pale spectre

*sees any big crater* damn it’s just like the pain arc in naruto

one thing I learned today that I feel is only relevant on tumblr is the fact kitty pryde is married to the teen suicide dude

Pretty sure the only reason I’d ever believe in “emotional hauntings” or whatever you’d call it is bc of the house I grew up in I immediately feel all eyes on me and a need to escape somehow and I feel like it can’t be healthy for my mom to continue living here bc how do you not get dragged down by it and feel the weight of it all

I was searching for just a location of where my gma Masayo is resting and I ended up coming across dozens of photos from the 50s I’ve never seen before and she is so beautiful I miss her even though we never met I am ugly sobbing fr bout to upload to Dropbox to share w my mom in case she hasn’t seen but I don’t want her to cry

last couple nights been listening to indie songs I liked when I was around 15+ and it’s a weird type of nice bc listening to them makes me happy bc they’re still good but I can remember how terrible and lonely I felt and how some of them are stuck with me bc I would listen to this one radio station all thru the night during the summer by myself in my room doing mf sudoku so it feels like a weird type of regression but knowing how far I’ve come as a human being helps me from being afraid I’ll go back to the same mental state even though it does hurt thinking about that young girl suffering so much on the inside I wish I could be my own older sister and tell her how much I love her

Evert moment that I’m not fully preoccupied with something else I’m thinking of her I can’t believe she’s fucking gone and I don’t think it will feel real for a long time. My friend was such a good auntie and was going to be an even better mother and that’s exactly what she wanted and makes it feel so unfair. I’ve never seen her treat anyone unkindly and I only picture her smiling. She was basically a part of our family and I really thought she was going to grow old as my cousins bff and they would always be together so I can’t imagine how my cousin feels and I don’t want to because this already hurts. I will never forget you, Leslie.

ashfjkj I just watched aespa’s new mv I’m actually in LOVE w this group the visuals are so good too omg it’s been so long since I felt attached to a group I’m so excited