He wasnât supposed to matter
a/n: I promised I didn't forget about this series! I've been really busy and especially with the holidays coming up. I'm going insane...might be a little rushed soo excuse the mistake.
Sypnosis: After watching your brother, Rick Flag, die at the hands of the man you just started to trustâPeacemakerâyour world shatters, but later youâre offered a chance for revenge, you take it without hesitation. But then someone unexpected walks into your life and your vengeance started to blur into something dangerously close to feeling again.
Parings: Adrian chase x grumpy!reader
warnings/Tags: 18+ Slow burn, somewhat enemies to lovers, mutual pining, no use of (y/n), reader is an asshole, stalking, drinking, reader and Adrian basically fight.
Word count: 15,556
chapters: pt.i | pt.ii | pt.iii | pt.iv | pt.v | pt.vi | pt.vii | pt.viii | pt.ix | pt.x | pt. xi | pt.xii | pt.xiii |
(divider credits:@strangergraphics)
It was such a weird feeling, confusing, and completely out of place. That night, after you dropped Adrian off, you couldnât stop thinking about him. Which was insane, because just yesterday, you couldnât stand him. Now your mind wouldnât shut up about him.Â
Apparently, you werenât the only one losing it. Adrian spent the whole night replaying everything too. God, he was going crazy. He shouldnât be feeling like that. You were rude, yet somehow still⌠confusing. Chaotic in a way he weirdly liked. It made his brain spark in all the wrongâor maybe the rightâways.
He wasnât used to caring about being liked. He pretended it didnât matter, acted like he was fine being the odd one out. But deep down, he wanted it. Especially from you.
He kept replaying the entire car ride in his mind. The way you looked so serious as you drove. The slight furrow of your brows as you focused on the road. The way your lashes fluttered when you blinked, soft and unguarded. He remembered every detail like his brain refused to let him forget a single second.
While he was replaying the whole thing, you were in your bed, tossing and twisting like you were trying to out-maneuver your own thoughts. Fighting off those sudden, stupid feelings for him. You hated it. You hated him for making you feel something you never asked for.
Youâd spent so long convincing yourself you didnât need anyoneâdidnât want anyone. The idea of being with someone made your skin crawl and getting attached wasn't part of the plan.
But Adrian wasnât even that bad. He was just weird. Strange in a way that didnât quite fit anywhereâbut somehow that was the one thing you liked about him.
And you didnât trust him. Not yet. He was friends with Peacemakerâyour enemy at the momentâand that alone was enough to keep every instinct in you on guard. So no matter how curious he made you, or how close he kept accidentally getting, you werenât about to let Adrian slip anywhere near your guard. For now.
That didnât exactly mean you couldnât dig up his life in the system. If anything, it made the idea feel⌠necessary. You needed to know everything about himâevery detail, every quiet corner of his life he probably assumed no one ever noticed.
But not because you cared. You refused to care. You told yourself it was just curiosity. A simple study of who Adrian was. Youâd knit together the version of him you needed to understandâwithout ever actually knowing him.
Eventually, you gave in your thought of stalking adrians life. So early that morning, you found yourself heading to the video store. The bell over the door gave a faint jingle as you slipped inside. Your bag hung heavy on your shoulder, packed with your work things. The door clicked shut behind you, sealing you in with the quiet.
The room was dark, empty except for the pale wash of streetlight spilling through the windows and stretching long shadows across the floor.
You moved carefully, your boots tapping softly against the tile â the sound sharp in the stillness. You made your way toward the front desk, trying to stay calm, focusedâ
âWhat are you doing here?â
The deep voice cut through the dark like a knife. You jumped, heart lurching in your chest. Before you could even react, harsh fluorescent light flooded the room. You flinched, throwing up a hand to shield your eyes. Blinking against the glare, you squinted toward the source.
Economos stood near the light switch, one hand holding a Ziploc bag of Goldfish, while the other still held onto the light switch on the wall. He stared at you with a mix of confusion and suspicion, crumbs dusting his beard.
You let out a sight of annoyance. You rolled your eyes. The place was supposed to be empty â that was the whole point of coming early. âWhy are you here?â you asked, dropping your bag on the desk with a dull thud.
