cw: cursing, suggestive, smut, maybe toxic k? idk, he keeps up with your insta
smut warnings: oral (fem rec), masturbation mention, someone cries/slight dacryphilia (not from pain), bro came in his pants, squirting, aftercare
an: ikik this is supposed to be an smau, but I got a bunch of things I want to happen 😭
also I fully believe he whimpers
"why the hell are you here?" you ask, panicking that someone will see him. "can't I see my favorite girl again?" he asks. "ok, one, we are no longer together. two, answer my question. why are you here?" you ask him. "the truth is I missed you. I miss what we had, how you treated me like a human and not an idol, how you spoke to me, how you would love me. I miss how you love me," he spills. your mouth is open as you almost drop your bag. "ill be right back," you turn and run to the back of the section you're in, a dark corner no one goes to. you whip out your phone, not even seeing the notification from a certain someone from your website.
you walk back to find him sitting where you were at the table. he perks up when he hears you coming back and stands up. k has this look on his face that has hope written all over, he searches for a sign in your facial expression. "k, you know we can't be together. you know how I felt when we were together. you were gone all the time, leaving me alone, and you never talked to me. why all of a sudden are you back now?" you ask. he pulls you in for a hug, his arms getting tighter with every second, "I just really miss us." you hug him back for what seems like an eternity.
feeling out of place, Joshua is browsing the library for a neurochemistry book for an exam he has coming up. he looks around aimlessly for any book that say neurochemistry and his eyes land on you. a man hugging you in the middle of the library. his heart turns and sinks to his stomach. who is that guy and why is he hugging you like that? he turns away before hurting himself even more. he still doesn't know why he feels like this towards you.
k sadly lets go of you and backs away, "can we at least get coffee or catch up somewhere? its been a while and I wanna know what you've been up to." you can't lie and say you don't wanna know what he's doing too. "yeah, we can, but not out in the open. give me one minute," you pull out your phone and text the owner of the house.
"he said yes, but only if you make your Okonomiyaki that he reeeeallly likes," you tell him. k's smile widens even more and grabs your hand, "lets go!" "you don't even know where the store is." "oh, yeah. lead the way."
you take him to the nearest grocery store and you let him lead the way, picking up what he needs to make has his dinner. you also called hao and hoshi to see if they needed anything, then you start picking up whatever they needed. when you two are done shopping, you try and put your card in to pay, then it was rudely taken from your hand and replaced with another card. "wait, no I got this," you tell him but he doesn't listen. he just nudges his card into your hand even more. you hesitate but agree and put his card in the reader.
the two of you walk back to your apartment with you leading. you open the door to Minghao and hoshi stopping their conversation and looking at k when he walks in. he nervously sets the groceries down and bows to them, "I understand what I did to y/n in the past was hurtful and I know there's nothing I can do to apologize now but I would still like to try if you two will let me. I know how you two are with her and I would never dream of hurting her again. please forgive me." you watch him apologize to them and you feel a sense of proudness for him. he knows what he did was wrong and wants to make it right. hao stands up and walks over to him, "there's not need for that. I can feel that you know what you did was wrong, I don't forgive you for what you did to her but I will be happy to let you into our home. just don't fuck up this time." k smiles, takes his mask and hat off, and gets to work on minghao's dinner.
a "what the fuck?!" is heard from hoshi's room. you and has look at each other before running to Hoshi's room. "dude, what happened?" "are you ok, soonie?" you both ask. "Woozi just texted me asking if I wanna work on some tracks with him," he says as he stares at his phone still in shock. "holy shit! that's great, hoshi," you say as you run and hug him. he hugs you back and gets dressed to go over to Woozi's. "I gotta go, he wants me in his studio right now," he runs out of his room with the two of you following, "save me some Okonomiyaki, k," and he goes out the door.
k finishes up dinner and gives y'all both a plate, still saving some for hoshi in the fridge. "you didn't have to make me any, I would've found something else to eat," you tell k. "I was making something for Minghao, why wouldn't I make something for you too," he says as he sits down next to you.
after y'all were finished, Minghao gets up in a rush. "oh shit, I just got a text for a great deal," he grabs his keys, grabs however much the customer asked for from his room, and heads for the door, "don't destroy the house and don't be too loud," he smirks and winks at you as he shuts the door.
