Jun 21
I saw this quote: “It’s not a betrayal to get over the pain”.
If I don’t have the pain the wrath creeps in and lord knows I don’t handle that well and always leads to a relapse
I miss the sweet spot of mania before the psychosis sets in. At least for a little while I get to feel some joy and relief from the aching
I just want to rest
#personal#text post#please just let me go#it’s an act of mercy#I’m tired of suffering so others don’t#I have been waiting my entire life for things to get ‘better’#I don’t remember most of my life#grief and trauma and undiagnosed AuDHD and OCD are a beast of a combo#gotta throw the ED in there I guess#but I’m currently in that relapse#so there’s that#i don’t know#sorry for the rant#I’m tired of fighting#safe for now