Economos wandered over, crunching on another handful of Goldfish, then plopped down at the desk across from yours.
âUh, Iâm always here,â he said flatly, gesturing around the room like it was the most obvious fact in the world. You stared at him with a hard, unamused look, not in the mood for whatever nonsense he thought he was being funny about.
He cleared his throat and straightened up. âI needed to edit a few things on the PowerPoint for the meeting later,â he added, adjusting the bridge of his glasses with a quick, habitual touch.
âAt five in the morning?â you muttered, irritation bleeding through every word. Your gaze dropped to your bag as you pulled out your laptop. Honestly, you couldâve done this from homeâbut the encrypted network Economos had set up here was much safer. If you were going to dig into restricted government files, you werenât taking chances.
He kept watching you as he chewed, one eyebrow inching up in suspicion. âUh, yeah. Murn likes to get here fucking early. I need this done now,â he said, crumbs clinging to his beard.
You watched a couple of crumbs drop into it, blinked hard, then finally sat down. âHow early?â you asked.
Economos thought for a second, eyes drifting upward. âSix⌠ish,â he said with a shrug.
You hummed as you opened your laptop. You had exactly one hour to dig into your little âresearch.â Economos watched you as you started typing rapidly, his eyes narrowing like he was trying to figure out what crime you were about to commit.
You were logging into the system. Honestly, this was the best part of working for ARGUSâyou had access to almost everything. Almost. But with your dad being higher up, you had access to even more than you shouldâve.
âOkay,â he said eventually, voice slow and lazy. âwhy are you here? Itâs five in the morning. Youâre not exactly a morning person.â
You didnât answer right away â because there was no way you were going to say, âIâm here to get into the government site and dig up Adrianâs entire life.â Instead you dropped your voice into something flatter, more boring. âWork. Just like you.â
Economos stared at you for a long second. He chewed slowly, eyes narrowing like he was trying to line up a glitch in the Matrix. âAt five a.m.?â he finally asked, disbelief dripping off every syllable.
You didnât bother answering. Mostly because you didnât have one. And partly because you knew he was rightâthere was absolutely no universe where youâd be voluntarily doing work at this ungodly hour.
But here you were anyway, pretending you werenât scanning through Adrianâs file. âYou sure youâre feeling okay?â he asked. âBecause the you I know doesnât⌠function until at least Ten.â
You kept your expression neutral, eyes locked on the screenâanything to avoid the possibility of him seeing the real reason you were awake. No, not because you cared about Adrian. You didnât. Obviously.
You took a slow, heavy breath before finally looking up at him. âShut up,â you said flatly. Economos froze mid-chew, a Goldfish cracker half-crushed between his fingers.
âI need to focus, okay?â you continued, your tone clipped, eyes narrowing. âSo shut up and work on your fucking Power Point.â He blinked at you, mouth still full, then held up both hands in surrender. âAlright, jeez.â He wisely turned back to his computer, the only sound left in the room the faint crunch of crackers and the rapid clacking of your keys.
Finally, the room fell silent. Economos was buried in his Power Point slides and you were lost in your own missionâtyping Adrianâs name into every secured database you could access.
There he was. His file opened like a neatly wrapped secret waiting to be torn apart. You started small: his birth certificate, the hospital he was born in, the date. You leaned closer to the screen, humming under your breath. Two years older than you. Born and raised in Washington. Never moved or anything. How boring.
You kept scrolling. School records. You clicked on his graduation photo and your brows shot up. A laugh slipped out before you could stop it. God, he was a nerd. He still looked like one but better than before.
Economos watched as you laughed to yourself, squinting at your screen like you were trying to zoom in with your eyeballs. He shouldâve been focusing on his Power Point, but how could he? You were acting suspicious as hell, and curiosity had him by the throat.
You looked at his employment history, arrest reports, medical dataâyou opened tab after tab, collecting pieces of him like puzzle fragments you had no business touching.
Adrianâs life was⌠honestly kind of boring. Clean recordâwell, except for the arrest from yesterday. He didnât have much going on in his life besides that his little vigilante secret.