"what was that about?" k asks while picking up your plate. "wait, don't do the dishes. you made dinner, I can clean," you stand up and try to get your plate back. he raises the plate above your head so you can't reach it as you place a hand on his stomach for balance as you try to reach higher. only then did you realize what you were doing and where your body was. pressed up against his front, leaning your chest up against his as your hand fell to his lower stomach while trying to reach the plate. you backed away slowly and looked at his face. his cheeks dusted red but his ears are bright pink, his chest heaving, as he searches your eyes for any emotions he can gauge. "uhm, I am going to help clean up," you turn to the stove to pick up the pan he used. "yeah.. sure," he turns back to the sink.
it was kind of rocky after that. slight touches when he moved behind you left you with goosebumps, when he reached for the cleaning solution beside you, he brushed by your side and that left you weak. 'what is happening right now?' you said to yourself. sure it was only a week and a half ago with what happened with hoshi and you're completely comfortable with what happened. you're not awkward or nervous around hoshi, but with k? you're borderline sweating and have goosebumps at the same time, you're weak in the knees from slight touches, and you can't get the scenarios out of your head when you two used to be together.
his hands wrapped around your thighs, forcing them open as his tongue is deep in your cunt. your hands in his hair, nails scratching his scalp when his lips fully close around your clit, then sucking with just enough pressure to make your pussy gush. god, when his tongue goes back into you, his thumb rubbing that spot on your clit you loooove. you were so close to your orgasm, and then he grips your thighs harder and pulls you more into his mouth. his teeth grazing your soaked hole and that pushes you over the edge. another breath taking orgasm from your boyfriend never fails to make your heart swell.
you were so wet right now, it wasn't even funny.
you stare at the wall while this scenario plays in your head while k is starting to get worried since you've been staring for like 6 minutes without blinking. he calls for you., nothing. waves his hand in front of your face, nothing. he finally grabs your arms and shakes you. you finally break out of the trance you were in and look at k. "what happened?" he asks. "just thinking about homework I have later. yeah," you lie. he gives you a 'I do not believe you' look, "y/n, we dated for 2 years, I know when something is wrong." "its really nothing, k. don't worry about me."
y'all eventually migrate into your room, Vernon obviously playing on your tv and k saying "oh, you watch him, too?" which left you feeling crazy because how does everyone know who he is??
you two are laying down when you keep catching him looking at you in the corner of your eye. you brush it off the first couple of time, but this time, he kept staring. you look at him fully, "what? is there something on my face?" you ask. k shakes his head. "do I stink?" he shakes is head again. "then what is it? why do you keep looking at me?" "can I not stare at the angel in from of me anymore?" heat comes up on your cheeks as you keep looking at him. now, his eyes are on your lips and they're not moving from them. "why are you staring at my lips?" you ask, now looking at his lips. "and why are you looking at mine?" he asks back. "because you're looking at mi-" he cuts you off by kissing you, tongue already fighting with yours.
his hands are on your cheeks, pulling you in deeper. "I knew exactly what you were thinking about in the kitchen," you feel his lips curl up into a smile, knowing he caught you. "fuck, yes, I can't help it. I missed your tongue on me. I missed it in me, no one ate me like you did, k," you moaning his lips. "damn right, I knew I was on your mind, you just didn't wanna admit it," he pulls you onto his lap and kisses you again, his hands on your hips, grinding you on his cock.
fuck, you forgot how big he is.
his kisses got messier as he moves down your neck, then to your chest. he pulls your shirt over your head and unclips your bra. "how many women did it take for you to get better at that?" you tease him. "you better stop the teasing or else you'll regret it," he kisses down to your chest and takes a nipple into his mouth. then, you the remember this one specific thing about k.
his ears are sooooo sensitive. like makes him whimper sensitive.
you lean down next to his ear and licked his earlobe all the way up to the shell of his ear. his hands get tighter on your hips as he grinds up into you clothed cunt as his forehead rests on your shoulder and then you hear it.
his high, whiny, whimpers.
he's trying to catch his breath while his head is still on your shoulder. "you ok?" you ask. "no, I just came in my pants. I don't think I'm ok," he laughs at himself. "you what? how long has it been?" you giggle at him. "that's none of your business, I told you stop teasing me," he flips you on your back and kisses down your stomach. he lifts you up to get your pants off and hooks his arms around your thighs and pulls you closer, just like he used to.
