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"How’s your cheekbone, babe?"

"i'll..i'll survive yeah?"

Marry them? Yes | No  Have sex on the first date? Yes | No Confess their attraction first? Yes | No  Have children/adopt? Yes | No  Die for your character? Yes | No  Cheat on your character? Yes | No  Lie to them? Yes | No  Cuddle after sex? Yes | No 

"I Know I love what I do, but I love you more. You’re my important than some position in some stupid ass company. But I won’t quit, okay? I”ll just take leave for a week, I have the days and everyone will understand." He held him close, allowing Noah to cling to him, running a hand through his hair. "I was going to suggest the same thing to you. The babies need to stay with mum and dad, because right now, the only baby I need to be concerned with is you," he leaned down and kissed him in his favorite spot, right where he had a small dimple. "Daddy loves his baby boy so damn much. Always has, always will," he promised.

"W-We're going to be o-okay," Noah whispered, hands tangled into Isaac's dark hair. He scooted closer taking a deep breath as he looked down before looking back up at Isaac with a small, sad smile on his lips. "We're going to be f-fine..we're always fine." He leaned up, kissing away the boy's tear stains as his shaky sighs of breath left his lungs. "Always fine, Daddy..always."

Isaac was crying right alongside Noah. “We aren’t going to break up, because I’m not going to lose you, Noah. I can’t lose you and our kids. You three… you’re my life, and I’m so sorry everything got in the way. I’m not going to let it any longer. Isaac kissed him back, not caring that he needed to be gentle and cautious. Noah had initiated the kiss and he was going to kiss him back just as hard and as desperate. Isaac slid his hands down his back, cupping his lower back with one hand still, the other resting on his too small waist. “I’m going to fix you. Fuck it. Fuck my job. Fuck everything else. You and the kids? That’s all that matters to me now.” He kissed the tip of his nose, sniffling softly. “I’m going to fix you, and us, any myself. We’re all broken, Noah. But all broken things can be mended. It may take some time, but that’s alright, because I’d rather spend a lifetime trying to fix you than a lifetime without you by my side.” He sat down on the floor and pulled Noah into his lap, pressing their foreheads together. “You and me against the world, remember?” he whispered against his lips.

Noah swallowed hard, rubbing his hands up and down Isaac's arms as he gasped for breath. He refused to let Isaac go. He couldn't let Isaac go. "Y-Your job," he whimpered, looking down. "You nee-need to keep your job..you love wh-what you do," he cried out. As he kept his desperate grip on Isaac, Noah sniffled, trying to calm himself down as he pulled back to hide his face in Isaac's neck. "A-Always be-been us against the world," he whispered. "Ma-Maybe..would m-mum and dad watch the twins for a week or so? I..they sleep through the n-night and we can go see them all the time..its just..maybe we need Daddy and Baby time. U-Us time."

"I’m sorry. I’m not trying to blame you!" he said, "And I have fucking panic attacks because they were alone, and every time I’ve left someone I loved alone, they get hurt. You . Kamilla. You again. Matt. And I was scared that they were going to get hurt." He stopped, his heart dropping to his stomach. Don’t you dare fucking say that about her." He growled. He was protective over the daughter that he had never known. And he wouldn’t allow anyone to talk bad about her. Isaac had had enough. Fuck this trying not to touch Noah bullshit. He took a step forward, grabbing Noah’s hands. "Noah. Baby. No." he whispered, pressing a kiss to each of the crescent shaped indents. "Baby stop. Baby please. PLEASE.” Isaac was frantic and full on crying now. He was a failure, a complete and utter failure. He had promised Noah he would never be like any of his ex-boyfriends, but here he was, breaking his heart. “Noah, they weren’t right. You do deserve a forever, and I still want to be your forever. Fuck Noah, you’re mine. You’re the only person I have ever loved. You are the only person I’ve done anything sexual with that wasn’t against my will. You are the only person I want. And this whole thing? It’s al my fault. None of this is yours.” Isaac scrubbed a hand down his face, wiping away the tears. “I failed you, Noah. I’ve failed our kids. I’m the failure, not you.” he looked Noah in the eyes and saw how hurt and scared he looked, and he couldn’t bar it. As soon as he mentioned the shooting, Isaac let out another loud sob. He had to lean against the wall to keep his knees from buckling under him and collapsing. “NO!” he said, shaking his head. “I would have died if he had killed you. And I will die if you die. Noah please give me a change. Please,” he begged. “Let me fix this. Let me fix us. Let me fix you.” Isaac wrapped his arms around Noah and held him close once more, cupping his lower back and the back of his neck. He was so thin, he could feel the vertebrae in his back, and it felt like he was hugging a skeleton. “You are not a piece of shit. I’m the piece of shit, and please no. Don’t let. Don’t abandon our kids, don’t abandon me, and please, please don’t kill yourself. Because if you do, our kids are growing up orphans.” Isaac buried his face in his hair and sobbed. “Noah I can’t lose you. I”m sorry. I’m so sorry. Please give me a chance. I’ll quit my job. I’ll do it for you and the kids. Just please don’t leave me.” 

When Isaac kissed his skin, Noah let out a small whimper. Despite how strong he wanted to be, he knew he never would stand a chance when it came to Isaac. As they hugged, he clung to the older boy, body trembling as he let out a loud sob. "I ne-need you..I've always needed you. I can't do this..I can't do this without you and it scares me t-to think th-that we could..could b-break up. I ne-never want that..ever..you're..you're all i n-need Isaac and w-we're p-perfect." As he took a breath, Noah found his lips painfully close to Isaac's and before he could blink, he'd pressed them together in a hard kiss. Desperate for Isaac in every way imaginable. "I n-need you..I need you to fix me."