âWhat are you doing?â Economos asked suddenly, his voice cutting through your focus. You froze, fingers pausing mid-keystroke before slowly looking up. He was already staring at you, eyebrows raised, suspicion written all over his face. âWhat?â you snapped, a little too sharp.
He squinted, chewing on another Goldfish like it was part of his interrogation process. âWell, you keep humming every few seconds,â he said. âAnd honestly. Iâm starting to think youâre doing something bad."
âWhat? Economos, focus on your shit. I have work to do.â You turned back to the screen, pointedly ignoring him. You clicked somethingâanythingâjust to look occupied. The glow of the screen lit your eyes, and the faint hum of the early-morning office buzzed around you.
Economos didnât buy it. You could practically feel his stare punching into your skullâlike a suspicious dad watching his kid insist they werenât the one who shattered the living room lamp.
And he knew he shouldnât do it. He really did. Heâd done it once years ago, and the one time he did, he ended up being right. And now? Economos was absolutely about to hack into your laptop to see what you were up to.
He straightened suddenly, shifting forward in his chair and typing with new purpose. You glanced over just enough to see him laser-focused on his screen. Finally, he was minding his own businessâleaving you free to continue stalking Adrianâs life without an audience.
You kept digging through Adrianâs files, nosing around more than you probably shouldâveâhell, you even poked into his family. Turns out he did have an older brother. The same one Peacemaker used to talk about back in Corto Maltese. You remembered peacemaker griping about how the guy had turned into a total goody two-shoes, getting his life together or whatever.
The timeline matched up: heâd moved out of Washington a few years back, went off to collegeâsomething Adrian never bothered with. On paper, his life looked⌠stable. Predictable. Honestly? Kind of miserable and boring.
You clicked on his picture and raised a brow. He looked like Adrian, sure⌠if Adrian were a complete dick. Which he wasnât. Honestly, you could totally see why that guy was friends with Peacemaker.
Economos let out a small, dramatic gasp. Your eyes snapped up at him, but he kept his gaze glued to his laptop screen like nothing had happened. You blinked, irritated, and turned back to your own screen. âStalking Adrian Chaseâs life is work to you?â he blurted.
Your fingers froze over the keyboard. The hum of the fluorescent lights suddenly felt too loud. Your stomach dropped, a cold weight settling there as you slowly looked up at him. His expression was half-guilty, half-incredulous, like he already regretted opening his mouth but couldnât un-say it.
You stared at him for a long, tense moment, the words catching in your throat before you finally managed to speak. âPlease tell me you didnât hack into my computer just to snoop through my shit, John.â Your jaw was clenched so tight your teeth practically buzzed with anger.
âSorry!â he burst out immediately. âYou were acting so weird, I had to! Iâm still traumatized from Vegas when you hacked into mineâby the way, I will never trust you again for that.â He pointed at you like the accusation still physically hurt him. âNever.â
âFor fuckâs sake, you moron! That was three years agoâand, by the way, I never told anyone what I saw!â you snapped. Economos shook his head immediately. âNo. No, I know you told Harcourt.â
âI didnât,â you shot back. â I might be a bitch, but Iâm not that much of a bitch that Iâd go spreading your business around.â You say as threw your hands up, exasperated.
âFine, whatever,â he muttered, waving off the argument like it exhausted him. âWhy are you looking through Adrianâs file?â he asked, switching subjects so abruptly it was almost whiplash.
Your body stiffened as you sat up straighter. âUm⌠I donât trust him,â you lied. Economos raised a skeptical brow. âYou donât trust him?â he repeated.
âYeah,â you shrugged. âHeâs weird, and heâs friends with Peacemaker. For all we know, he could be a rat or something.â Economos nodded slowly at your words, clearly unconvincedâbut he didnât press it, because he knew not too.
âI mean, he showed up out of nowhere during the apartment accident. Then he showed up at the Goffsâ⌠connect the dots, Economos! Heâs a rat!â you loudly said.
