Man to man, I will stay on your side.

I know a lot of people have him being a teenager around the first l’manberg arc, but personally i like it much better when he’s already in his twenties. this makes cWilbur’s constant infantilization of him even more infuriating when he’s a grown ass adult, and it makes cFundy even more upset to see his dad treating cTommy and cTubbo (who are like fifteen or even fourteen at the time) as more capable and adult than him. it also twists the knife in a little bit deeper when cWilbur elects first cTommy and then cTubbo as president without even LOOKING at Fundy. I also think it adds to the theme of him never getting to belong anywhere–because of how Wilbur infantilizes him, he either feels insecure around other adults or they treat him like a child (or both, one begetting the other), but he can’t fit in with the kids like Tommy and Tubbo either because he’s too old for him. not that his age means he gets any respect from them, because nobody respects Fundy, least of all his own freaking dad. like broooooo every time i think about cFundy it makes me lose my shit the way he’s treated like a useless toddler by everybody. and this is exactly why he switched sides so suddenly with cSchlatt, because in my AU cSchlatt saw him just the same as everybody else but recognized him as easily manipulatable. all he had to do was offer Fundy a little respect, treat him like a man and not a boy, and Fundy was hooked. when Fundy wrapped back around to hating Schlatt, he felt extreme shame for having been so easily hoodwinked and told himself he wasn’t gonna care about anyone anymore. he’s not great at that, but he does his best to act that way outwardly. 

he loves Yogurt so so much and is also so so scared for them. he’s heard all Wilbur’s drunken rants throughout his childhood about cPhilza. he knows Phil told himself he would be a good father, despite his father and childhood. he knows Wilbur told himself he would be a good father, despite his father and childhood. and now here Fundy is telling himself the same thing, except unlike his dad and granddad, he barely believes it. years of being treated as useless have led to deep-seated belief and fear that he is useless, which only exacerbates his worries about how Yogurt will grow up. part of the reason he forms a shaky relationship with Phil, cTubbo, and cRanboo is because he wants Yogurt to have somewhere to go if he turns out like everyone else in his family. he doesn’t think Phil was a good dad either, or a great granddad, but he seems to have changed and at any rate, if Fundy was bad enough for Yogurt to leave then Phil would have to be better for him, right? Wilbur never left Phil, after all, but Phil was the one who left him, so maybe Phil’s not good. in that case Yogurt can fall back on Tubbo and Ranboo. and Tubbo and Ranboo have a kid of their own, who seems to be pretty happy. Yogurt can have a friend his age, something Fundy never had. maybe Yogurt will like having a friend so much that they’ll want to leave Fundy. no, no, can’t worry about that. 

Fundy has a mild form of schizophrenia with mostly auditory hallucinations (his chat) and occasional visual hallucinations. he has extreme insomnia, and when he does get to sleep, he has recurring nightmares. while living in Las Nevadas he confided in cQuackity about his issues and cQuackity set him up with sleeping pills that knock him out for about eight hours each night, so that’s pretty solid. Quackity might even be able to find him some schizophrenia meds, but Fundy would never ask. he’s never told anyone about his hallucinations, not even cNiki (who he misses but also avoids). cQuackity also got him some antidepressants, which he appreciates. Las Nevadas actually has a pretty solid pharmacy, and it tends to do steadier business than the casino in the off months. 

and of course he is transgender. he’s always gonna be transmasc to me. he uses he/him pronouns and actually might not be a full guy (he would probably lean more towards he/they and transmasc nonbinary if he got comfortable with it) but after so much constant infantilization he feels like he needs to be manly in order to be treated as a real man. nobody on the server ever misgendered him or was transphobic to him, but the infantilization made him feel like a little tiny kid, and a bit like a girl, too. he also doesn’t like to wear bright colors or colors of any kind really because it reminds him too much of that stupid little crayon-colored uniform that NOBODY else had, not even the literal children six-plus years younger than him. the infantilization affected his self-image so badly and continues to do so more and more over the years. 

he’s also gay, and yes, the Dundy wedding was canon, and yeah, it totally fucked him up. he actually did have genuine crush on cDream (like half the server did for some reason, forbidden fruit i guess?) and he was genuinely excited about the wedding, in part because he just wanted to be with cDream, and in part because he thought that being with someone like Dream who commanded so much respect would have to rub off on him, right? people would take him more seriously then, right? and then cGeorge literally stole Dream from him right in front of EVERYBODY at the stupid enormous wedding venue that he’d commissioned just for Dream with all the fancy things that he’d spent so much time on. months and months of work, so much effort from him, for George to ruin it all like it was nothing to him. in front of everyone, including his dad, including Tommy. it really, really hurt to be thrown away so blatantly like that, to be treated like just another stupid little joke for the billionth time with an extra dose of public humiliation, when he’d thought he was actually having something serious. it did not help that there were a lot of jokes from all sides afterward about how incompatible he and Dream were and how ridiculous they’d have been together and so on and so forth. it honestly ruined romance for him a bit to have his first serious relationship (or so he thought) get turned into a hilarious joke after he poured so much effort into it. 

anyhow, if the dundy wedding actually did end up going through, I think like I mentioned it my last post it would be sort of a power thing for cFundy. a part of him, even with all the planning and work, honestly still didn't think this was actually all the way gonna happen, so despite it literally being the wedding day he's still kinda floored when cDream actually says yes and they actually get married.

this can go 2 ways: either their relationship actually becomes healthy, and cFundy becomes a mediator between Dream and Pogtopia and Manberg and so on and so forth, and could help steer Dream away from his spirals. Dream, likewise, could help Fundy care about himself and believe in his own worth regardless of if he’s with Dream or not, and in the process of helping Fundy would end up helping himself by accident.

the other way this could go, and the much more likely way, is that Dream sees how deeply bitter Fundy is after years of being treated like a stupid baby, recognizes his desperation to prove himself and gives him an outlet for those negative emotions in the form of violence and inflicting those emotions on other people the same way he does. in this AU, cDream would do the wedding partly as a joke, then realize that he actually likes Fundy and Fundy is much more interesting than he gave him credit for, and because of this he sees encouraging Fundy towards violence as being a good partner by taking care of his emotions. Fundy wouldn’t become a good fighter or anything, but cDream could take care of that while he goes about screwing with everyone in all the ways he’s wanted to after years of being treated like crap. 

but yeah in order for the relationship to be legit healthy and have them both improving, cDream would have to already be in a better place than he is in my regular canon and he would need to be vastly more open to breaking his very bad habits. cFundy would also need to be able to recognize cDream’s bad qualities as opposed to putting him on a pedestal, like he did with cSchlatt, but way extreme, just because Dream treats him with respect. basically, cDream is stuck in a cycle of violence of his own making because he refuses to go to therapy (hj), and from his POV violence has ‘worked’ for him so therefore good. he deliberately dehumanizes himself and presents himself as either a monster or a god or both, and whether consciously or subconsciously, the rest of the server tends to internalize that and act accordingly. so cFundy has already internalized this without realizing it, which is why when cDream actually agrees and the whole wedding actually goes through, it blindsides him because due to his constant infantilization he has low self-esteem and due to the way Dream presents himself he’s a bit in awe of him, particularly because Dream is so physically imposing and commands attention in a way he’s always wanted to and never has. being with cDream contributes both to elevating Fundy’s self-esteem, because he’s with this guy of all people, and elevating his view of cDream, because he becomes the only person who cFundy perceives as treating him well and respecting him.