Working on it...

I still like the idea of a devout religious vampire praying with a rosary and burning it's hands in some kind of masochistic penance for it's sins against nature...

summers like. you will feel a loneliness so profound youll fear it has no end but also sometimes God will place their cooling hand on yr forehead & you will feel held for the first time

I’m fine

I need divine intervention

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but please don’t break promises you make to yourself just because it’s you the promise is being made to. You told yourself you’d go on a walk tomorrow morning? Do it. You said you’d get more consistent with your skincare routine? Make it happen. You promised yourself you would work on establishing boundaries regardless of who’s on the other side of them? Follow through with that. Don’t wake up the next day and go “well I don’t HAVE to do this” “it wouldn’t hurt to postpone this” “this isn’t a big deal” because it literally is. Every promise broken is another nail in the coffin of your self-actualization. It’s another major roadblock to developing healthy self-love and self-respect. Weigh promises you’ve made to yourself the same way you would weigh promises you’ve made to others.

I honestly tolerated such shitty behavior from other people before because it’s like. I didn’t respect myself enough to go through w things I want, so how can I expect other people to respect me enough to consider the way they treat me w care? And then it’s also so much easier to slip into the mentality of “they’re treating me horribly NOW but I’m sure they’ll do better in the future” “they’re not there yet but they will be” because that’s what you tell yourself when you don’t follow through w things. Other people’s subpar behavior towards you is acceptable because YOUR subpar behavior towards yourself is acceptable. I think this is what people mean when they say you have to love yourself in order to accept healthy love from other people. If you don’t think you’re worthy enough of following through w your own promises to yourself, why should you think that other people perceive you as worthy enough? It legitimately all starts w you.

me every day