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21. To be genuinely happy

I haven’t been on Tumblr for the longest time and I can see why. Those previous months have been great––too great that I completely forgot how it feels to be sad and well lonely. Lonely in a sense where I have friends. I know who my real friends are. Friends that I don’t need to see or talk to everyday to make sure that the friendship is still there and I will forever be grateful for them. But lately, I’ve been feeling like you know when you feel like you’re drowning inside your own body and nobody including yourself seems to understand what’s happening. I’m not very good at describing what I feel but it’s something like that. I’ve decided to deactivate/ghost out on my social media accounts such as Facebook and well my personal Twitter. Feels good because I don’t really have many to talk to so it doesn’t really make a difference. Other than that I’ve had a lot of time to do the usual things I do like watch movies, videos, I even got to draw again. Although, I’m not very good at it but you know, still something. And oh, cause of my course in college, I still have many papers/presentations to do so at least there’s something to keep me pre-occupied from the things in my head.