh wouldnāt happen to sound familiar to anyone right heheh.
Also iām pretty sure you can tell I ran out of ideas here so Its a bit tortuous
Iām also really sorry this came so late when I posted the poll like 3-4 months ago my finals are like coming up and then I went on a trip so Iāve been a bit busyš BUT I GOT NINJAGO AND SPIDERMAN LEGO SETS AS A GIFT SO I GOT MOTIVATEDš
As you tried calming Phainon down from whatever he had been going on about, with how fast he had been muttering neither you nor Mydei were able to keep up before he quickly snapped out of his thoughts with the sudden knock on the apartment door.
Mydei sighed in relief, both because Phainon finally shut up and because he knew it wouldāve been hard for the two of you to deal with Phainon since the both of you werenāt good with words and it was odd seeing Phainon like this.
Despite the fact youāve all known each other for so long, Mydei and Phainon had been friends from elementary until you came along in high school, and not once had you seen Phainon with this expression.
It felt scary, seeing someone who had always been so calm and somewhat bubbly, be so desperate, you didnāt quite know why he reacted that way. But Mydei quickly opened the door before Boothill started yelling if either of you were okay to which Argenti quickly told him to calm down before doing the same just in a calmer manner.
Ratio just kinda silently stood there, unsure of what he should really do since although he might be the smartest, he isnāt exactly smart with his words as most of the time heās either saying some kind of fact that no one even understands or heās just being sarcastic. Rarely is there an in between.
Aglaea pulled out her phone and tried to analyze the situation, her brows furrowed the more she kept scrolling. Although she was a particularly calm person, she seemed rather irritated with what she was seeing.
It was a bit unsettling to see. While she had been doing her research, Anaxa scolded both you and Phainon for not being careful, but mainly Phainon for not paying attention to his own stream. Mydei awkwardly stood there, he hoped he wouldnāt get lumped up with the two of you.
After a bit, everyone had calmed down. Phainon was obviously still nervous about what you might do, and it showed, the whole time he had been picking at his fingers, a nervous habit heās had for a while. Before every show, youād always catch him fiddling with something.
Even after almost 5 years of performing he always got a bit nervous, which was obviously natural, his fans were intense and there was always a large amount of people at their concerts.
You looked around, Boothill and Argenti had been on the couch with Phainon, trying to cheer him up however they could while Ratio and Mydei tried to cook something for everyone just to lighten the mood a bit, Ratio wasnāt really cooking though, he kinda just stood there like he was trying to grasp the situation.
And lastly, Aglaea and Anaxa had been at the kitchen table, trying to see what might work best for this messy situation, bickering a bit on whatāll work best.
A small sigh had escaped you, unsure of what could possibly happen before you could say something, Phainon beat you to it. āI think I need some air.ā Before anyone could stop him, he practically bolted out of your apartment.
You wanted to chase after him, but maybe it wouldāve been best to leave him alone. Boothill gave Argenti a small flick. āThis is all your fudging fault.ā āMe?? You were the one saying things that werenāt even relevant or helpful!ā Boothill rolled his eyes and scoffed. They werenāt seriously mad at each other, just, unsure of what to say or do.
This wasnāt the first time an idol from their company was outed. Previously it had been Dan Heng, he ended up losing his whole career and was constantly harassed by people.
The guy surprisingly held up well, or managed himself in a way, but eventually his ex boyfriend had somehow been found from when people had seen Dan Heng at a restaurant with some guy, the picture didnāt look too intimate but after he had been outed, it definitely did.
Not only had Dan Heng been harassed but so had his ex, Blade. Many people had been disappointed that heād really dated a man, some hoped they could āfixā him and others just hoped heād disappear. To this day no one really knows what happened to either of them. Not that itās anyoneās business to know. Although there used to be whispers that the two moved on from each other and now have different partners.
Phainon definitely didnāt want any of that to happen, and he really hated the thought of you experiencing that. The cold wind hit his face, slightly snapping him out of his thoughts. He ended up going onto the apartment's rooftop, he thought about walking around the city but it really wouldnāt have helped since heās sure that many people wouldāve ended up recognizing him.
He slowly stopped walking, and stood there for a bit. He ran his fingers through his hair, letting out a trembling sigh. He really didnāt know what to do now, sure you guys had fights here and there but never ever is it something as big as this. His mind was all over the place.