âYeah, sure. Heâs a rat,â Economos said flatly. âThe guy who purposefully got himself thrown in jail to kill Peacemakerâs dad is a rat?â You opened your mouth, ready to fire back, but nothing came out. Mostly becauseâyeah, okayâthat was a good point. Didnât mean you were gonna admit it.
You lifted your chin instead, doubling down. âPeople do weird stuff when theyâre guilty,â you muttered.
âRight,â he said, nodding way too enthusiastically. You glared at him, cheeks warming. âShut up. This stays between us, okay? I canât have the team thinking heâs a rat⌠not until I know for sure,â you said, keeping your voice steady, feeding the lie like it was truth.
Economos hummed absentmindedly, already half on his phone, his eyes flicking up only once in a while. âGreat. Itâs 6:10,â he muttered, frowning. âAnd I didnât even get to finish my PowerPoint.â
âYou wouldâve if you minded your business!â you snapped, louder than you meant to. He blinked, taken aback, then went right back to scrolling.
You turned back to your screen, pulse tapping a little too fast. Time had slipped through your fingersâfast enough that it felt like you hadnât dug up nearly enough on Adrian. Sure, you had information. Plenty, actually. More than you needed. But it wasnât enough.
You wanted more and you hated that.
âA year ago, Alan Kupperbergâthe billionaire CEO of Waresoftâand pop singer Vandalia died in a plane crash. During their autopsies, a small insect-like, winged creatureâpresumably extraterrestrialâwas found inside their skulls. Thatâs when we first became aware of the Butterflies,â Murn said.
By now, everyone had finally arrived into the old video store. The meeting was supposed to start a while ago, but Peacemaker wasâshockinglyânot on time. Again. He showed up eventually, bursting through the door like he was arriving at a party no one invited him to, helmet under his arm, hair a mess, slightly out of breath for no reason he would ever explain.
Now all of you sat in front of the small screen. Murn talked, steady and calm as always, while Economos clicked through the PowerPoint heâd been stressing over earlier.
Peacemaker sat surprisingly straight for onceâback stiff, hands on his knees, like he was pretending to be the picture of professionalism. Harcourt, on the other hand, was slouched just enough to betray how done she already was with the day. Adebayo was scribbling notes like she was actually still in class and this was all going to be on a test.
You tried to settle in but the second Adrian walked in he made a straight, painfully obvious beeline for the empty seat across from you. He sat down like it was the most natural thing in the worldâlike that spot had been waiting for him.
The distance shouldâve made it easier. It didnât.
Every so often heâd glance over at you, like he was checking if you were still there, and that tiny, lopsided smile would tug at his mouth. Not big enough to call attention to, just soft enough to feel intentionalâlike a quiet little âhiâ he didnât dare say out loud.
You wouldnât exactly smile backâyou werenât there yetâbut youâd give him the tiniest nod. Barely anything. A flick of acknowledgement. But for him? Oh, that was plenty. Heâd look away with this stupid, quiet grin like heâd just unlocked a secret achievement.
Youâd roll your eyes, all irritated on the outside⌠but even you knew you didnât actually hate it. Not even a little. In fact, you kinda liked the way he lit up over something so small.
Economos sighted beside you, as he clicked to the next slide, and a collage of celebrities filled the screenâactors, politicians, CEOs, all the pretty faces the world cared about way too much.
âSince then, weâve found the creature in a handful of high-profile politicians, celebrities, and titans of industry,â he said, sounding way too casual for a guy talking about alien brain invaders.
Youâd expected his PowerPoint to be⌠well, better. Cleaner. Less middle-school-science-fair. But it was complete garbage. Pixelated photos, mismatched fonts And apparently you werenât the only one silently judgingâPeacemaker shook his head at the screen like even he couldnât believe how bad it was.
Economos kept going. âThey enter the human body through one of its orifices and burrow through the brain⌠where they then take full control of the host.â
Right on cue, the slide switched to a horrifying little animation of exactly that process. The timing was so perfect it almost felt intentional. âThey go through the butt?â Peacemaker asked, horrified, as the butterfly insect entered an animated persons ass.
