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umm i need reassurance that my presence is wanted but i can’t ask for reassurance because that’s really Embarrassing and it wouldn’t feel genuine if i asked for it

i'm honestly starting to think that this obsession about fitting perfectly into a determined and defined aesthetic, following a set of rules to become 'that girl' or 'a clean girl' or whatever girl archetype tiktok is trying to viralize this week, wanting to feel like a main character of a movie at all times, setting your identity according to any personality test / astrology sign traits / whatever you find on the internet... is not really about wanting to belong to something or feeling recognized by others but actually an evasive coping mechanism. i feel like we don't care about communities or counter-cultural scenes as much as we do about individually embodying a certain identity sold to us on the internet, because it's easier than facing the feeling of incompletion, uncertainty and fluctuation of personal identity. we want to see ourselves from the outside as perfectly defined and intelligible characters. but we are not! we will never fit in a perfect ideal, nor should we want to...

feeling the weight of the unlived life today girls

half of my time spent in public spaces consists of me wondering if i’m acting normal enough

id walk the maze barefoot and find the minoutaur and all id do was hold his hand and lead him out into sunlight

don’t make fun of the middle aged guy in the corner on the ipad. that’s damon albarn of gorillaz

hi. will it ever end

something about crowds singing in unison at concerts that leaves my entire existence awestruck. its the the most human thing ever.