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Your mind, reputed to be quite empty and flowery, has spent the better part of this year thinking about your knight. Your ʿuqabi. He is, of course, not yours, but your heart feels glad to think of him as such.

Father purchased his services before the cold came, and the man has seemed to fill every wine-red arch of the keep since then. He speaks freely with his fellow knights; to your ear, it is a stiff and rigid language, but you enjoy watching his mouth move.

As the middle daughter of a gerad, you are all too acquainted with the notion that your father and your sisters consume most of the oxygen in any given space. As gerad, your father is a rare figure to glimpse, but no less imposing for his absence. His absences have grown longer once your mother passed several years ago, as you became a woman.

The eldest sister, Yodit, is betrothed, her wedding ceremony scheduled in one month's time. The preparatory festivities have allowed you to roam the keep, largely unattended and unnoticed.

Eleni, your younger sister, is kept busy as she is still a child. Although you enjoy her companionship at times, she would spend a whole evening painting pictures with her words instead of letting a room breathe.

Your knight has a strange name, Ser Garricke. Your tongue practices the sounds in the privacy of your bed after nightfall.

He hails from England, and you heard tale that he travelled with his fellow knights through Egypt. The sights he must have seen! The women and girls he must have dazzled! He's terribly grand in stature, a mountain to your pebble, and your body is overcome with shivers when you are in close proximity to him.

He is forbidden to speak to you. That fact is only a spark to the flame in your heart. If his tea-amber eyes should fall upon your person as you walk the halls, he will quickly evade them. It does not remove the sensation that he is still, somehow, watching you.

One of many nights of festivities takes the keep by storm, and you are filled with gratitude that all attendees are focused on Yodit. When permitted to move freely about the room, you slip through the clusters of brightly layered fabrics and scents of honoured guests, wishing to remain unseen.

Your ʿuqabi, your protector, is standing guard under a distant archway, his large hand on the hilt of his blade. You shiver as you approach, but you approach nonetheless.

He is alone and you are alone, and he is still forbidden to speak to you.

"Ser Garricke," you greet. You do not speak to him, and he has never heard you address him as such, your tongue rounding out the sharp shapes in your mouth.

His eyes widen, then flicker down to your slippered feet.

"It is the eve of my sister's ceremony," you state. He would like you to please walk away, you can read it as if the script is sewn into his uniform. He will never say it.

You are your father's daughter and use this as your advantage.

"I do not feel safe walking back to my quarters unescorted. My maids are flush with drink and honouring our guests. Ser Garricke, I ask that you escort me."

He shifts side to side, the discomfort clear as the night's stars tonight. He should not leave his post, but he is at the mercy of the gerad, which extends to the daughters. You hold your breath, watching these conclusions flourish on his beautiful face, and then he is stepping out of his stance.

"Woizero," he says softly, their title for you and your sisters.

Escorting you back through the private halls, emptied now, to your quarters.

"Will you be able to have a drink in honour of Yodit this eve, Ser Garricke?" You ask softly. There is a playful teasing tone to your voice when you ask.

He must be on his own battlefield presently: he is forbidden to speak to you, but is it ruder to ignore a directly addressed question by a gerad's daughter?

"I will not," he finally says, firmly. That he means to put an end to any line of inquiries.

You offer a sweet hmm sound to this. When you reach the door to your quarters, his body pivots away.

"Ser Garricke?"

His body stills.

"With the volume of drink my father has offered his guests this eve, I should suspect that any manner of wayward guests might wander the halls of our keep. Perhaps someone who holds less chivalrous and virtuous intents in his heart? There would be no way of knowing if such a person could have stolen into my quarters without a servant's eyes catching them."

You point at the door sweetly.

His expression is of determination, soured by something in particular, although you know not what it could be. He opens the door, hand on hilt.

"Clear."

"And of my secondary quarters, just there?" Deeper in.

He hesitates, but moves further inward, and this is the first time that you have witnessed his body be held with such uncertainty. It is remarkable to see.

As he proceeds deeper and inspects your secondary room, largely for prayer and wardrobes, you shut the door silently behind you.

He emerges, and notices his exit has been closed immediately.

"Woizero—"

"Ser Garricke, how long have your eyes found me since you arrived? How long have your watchful eyes noticed mine falling upon yours?"

He looks pained, so you offer him relief by going to him quickly, soft-footed. "Please alleviate our mutual suffering. An honourable man of your title would grant such a reprieve to allow us to move on?"

As if he is quoting scripture, he extends the expected response. "Woizero, please. I ask that I take my leave."

"Ser Garricke, you are under my father's roof. In my quarters — where Yodit and my father do not supersede me — I hold authority over you. I do not give you leave."

Desperation in his honeyed eyes. No richer, sweeter wine.

You approach him and he is as rigid as a statue in the courtyard. You ply him with a benevolent smile, and press your hand firmly against the bulge under his layered dress. Your heart is feverent and fast-beating when you touch him; the layers are thick, difficult to make out what you seek to the detail you crave, but it is enough for now.

His expression turns tortured, agonized, under your hand's explorations.

"Woi—"

"You know my name, Ser Garricke. I demand you use it."

You go up on your toes, taking the layers around his chest in hand, and pull him down to your face. He is breathing as heavily as a horse might. He is pretending he did not grow significantly while your hand cupped his length. You bury your face into the exposed slope of his neck to breathe in his smell. He is spiced and warm, smoke and oil for his blade all in one long curling scent.

He is so still.

You turn your face slightly so your mouths are neighbours. "Please, Ser Garricke. Ease us."

You think he will refuse, but then his eyes close, dark and tender, and then his mouth seeks yours. Within moments, the time it takes to inhale, he is exhaling deeply and loudly into your open mouth, and your insides feel as though they are boiling. Encouraged, you draw your hand up and down his length, listening to him heave throatily.

He says your name, and you squeeze him.

Ser Garrick's whole body is wracked in shudders, and he lifts his hands to clasp your shoulders, tighter — almost painful; delicious — than you ever expect him to be. It is as if a bird of prey has landed on the tops of your shoulders, its pincers grasping your flesh.

He stares at you, although his sight seems vacant, as though drawn into another realm altogether.

"Ser Garricke, that was lovely. I grant you leave. Perhaps I shall need an escort tomorrow eve. I expect that it shall be a long night and I will have my share of drink."

He stares as though he has been grievously injured. Nods dumbly, and wanders sloppily outside your doorway. He turns and continues staring until you close your door in his face.

"Goodnight, Ser Garricke," you smile kindly.