âI think thatâs just some, uh⌠creativity on the part of whoever did the animation,â Murn said, giving Economos a pointed look. Everyone followed his gaze. Economos sighed, shoulders slumping. âThe butt is an orifice, okay?â
âThat means theyâd have to crawl through poop,â Adrian chimed in suddenly, sounding genuinely offended. âJust because theyâre aliens doesnât make them gross. Bigotry.â
You stared at him, eyebrows lifted, then slowly turned your attention back to Economos. âI was gonna fix it, okay?â Economos snapped. âUntil someone distracted me with their weird shit on their computer.â He shot you a glare.
You narrowed your eyes at him, a slow, warning squint. Economos looked like he wanted to repeat what youâd said earlierâhe wanted to so badlyâbut the look you were giving him made him rethink every life decision that led him to this moment.
Everyone caught it. The weird tension between you two practically hummed in the room. âWait, whatâd she have?â Peacemaker asked, leaning forward like this was suddenly the most interesting thing in the briefing.
Economos opened his mouth. âDonât even think about it,â you cut in sharply. âIâll tell them about Vegas.â
That shut him right up. His lips clamped together so tight he practically swallowed his own comeback. Your threat had the opposite effect you intendedânow everyone looked curious. Even Peacemaker perked up like a dog whoâd heard the word treat.
But you knew youâd never actually tell Economosâs secret. You wouldnât want to traumatize anyone else the way you had been traumatized.
âOkayâŚâ Murn said, dragging the briefing back on track. âThe Butterfliesâ unique genetic structure and chemistry interact with their hostsâ bodies, giving them strength far beyond that of a human being.â
Everyone reluctantly pulled their eyes off you and Economos and focused on the screen again. Economos clicked to the next slide. A human figure stood next to a chimpanzee. Nothing else.
âAnd whatâs the chimp for?â Adebayo asked, eyebrows up.
âChimpanzees have four times the strength of a human being, so theyâre both strong,â Economos explained, as if that cleared anything up.
âYeah, weâre supposed to get that just by looking at this, Dye-Beard,â Peacemaker muttered. Economosâs jaw tightened.
âI thought the man and the chimp were friends,â Adrian said suddenly, voice completely sincere. âI thought they were about to go on an adventure together.â
Everyone turned to look at him. Every. Single. Person. You stared too, wonderingâyet againâif he was sometimes stupid on purpose⌠or if this was just Adrian being Adrian.
âThis viscous amber fluid has been found at the sites of all the dead butterflies,â Murn said, voice steady, though the words themselves made the room heavier. âLab studies show the fluidâs genetic structure doesnât match anything on the planet. AndâŚit seems to be the butterfliesâ only food source. Which makes what Leota discovered last night potentially significant.â
Economos clicked to the next slide. âThis was on the bulletin board at the Goffsâ home,â Murn explained, pointing to a Glan Tai card.
âLeota noticed that this is also where Annie Sturphausen worked,â Murn added, and Economos switched to the next slide, leaving the room silent for a moment, everyone staring at the growing web of connections.
The next slide flashed up, but instead of a normal layout, the screen erupted with a chaotic wave of animated explosions before fading into a clear image of Annieâs work badge.
Peacemaker burst out laughing, slapping the table. âYou fucking suck at PowerPoints, Dye-beard!â
âYeah, well, you can do it next time. Itâs not like I enjoy making this,â Economos shot back, voice defensive. âYeah, you do! Itâs amazing,â Peacemaker said, still chuckling.
"The incredible amount of time you put into this presentation... and how incredibly shitty it still is." His jab carried more than just mockeryâhe was still pissed about Economos putting his dad in jail, and maybe that why he was going at him.
Adrian chuckled along with Peacemaker, and you looked over at him. But the smile vanished the second his eyes met yours. He straightened in his chair, expression dead serious.
âOkay, Peacemaker. Enough,â Murn said, sounding annoyed, trying to pull the team back from the chaos.
âI didnât mean to put your father in prison,â Economos muttered, avoiding Peacemakerâs gaze. âThen whyâd you do it, you fat fuck?â Peacemaker snapped, slamming his fist onto the table.
