why do I keep getting attracted?

The perfect moment came a few days after. You two were snuggled on the couch, watching a comedy show. Changbin still kept quiet instead of laughing at the jokes. You turned to look at him and asked.

'Changbin?'

'Yes sweetheart?'

'I don't mean to pry...but are you okay? You've been off these past few weeks and I don't know what's wrong. Won't you tell me what's going on? I'm getting worried about you'

His eyebrow raised as he looked at you, trying to figure out your intent. His soft smile quickly turned into a scowl as he sat up on the couch to face you.

'You're getting worried about me? So what? You decide it's okay to ask me when I finally have a break?! When my guard is down cause I'm tired?'

'That's not why I....'

'I'm so sorry Y/N. So sorry I can't be happy go lucky 24/7. You know we have a new album release soon and I've been in the studio with 3RACHA these past weeks working deep into the night.' He throws up both his hands and raises his voice

'Changbin, I didn't mean it like that. I just....'

'After a busy day, all I want is just to relax on the couch with my partner. Not as an idol but as the human behind it, Seo Changbin! You know i've been busy! I can barely get a breather these past weeks! I just want a little bit of quiet! I'm tired, that's all. Actually, just...go home Y/N. We'll talk about this another time. '

You didnt expect that. Changbin had always been honest with you. You knew he wouldn't lash out without a good reason. Clearly something was bothering him, so why didn't he tell you? He knew you would never make fun of him, didn't he?

You sigh and shake your head. Whatever it is, it won't be resolved tonight.

'I don't know what's going on. I just don't like seeing you upset and down. You are my amazing and lovely boyfriend. I don't want you to feel less than anyone. Whatever it is, we'll figure it out, like we always do. Promise' you smile softly at him and give him a quick peck on the nose.

Changbins nose scrunches, his anger dissapating a little. 'Okay sweetheart, just...drop it for now okay? I'll see you soon, i'm just really tired and I want to get an early night'

You let out a deep sigh 'If that's really what you want...then okay. We will talk about it later. Sleep well Bin and see you soon'

- At Y/N's appartment -

Back home at your appartment, you drop your bag and hang up your coat. What could've upset him so? Are preparations not going well? Are the members being mean? No, they wouldn't just do that. So, what then?

You sigh and open up your Instagram account. The relationship between you and Changbin isn't public so you don't have to hide your identity online. As much as you'd love going public, you understand why you can't.

You start mindlessly scrolling trying to get your brain off of Changbin for a bit. That's when you find a video titled 'Changbin being way too loud again'.

Confused, you click on the video. It's a compilation of clips with Binnie. The first clip is of him rolling on the ground in mock pain after Seungmin shot a soft dart at his leg. The next clip is him during a fanmeet, dressed in pink with majestic angel wings and a sword? screaming as Lee know chases him with a sword of his own.

Unable to stop yourself, you start smiling at the video, giggling as Changbin gets startled in the haunted house or yelps when he's hit with a water gun during a SKZ code.

Silly binnie, you think. But then you read the comment section:

'Who does he think he is? Being so loud? Like he's allowed to do that when he's not even the visual?'

Another comments replied with 'yeah, it also just seems fake doesn't it? He's clearly doing it for attention. You're the least biased member, get over it already ugh!'

'Seriously, he thinks he's so amazing because he's in 3RACHA? Please, Chan and Han would be better off as a duo!'

You find a lot of these hate comments, they just keep going. Making fun of your sweet loving boyfriend. Your boyfriend, who works so hard and does so much for Stray Kids, 3RACHA and STAY. Never faltering or saying he's too tired and always ready to mediate for his members when neccesary.

Could this be the reason he's been down??

While it makes sense, he was usually able to brush these comments off with some support from you and his members...did he forget how much you all love him? Well, that can't happen now can it?

The following morning, you sent a quick text to Chan, asking if Bin can have the sunday off from 3RACHA duties. Chan readily agrees saying he deserves a day off. You explain the situation to him and suggest a group dinner at the dorm. Chan says he'll make the arrangements and promises to make the members not tell Changbin before you do.

Friday rolls around and you're back at the dorm. You had texted Changbin and Hyunjin that you were cooking tonight. You had spent the last hour making kimchi jiggae and some of his favorite ban chan. Around 7pm they both came barelling through the front door.

'Honey im hooome' hyunjin sang, chuckling at his own joke. He hung up his jacket and quickly retreated to the bathroom for a hot shower.

'Hello my lovely chef!' Changbin said as he wrapped his strong around around your front, giving you a tight back hug '-is all this work for me?'

You nod, turning your head to give him a kiss on the cheek 'yeah! I know you've been super busy with the comeback so I figured I'd cook dinner tonight'

'You're the best, you know that right? I'm sorry for lashing out last time. I'm feeling much better, promise! ' He says, nuzzling his nose into your neck. Changbin was always clingy after a long day, it helped him calm down and relax after work.

You chuckle 'You deserve it, you deserve all of it. Now, shower first then food. It's okay Bin, i'm glad you're feeling a bit better and I accept your apology. We can cuddle on the couch after dinner and I might have a little surprise for you! I think you'll really like this one too!' You hint before shooing him off. Soon after, both Changbin and Hyunjin remerge, make up removed, freshly showered and in comfortable clothes.

You give both of them a big bowl of kimchi jiggae, side dishes and rice. Dinner goes by quickly, the two men busy eating with big mouthfulls, making pleased noises every so often. The biggest compliment you can get as a chef: a silent dinner table.

