cecily

I’m like if a hot Cheetos girl was very shy and an aspiring (wannabe) coquette, yk?

Fruity Forever 21 body spray, pads, menstrual pain relief pills and sugar free gelatin pouches in my purse, feeling so 2016 idk

Wearing a black shirt with white stripes that aren’t too thick or cartoony, light blue denim shorts, clear lens prescription glasses that I just got and that also don’t look bad, blackberry tinted chapstick and gloss on my lips, in the car, on a sunny day. I’m grocery shopping with my parents and tomorrow I’m picking up my second older sister from her university for her summer break. No one’s arguing, I can still wait 1 or 2 more days to wash my hair again, I’m drinking an extra large Diet Coke from 7-11, I had a productive therapy appointment a few hours ago. My oldest sister stopped by in the afternoon to drop off some cookies so I could give them to my second older sister tomorrow. My makeup has been on point the past few days and I’ve been creatively inspired all things considered. And my Pinterest feed is amazing rn! All the annoying parts of the week have been worth it because the positive parts impact me just as deeply.

Every single day, I think, “when I grow my hair long, will I go blonde, dye my hair a dark cherry red or dye it black?” And every few days, the answer is different.

Did a full face of makeup for school just to then get a migraine and bedrot with all the lights off. I hate ts

My makeup inspo for today is Snow White if she was a slightly angsty teenager in 2015 who also liked vampire romance.

I've been currently realizing that my ideal aesthetic is actually to be "basic", but also just a little weird, you know? Like Hailey Bieber, Karen Smith, Bella Swan and Lana Del Rey all mixed together in a way.

Hailey Bieber is one of my biggest inspirations atm.

No, the journal factory didn’t explode. I just have enough things to say to use multiple journals, have a therapist, multiple girlblogging accounts, rant endlessly to anyone who lets me, talk to myself when I’m alone, daydream about what I want to say and keep a steady supply of more stuff to say.

I Have A Dream by ABBA.

I’d rather be misunderstood, leave you and be at peace than explain myself.

Summertime. Pastel colors. Watching YouTube videos all night. Taco Bell. Getting a job. Shopping. Floral scents. Beach trips. The pool. Lust For Life + Violet Bent Backwards Over The Grass by Lana Del Rey. Meditating. Journaling. Starting my novel.