âBecause⌠I couldnât think of anyone elseââ Economos started, but Peacemaker cut him off, shaking his head. âWhat about Ariana Grande? Or Drake?â he asked. âWhat?â Economos snapped, already fed up.
Peacemaker didnât stop. If anything, he kept going. âBrad Pitt! Or Payne Stewart! Or Doug the Pug? KhloĂŠ Kardashian! The Red Tiger from Voltron! Fran Tarkenton! Joe Montana! Joe Mantegnaââ
You all sat there, trapped, listening to his never-ending list of random celebrity names. Every now and then one of you would meet someone elseâs eyes, and questioning the whole thing.
âAlright, next time I have to fucking frame somebody, itâll be one of those thousands of people you just mentioned!â Economos snapped back. âYeah, tell that to my dad,â Peacemaker loudly said.
âPeacemaker, shut the fuck up!â Murn finally exploded, voice echoing off the concrete walls. âDo you all wanna be here till tomorrow?â The room went dead silent. Every single one of you stared at Murn like schoolkids caught passing notes.
Nobody answered. Not until Adrianâof all peopleâslowly raised his hand next to you, elbow brushing yours. âDo you have cable?â he asked, completely sincere.
Murn stared at him, stone-faced. âSo, I donât wanna stay here overnight if thereâs no cable,â Adrian continued, unbothered. âFargoâs on tonight.â
âIt was a rhetorical question,â Murn said through clenched teeth.
âOh, got it.â Adrian nodded, then smiled, wide and hopelessly earnest. âIn that case, I change my answer to just ignoring the question. Not another word.â He zipped his mouth shut with two fingers and pressed them together like it was some solemn vow.
âThe point is⌠the raw amber fluid is potentially being processed and bottled at Glan Tai Bottling Company,â Murn said, pacing like his brain was five steps ahead of all of you. âGlan Tai is in Little Cork about two hours north from here. So youâre all gonna take a field trip and see what you find out. â
He didnât even pause to make sure anyone was on the same page. âIâm staying back to deal with the White Dragon situation.â
Nobody argued with thatânot out loud, anyway. The room went quiet for a beat, the kind of silence where everyoneâs pretending theyâre totally fine.
But the mission wasnât going to prep itself.
So, one by one, you all started moving. You slipped away to the back room, the one where all the weapons were stored. You scanned the room automaticallyârows of rifles lined up on the long tables, heavier hardware mounted on the walls, a few knives left in places they definitely werenât supposed to be. Typical.
With a tired yawn, you headed toward the table with the smaller handguns laid out. They sat in neat rows on a worn mat, each one cleaned, tagged, and ready. You reached for a pistol and lifted it closer, turning it in your hand to get a better look.
It was one of the basic models the team always carried. Not your favoriteâkind of boring, honestlyâbut solid. Light. Reliable. The kind of gun that didnât surprise you, which made it useful on days like this.
A soft creak from the floorboards snapped your attention toward the door. You looked back, catching sight of Adrian hovering there like he wasnât sure if he should come in or back away slowly.
âWhat, Adrian?â you muttered, eyes already dropping back to the pistol. You tried to make it sound annoyed, irritated, dismissiveâbut it rang hollow even to your own ears. You werenât mad. You were just trying way too hard to convince yourself you hated him.
âYou know⌠youâre really confusing,â he said. You didnât bother looking at him. The metal felt cool under your fingertips, easier to focus on than whatever he was about to unload.
âOne day youâre nice, and then the next?â He let out a small breath. âItâs like your whole mood changes.â His voice wasnât accusingâjust puzzled, like he was standing in front of a puzzle he genuinely wanted to solve. And unfortunately for you, you were the puzzle.
âYeah?â you said flatly. âWild how moods work.â There was a beatâsmall, awkward, and loud with things neither of you wanted to say. He tried again, a little softer. âIâm just saying⌠itâs hard to know where I stand with you.â
That was the exact sentence you didnât need. Your stomach tightened; your pulse jumped the way you hated. So you did the only thing you trusted yourself to doâpush him away.