After dinner, Hyunjin says he's doing the clean up so you pull Changbin over to the couch. You sit down and reach into your pocket. Retrieving a thin envelope.

'Surprise baby, open it' you hand it off to him.

He doesn't hesitate and does so. Inside are 2 tickets for an amusement park that's just a short drive from Seoul.

He looks at you, tilting his head like a confused puppy

'An amusement park? Baby, i'd love to but I have 3RACHA duties and...'

You shake your head, 'no, you HAD, past tense, Chan is giving you the day off so we can go.'

'He did? That's amazing, you're the best, he's the best. Wait! That's why he was so quiet today!! He promise not to spoil it, didn't he?'

You grin 'Yep! I wanted it to be a proper surprise. So...what do you think? Just you, me, rollercoasters and horribly unhealthy food for a whole day. How does that sound?'

He puts the envelope down and pulls you towards him, kissing you deeply. After the kiss he puts his forehead against yours 'Like a dream!' He breathes

You chuckle and kiss him back. 'Good. I'll be sure to pick you up around 9.

-Sunday-

As promised, you arrive bright and early at the dorm, letting Bin know you've arrived. He quickly comes down and you two drive to the park.

The first few hours of the day are spent in rollercoasters. Everytime you reach the top, you grab Changbins hand and scream stuff like 'oh my god' and 'its so high, its so high, AHHHHHH'

Changbin does the same, screaming loudly as you barrel through the curves and twists, not holding back anymore. ' Y/N, it's too high, it's going too fast!! AHHH'

After the 5th ride of the day, you two sit together on a park bench. Fresh hotteok in the one hand, Changbins arm wrapped around your shoulders.

'This is lovely, I'm so glad I asked Chan to give you the day off. You earned it.' you take a bite of your hotteok, quickly puffing out steam trying to not burn your tongue.

He chuckles and smiles 'Yeah, I really needed this. You always know what I need, don't you?' He sighs 'I'm sorry for yelling at you last week. It wasn't okay and I know you said it was fine but...'.

You shake your head 'Bin, don't worry, I know you've been so busy and I didn't mean to add to your stress...and then the fans did...' your hand covered your mouth but it was too late, Changbin had already heard it.

He shakes his head before looking down at his lap 'You saw, didn't you?'

You nod softly 'I did. I didn't go looking promise!! It just suddenly popped up on my feed. I didn't know those 'so called fans' were being mean to you again. I don't even want to call them fans when they act like that. You don't deserve that, any of it. Why didn't you tell me this was going on?'

'I didn't want to appear weak' he muttered, so soft that if you weren't sitting so close to him, you wouldn't have heard. 'I should just shrug it off and continue, right?' He's silent for a bit

'-but I couldn't this time. I just started thinking and once I started...I couldn't stop. Am I really that loud and obnoxious? Does STAY hate me? Would 3RACHA be better off without me? Should I just leave Stray Kids?'

You shake your head ' Absolutely not! Listen Bin, you know I'd never lie to you, right?' He gives a quick nod.

'Right, so let me tell you. I love your laugh, I adore how passionate you are and how full of life you are. Your members think so too and they appreciate all your hard work and passion. You're not obnoxious or annoying. You're my favorite person and that won't change. I love you exactly as you are. My amazing, strong, resilient, soft, cuddly and damn attractive boyfriend. Don't shrink yourself for people who don't even know you. I love you Bin, forever and always'

It's quiet for a while, until you hear a soft whimper. He collapses into your side and sobs quietely, tears running down his cheek and dropped onto his lap. You wrap your arm around him and pull him to your chest, holding him close, softly stroking his back.

'Oh Binnie, it's okay. I'm here, let it out, I've got you'

After a while, he slowly untangles himself and looks at you. Wiping his nose with his sleeve. Eyes bloodshot and hair all messed up.

'I don't know what I did to deserve you but I'm happy every day that you picked me. I love you Bunny. Thanks for holding me when I'm not strong"

You shake your head, teary eyed yourself 'Strong doesn't mean invulnerable Bin, you're allowed to hurt and I'm here to support you through it all. Ups and down. You're not getting rid of me that easily' You give him a teasing shove with your elbow. He lets out a loud laugh at your final comment.

You ruffle his hair and pull him up from the couch 'Come on! We have a few more attractions and only so little daylight left. Let's have some more fun'

- Back at the dorm -

When you arrived back at the dorm, the lights are off and it's quiet.

Changbin is first through the door 'Hyunjin? Hello? Anyone here? That's odd, I'm sure he said..'

'SURPRISE!!!' The lights flick on and there are all the members of Stray kids. Han is holding a balloon with 'best Hyung' on it and Felix has a box of his famous brownies.

'Hey hyung, how was your day? Y/Nnie invited us over for dinner and we heard you felt down about the comments. Soooo, here we are. Ready for a fun night? Lee know and Han brought party games and soju, so prepare for max mayhem' Seungmin proudly declared

Changbin blinked as he processed the info before a giant smile broke out all over his face and he yelled 'Hell yess! LETS GOOOO!!!'

The rest of the night was, as expected, loud. It didn't matter though, your Bin was finally smiling and back to his usual antics again. Laughing with 3RACHA and chasing Seungmin after he misbehaves.

Turns out, all he needed was just a little reminder: that no matter what anyone says, he has people who love him for him, exactly the way he is.

The end

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