Artemis

It is 10:28pm where I am right now. I’ve been high for about 3 hours. My soul sister emptied her dinner and passed out. I am now wrapped in her weighted blanket watching a documentary about rare antique books. (The Booksellers, 2021)

Anyway, I am a huge 🍃 user, supporter, and advocate. So in honor of 4/20 I will be writing every unfiltered thought here and post it at 12am. It’ll only be about an hourish dive it’s so late but oh well. This is vulnerable for me but it’s a way to step outside my comfort circle.

Keep in mind this might be be long.

Okay here we go….

well now my mind is blank, nice

At 25 I am definitely discovering the introverted side of me. After years of feeling lonely, I don’t have the need to seek further relationships because I am now finally allowing myself to heal. I guess from the ages of 20-25 I was learning how to be on my own, and I for the most part did learn. Well I also learned that you truly can’t do much alone. It’ll always take a village.

I think it’s truly time to let my eclectic self shine.

Maybe one day I’ll get a cat

I am staring to embrace my true nerdy, uncool self. For so many years I had to follow the trends and what was cool to feel like I fit in even just a little bit. But who even cares anymore? I spent so many years trying to fit that I don’t want to waste anymore time not being my authentic self.

Still heavily introvert-leaning

Leaning more into my support system

I'm learning to be eclectic with myself

Her name is Aurora; she's a 4-year-old brown tabby. She's gorgeous, and I love her to death.

It is a normal human response to hate somebody who hurts you.

Even if sometimes they are really nice.

Even if they say they are sorry.

Even if they're family.

Your brain is wired to protect you. It protects you by recognising patterns and creating negative output when you are exposed to something dangerous.

"loss."