AS NAKED AS A TROUT

going to a new running sushi place w/ my friend for lunch :) not the one i always go on about but a new, different one ive never been to. struggle

there's a very nice cafe albeit with questionable branding about a 2m walk from the flat but their policy is no laptops which vexes and haunts me bc i would like to do some uni work in there but i just cant lol. i have only ever been in there w/ anon man or my friend, so it's not like im only there hunched over a laptop, but having the option to do some uni work there would be so nice

anon man brought me home a gift this evening and told me he got it for my birthday but I should open it now lol and it was a replacement for my watch I lost a year ago and have been whining about ever since 🥲🥲🥲🥲

off to my next chess game, this guy is pretty good going by rating so not overly optimistic. but I don't care x my current standing is 5/14 which for my first ever tournament I'm alright with, although I would love to get top 3 😬 do think that's unlikely tho

I posted the other day about worrying about the decline in sex and mentally had started debating whether or not I really need my little egg dish in the UK for when he inevitably breaks up with me, but yesterday he initiated sex and then afterwards was like "ahhh it's been difficult to feel like sex lately. tired and stressed and running a lot"and apologised for it... like... when will I stop being like this lol? how do I find my way back to being a person who has even an iota of trust going spare?