not the same;

“You know, don’t get me wrong. I love my job, but it is so tiring doing the same thing over and over. I think it might be time for a new one.” @secretsummerstarters​

“So do it. You do you and don’t worry about anyone else.” 

“Are you okay?” Nina asked, coming up towards the person as they’d been sitting there in the restaurant for quite a while now. “Can I get you anything?”

“Yeah..just great.” Chase sighed a little bit, looking at his watch again. “Umm--what is on special tonight?” He was waiting for Paul but clearly the man had gotten busy.

@paul–davies​

“Hi, baby…” Paul spoke softly as he glanced up from the kitchen counter. He laughed gently as he was tugged toward him and leaned up to return the kiss. He resisted the urge to sigh and almost frown. The smell of alcohol on Chase’s breath made alarms go off in his head. His own paranoia triggered. He didn’t fear Chase leaving him anymore, but he was still terrified of losing him one way or another. “I miss you too…” he whispered, brushing his fingers along Chase’s chin.

Chase had needed it. Granted he was trying to be better but he didn’t always succeed especially right now. His sister had moved full time, and he just felt like he was losing everyone. Although Chase understood it. But still it was how he felt. Granted, Paul was still there and that was mattered to him. Leaning into her touch, he also leaned forward and kissed him again. “My guy...how was your day?” He questioned as he pulled away again.

“Are you having fun?” Henley had thrown a belated New Year’s party down by the river, wanting to be distracted by being around other people.

“Completely. What about you?” He questioned, raising a brow slightly. Although he knew that he should probably go home soon.

@secretsummerstarters​

“Just wondering if I could give you a hand or something.” 

@faye–gordon​

Faye made a face at him. “Phones work both ways, dumbass.” She joked. “What’s up?”

“That they do.” He chuckled lightly. “Nothing. Figured we could get some lunch or something.” 

p-eteradamson​:

“Um…” He tried to work out which was closer, but it was sure it was pretty equal. “Let’s go to my place.” He didn’t really know Chase’s living situation these days. If he lived with anyone else, he probably didn’t want them seeing him in this state. “I’ll help you, okay? I got you, man.” With his hand still on Chase’s shoulder, Peter moved him in the direction of his home.

Chase nodded his head. “Thank you.” Sometimes it felt like Peter understood him better. Even if Paul was trying. He couldn’t help but lean into the other man as they walked. “Thank you.” He repeated again. The state he was in was a bad one and he really didn’t want Paul to see him like this. “I know you aren’t in it anymore. I just need something. Anything and I’ll do anything.”

@paul–davies​

“I can certainly try, my love.” He grinned, bringing his hand up to kiss it. “However, if you wanted a sporty husband… you married the wrong one. I suck at throwing…” 

“That is all I’m asking.” He grinned, while looking over at him. Shaking his head slightly. “That isn’t who or what I want at all. All I want in this life is you by my side forever.” 

“Are you alright?” She asked the person in front of her. They just seemed to be staring into space. And Leah wanted to make sure that nothing (emergency wise) was going on. “ Here sit for awhile before you wander off and not realize it.” @secretsummerstarters​

“What?” Chase asked, not realizing that he had spaced out. Clearly he wasn’t okay but he was trying to be. But he had a problem again thanks to -A. Siting down when she suggested that he did. “I swear I’m fine.”