REAL LIFE

Maybe the problem is, I don't have anyone to share these memories with, or these happy moments, or these smiles. Maybe that's why I can't let myself be happy..

How do I tell someone that I believe we are supposed to be together, I know paths don't cross randomly, everyone comes into your life for a reason. Maybe not all the right reasons, but there is one for someone to be there, the fact that she been here this long gotta mean something but what..?

Why do I feel like no matter how much good I do, I always get fucked over no matter what. I really don't know what my fucking problem is, but I am losing it.

It's hard to wait for something you know that could be great. I want it so bad. But you have to be patient and wait, when you're patient and you wait for the things to come. It's going to be better in the end.

Sometimes you realize the only thing in life that's actually gonna be with you forever. Is yourself. You need to constantly treat yourself. Take care of yourself. Focus on yourself. Stay humble. Because people come and go. And that's what makes you who you are.

Here I am again just laying in bed with countless thoughts in my head. It's insane the way the mind runs like a marathon, it's crazy.. But the thing is all the thoughts maybe could be a reality. Everyone talks about how they want this that need this its all bullshit. Because they don't want to work for it. I wanna look back and say I earned what I got. I guess the thought that crosses my mind the most is; why do people crave love so much.. It's like a drug once someone finds it they'll never try and let it go, I am guilty of that. But I've realized that love is just a minor detail in life. You don't need it. You want it. Sometimes you just have to go out and get. But true love you can't find. You just have to wait true love will come. Be patient and good things will come.

I catch myself laying in bed on a late night and think damn, what would it be like for you to be my side. But that isn't gonna happen. Then my mind starts racing. But then when it slows down that's when reality hits me and I realize nothing will ever go planned. We live in an imperfect world where people try so hard to be perfect. And for what? To be noticeable. That's bullshit all those imperfections are what make you who you are. Never change yourself for someone. Never change. Do you. That's what will make you happy. And there it is again my mind racing off to different things. Crazy to think that I could just write all damn day and night..

I just wish you were still around brother. So you could help out of this bind I'm in. There's a million thoughts racing through my head and I know you'd have a billon words to tell me what to do. I mean I still talk to you but I ain't hear nothin back. That's the hardest part.. I would give anything just to see you one last time

Girl, I'm just Tryna get to know you.. I wanna look up at the night sky with the stars shining and look to my right to see you there. I want those dark and deep conversations when we're half asleep. I wanna put you on a pedestal and never let you down. Honestly I wanna make my world plus more. But something you just have to keep to yourself and this is one of those things. Sticks to think but damn that's really how it is.

Why'd you make promises to me that you couldn't keep.. Because I'm all honesty it's getting to me

Let me break this down. I've dropped hints. I've Kimda showed you what I'm about. I kinda adore you. But when are you gonna let me show you, how I can treat you? When are you gonna let me show you that you don't need to be hurtin all the time. Let me show you how a princess is treated.

You're a piece of gold..

I'd make you my number 1.. And treat you how you should. But there's no way you'd let me..