Morgan!

I can only stand

On the shoulders of giants

That came before me.

I can only swim

Across waters infested

With people that wish to kill.

I can only run

On a road paved

Long before my time.

I stand alone,

Bittersweet that those

Who would be my friends

Are nothing but liars.

I swim alone,

Frantic to reach

The other side, knowing

No one will rescue me.

I run alone,

Breathless and hot,

Knowing that no one

Will ever keep up with me.

I will stand

Tall and regal and proud,

Victory in hand.

I will swim

Calmly as a shark,

King of the waters.

I will run

Across roads unpaved,

Making paths for those after me.

I know it wasn't

My fault.

But I still feel it was.

And when I knew

I would never live

That way again,

I could not cry.

I could never rest again.

Having left them there

Asleep.

I can only look back

With regret and remorse

For what I did to them.

And all I did was live.

Survive.

Change.

I'm sorry I couldn't save you too,

I couldn't save myself

Until it was too late

After all.

I'm sorry I left you to rot

Unseen by us all.

I'll never forget all

That you were, and

All you'll never be,

Or can never forget.

I'm sorry I'll never go back,

Never say bye,

Never say hello.

Another night passes.

The moon goes by.

She smiles at me 

From her darkened

Pedestal against 

The star spattered sky.

She talks and I listen.

She sings of a child

Lost, gone,

Tumbling in the breeze.

She listens when I talk.

I cry and heave

At the expectations

And the pressure,

And my own pedestal 

I hate.

We say hello,

And goodbye,

As we walk away.

So we wait,

And toil, and breathe,

In and out.

I’d rather stay here with you.

I’d rather breathe in

The scent of seafoam.

I’d much rather

Run around the beach

Picking up cigarette butts

With you,

Than drive home after work.

I know

You might not want that.

I know you’d rather

Go home, or talk

To me in the parking lot.

I know you’d rather

Leave me guessing

How much you care.

Even if it hurts.

Even if it tortures me.

I’d still rather have you.

I’d rather have

Every day, I’m thinking.

About you. About me.

I think I might run away.

From all these

Responsibilities and

The fears of

What may come.

I don't like to think

About all the

Possibilities that could

End up crushing me.

Every word that

Could make you

Hate me.

I'm thinking of all

The ways I could say

I love you.

All the moments that

I could have with you.

I think of the rumors I hear.

That you’re gone,

That you’ve had enough.

I think about us.

And how you say

You don't know how you feel,

But I know you do.

I know you like me,

But it’s not my

Realization to make.

I’m thinking I’ll

Miss the canoe we met in,

Rowing past the storks

In the water.

I’ll miss the cove

Where we collided as we swam.

But I think

We’ll see

Each other around.

I think all this

Could be so much more

Than what it already is.

I think this is

All I want.

I grew up far from here.

In a town by the sea,

But I never went to 

The beach.

The smell of salt

Would hang in the air,

Like I would

Hang from the tree

In the yard.

This town feels small.

Like I'm too much

For it to understand.

Maybe I'm not yet

Grown out of

My shell.

Maybe there's

More to learn.

This town is too quiet.

It needs more sound,

More laughter,

More music.

It needs more color,

More flowers,

More love.

This town

Made me smile.

It made me cry.

This town

Is where

I want to belong.

It wasn’t quiet at all that night.

The sun had barely gone down

Before the noise had started.

Every eye around us

Was fixed on its own

Unique sights.

And we were looking

At each other.

I still remember

How I walked up

Wanting to talk.

I also remember the moment

You asked if I would

Walk with you.

What an adventure,

Who would’ve known

That we’d be taking

That walk even now.

I know I’d seen you before,

But it finally felt like meeting you

I guess that's why

I remember the night

We saw each other.