MahouZephyr

Reblogging as I think every one of my followers are special and impossible to replace.

“The reason why “im fine 🙂” is my response when people ask me what’s wrong. If I were more honest I would have to tell you that the misery that I’m feeling, stems from the pain of not being able to help someone I care for. I would have to tell you that I don’t know how to solve my problem. I would have to tell you that I’ve tried every method I could think of. I would have to tell you that when it all came down to it, I failed. I’m lost bc someone I love is lost. And if I tell you all of these things…what would it do? I’ll tell you… If I tell you all of these things it will do nothing more than create an infinite loop of despair. Bc if you love me and I’m lost because I can’t help someone I love who is lost …you in turn become lost. Therefore creating another sad person who is down bc they too can not help someone they love. I refuse to give up. I will not fail. I continue to search for new efforts until the one I care for is healthy and happy. My sorrow comes from despair , despair I refuse to share. Their heart has been stained black. But I’ve learned that even if a pearl has lost its luster from corruption, that it can one day shine again. Although my hearts gets darker each day from these treacherous thoughts….i still fight to keep that little light I have left in me alive, if I give up who will fight for not one , but now two. I pray for the day I can be embraced by my dear one again… ….to be continued?….”