k sucks your clit through your panties, soaking them through the fabric, not like they weren't already soaked. his fingers deep into the plush of your thighs that'll leave bruises in the morning, his tongue now licking the wet spot your pussy sits, and your nails scraping is scalp once more.
he sits your legs up and pulls your panties down with your bare cunt now facing him. "fuck, i've been thinking about this pretty pussy for so long. I've needed you ever since I found your insta. you're so fucking pretty, especially that pic you posted in jeju in that bikini laying on the sand. I jerked off to that picture so many times, I had to buy new sheets from cumming on them so much," he admits. he licks from your hole to your clit and starts to devour you.
he's sucking on your clit, taking in anything that leaks out of you, just absolutely ravishing your cunt. he's doing it so good that you're already about to cum.
"I remember how your body reacts and twitches when you're close, don't hold back, sweetheart, please I need it," he keeps his pace and continues to eat.
your orgasm is coming up on you, quick. your fingers grip his hair harder as you pull him closer to you.
"no ones pussy tastes as good as yours, fuck."
you look down to see a tear rolling down his cheek. this somehow pushes your orgasm into overdrive and when you realize what's happening, you can't stop, not like you can. you pry your eyes open to see the sight below you, it only makes you gush even more. him drinking and slurping every drop that you give him.
once your high was over, he stands up, wipes his mouth and crawls up to you, "can't believe I can still make you squirt. you taste like heaven like always."
he lays down beside you, staring at the ceiling, "thank you, I know this doesn't help me missing you, missing us, but deep down, I wanted this. not just because its been a while, but because its you. and I might regret saying this but i still love you. I never stopped loving you." he turns his head to look at you, but you still look at the ceiling. "k, I love you but not in the way you love me. I will always love you but as one of my best friends. I want what's best for you and this isn't what's best for us," you finally look at him. "I understand, just know I will always love you," he kisses your forehead as he gets up to find the bathroom to clean you up. you tell him where the bathroom is and he comes back with a rag with water soaking it as he cleans you gently like he always used to. you sit up to find your water on your nightstand as you give him an extra one.
you sit and talk with k for a while with Vernon playing genshin in the back when his phone starts to ring, "aw shit, its yuma. he's so gonna ask where I am." "just tell him the truth." "and let him talk your ear off? I don't think you want that." you fake being shocked, "If I remember correctly, me and yuma got along great! he's my bias after all. "still not over that. fine, i'll tell him im with you after im done talking with whatever he needs first.... aaaand the call declined... I took too long." "well, call him back." he goes out of you room to call yuma back as you lay on your pillows and check your messages.
"ok, ok, i'm giving her my phone. calm down, yuma," k comes back into your room and hands you his phone, "yuma wants to talk to you."
you two talk about anything and everything. catching up, upcoming albums, how y'all are doing, just talking. meanwhile, k is sulking in your desk chair because he wants to talk to you, too.
you finish catching up with yuma and hand him his phone back. "so, I heard from a little kitty that the rest of the group doesn't have my new instagram I made after we broke up. why could that be?" you smile at him. "no idea..." he says he avoids looking at you.
"hey," he finally looks at you, "can we.... unblock each other?"
you continue to look at him, "k, are you gonna be ok if we do that?" he nods immediately, "I promise, i'll keep everything under control and i'll be ok. it might also be because of them too.. they do miss you, you were like family to them," he says. "ok, lets do it. I just want you to be ok," "like I said, I will be ok. I promise," he pulls out his phone again and starts to look through his blocked numbers the realizes. "uhm, I had to get a new number several times... I forgot to tell you," you giggle at his forgetfulness and he gives you his current number.
you say your goodbyes when he leaves and just in time, hao walks right past him going in while he goes out. "good to see y'all again. tell hoshi I say bye and good luck with the album," he turns o leave while hao agrees and says goodbye.
"I had a feeling, lemme get my phone real quick and I guess we'll talk," you hop down from the bar stool and go to your room.
"oh my god??!!" you yell from your room. Minghao rushes in your room "what happened?" "look!" "holy shit!"
IT’S You By ATEEZ is now playing
summary: you have a fat crush on s.coups but you think that he’s gay for his best friend, jeonghan, and try your best to get rid of your feelings for him, but seungcheol is actually madly in love with you.
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