Suddenly there he heard someone approaching, causing him to quickly turn around, it was Ratio. Phainon didnāt know if he shouldāve been relieved or not. He then sat down, to which Ratio had gotten closer and sat next to him. He tried giving Phainon the perfect amount of space but the minute he sat down Phainon had pulled him into a tight hug. He wasnāt crying or anything, just needed to be with someone.
Ratio just quietly sat there, letting Phainon hold onto him. āYou know, everyone knows it was an accident. And (N) especially, so you really shouldnāt be scared of him breaking up with you because of that.ā He said as gently as possible, he sounded like a father trying to cheer up his kid for the first time. It was a bit awkward but it felt really relaxing for Phainon. He needed some kind of affirmation.
āI know he wouldnāt. I just really donāt want (N) to go through that.ā Phainon said, Ratio had already known what he was implying. āNo matter what might happen, I'm sure youāll both be okayā¦ā He was really trying to comfort Phainon in some kind of way. After a bit of silence, Phainon had let out a choked laugh.
This caused Ratio to scoff before shoving him off, that didnāt stop Phainon from still laughing though. āWell it seems youāre doing fine now, so letās just head in and eat. Mydei made us all food.ā Phainon had a small smile on his face, like a bit of pressure had been lifted off of his shoulders.
You all ate, it felt like having a family dinner, Boothill and Argenti were both bickering (Mainly Boothill trying to ragebait him) and also feeding each other while Argenti watched every little move Boothill made with such intensity.
Ratio just glared at the two while eating. Aglaea and Anaxa were still looking through social media while eating, which made sense since they were in charge of taking care of the group, and Mydei took pictures of his food before taking his time to savor it after these past stressful hours.
You and Phainon ate your food while making small talk in between bites, which was mainly you talking about whatever came to mind while he listened so deeply as if it was the most important thing heāll ever be hearing. Not that he doesnāt do this every time you open your mouth to say something. But it was still obvious he was so bothered by what he did, lightening the mood might help him forget a bit.
Boothill was first to finish his food and he quickly went on his phone, slouched in his chair he started scrolling online.
āI canāt believe Phainon out of all people is gay. Itās disgusting.ā
āGenuinely how does he live like that?? He's so weird for thatā¦ā
āHow could he pick a man when he could have any woman he wants, I doubt heād be dating him if he got with a woman.ā
āTo think my favorite idol would be so weird. I might have to just be ot4 nowā¦ā
āIām sure heāll grow out of it after this.ā
āHonestly itās not that hard to just be normal.ā
āDonāt tell me the other members are like this too.ā
āThank god iāve never liked him.ā
It caused a large frown to appear on his face before he started typing. Argenti obviously noticed how annoyed his partner looked as he was aggressively typing on his phone right next to him which caused him to peek over. He quickly noticed the guy was writing a whole essay about how stupid everyone was for agreeing with such disgusting āopinionsā. As much as Argenti wanted to defend Phainon, he wasnāt sure if itād help the situation so he tried to stop Boothill before heād actually respond to them.
However, it seems Boothill has already uploaded whatever he was saying, which caused a small panic in Argenti but a part of him didnāt care too much, in all honesty heād rather lose his career standing up for whatās right than just do nothing. Instead of trying to silence these people it just ended up making things worse with people now suspecting basically every member.
Anaxa quickly noticed the random upbringing. He slowly looked up from his phone and glared, Boothill quickly noticed and looked away quickly before getting up and going over to the couch. Argenti tried not to make it obvious that he knew but Anaxa clearly knew he was guilty too.
Soon enough everyone was done and it didnāt take long for Phainon to notice the shift between them, so he checked his phone. Yet again, it didn't take very long to find out what it was about. But he wasnāt too bothered, although being an idol was his dream, he thought back to all the times where he hated his job, as if recently, heās hated being an idol. Sure, there were moments where his fans brought him joy and he loved performing, but those were moments.
His brows furrowed a bit as he stared at the screen before putting his phone down. In all honesty, he started to care a bit less about what people were saying about him. He felt anxious people would start digging up your past or get all nosy about you, he knew you cared about privacy, especially online.
Soon enough everyone finished and went over to the couch with Boothill, it was quiet for a second before Anaxa started talking, giving all sorts of ideas to find a way around this situation. However, none of it seemed worth it to Phainon. Heād rather lose his career than deny himself of his identity, which was exactly what he would do.
It became midnight, everyone was now heading home. Leaving just you and Phainon.
āWhy donāt we..break up..?ā
The tension felt unreal, you could basically hear your own heart beating.