âAdrian,â you said, finally turning toward him, âyou donât stand anywhere with me.â He blinked, caught off guard. Good. You needed him off-balance. Far away. On another planet, preferably.
âIâm not your friend,â you added, sharper than you meant to. âIâm not yourâwhatever you think I am. And I donât owe you consistency.â
He stared at you, the confusion in his face flickering into something that looked almost hurt. You tried not to care. You tried really, really hard. But your chest still tightened like an idiot.
âI apologized last night, but that didnât suddenly mean we could be friends.â You kept your tone flat, clinical, like you were diagnosing him with stupidity. âSo donât read into anything I say or do,â you finished. âEver.â
He swallowed, looking at the floor for a second. âRight,â he murmured. âGot it.â
You expected him to walk away. You wanted him to walk away. Instead, he just stood there for a moment, not moving, not speakingâlike he was waiting for you to take it back. You didnât.
You just reached for another gun, jaw set, pretending your heart wasnât slamming against your ribs like it was trying to break out. Because you refused to let him get under your skin. Even though he already had.
You kept your gaze lowered, scanning over the handguns like you were judging them in a lineup. Adrian still lingered beside you, clearly watching you think. âIâd choose this one,â he finally said, pointing toward a revolver like he was doing you some great favor.
Your eyes slid to him. You stared a beat too long, wondering why he was still hereâwhy he kept orbiting you like this. Not that you were gonna complain. You always had a weakness for guys who didnât give up easily.
âA revolver?â you echoed, brow lifting. âWhatâs so good about a revolver?â You looked away again, sifting through the other options with deliberate disinterest.
âWell, itâs light, and itâs easy to useâbut me personally?â He shrugged, a little too proudly. âIâd go for that machine gun.â You followed the direction of his gaze to the hulking weapon mounted on the wall in front of you two. Of course.
âYeah, because I totally wanna carry around a big fucking gun,â you shot back, turning to face him fully.
Adrianâs eyes widened theatrically. âI meanâisnât that the point of your job?â he blurted. âYou kill people! I meanâbad people, obviously!â He gave you a hopeful smile, the kind that always made you want to smack him.
You stared at him, a frown tugging at your brows. âI donât kill people for the fun of it, Adrian,â you said, voice flat. âAnd even if I did, a big fucking gun like that would just get in my way.â
âOh. I just⌠wouldâve expected you to like your job,â Adrian said carefully. âI mean, the way you killed the Goffs back thereâyou didnât even think twice about it.â
âYeah, because itâs my job,â you replied, unfazed. âAnd they were aliens, Adrian. Not actual people.â Your tone was clipped, but steady. You reached for the revolver anyway, thumbing it open with practiced ease. Adrian watched every movementâtoo closely, like he was trying to figure you out again.
The cylinder was full. You snapped it shut with a clean, metallic click and slid it inside the inner pocket of your coat.
âHeyâalso, uh⌠thanks for driving me home last night,â he said suddenly, his voice softer as he changed the subject. âSure,â you answered, already shifting your attention to the knife resting beside the guns. You ran your finger down the spine of the blade.
âExcept for the part where I had to Uber myself back to the police station because my car was still there,â he added. That made you look up. Hard.
âWhat?â Your eyes narrowed at him. âI thought Murn had moved it for you.â Adrian shook his head, lips pressing together. Your chest tightened. âOh. I had no idea. I wouldâve picked you up myself if youâd called.â
He let that linger in the air, just a second too long. âRight,â he said quietly. âI wouldâve⌠but then I remembered I donât have your number.â
The room seemed to shrink around those wordsânot dramatic, just tight, like something unsaid decided to sit between you on the weapons table. And Adrian held your gaze this timeâsteady, nervous, but definitely intentionalâwaiting to see what youâd do with that information.
You stared back at him, eyebrows slightly raised. Really? After youâd just snapped at himâthatâs when he decides to get bold? Your face twisted into this confused, borderline offended look, like you were trying to figure out if he was joking.
But under all that⌠yeah. Your heartbeat definitely ticked a little faster than youâd ever admit. Because if he was hinting he wanted your number? He was really smooth with it.
Your lips parted, the beginning of a response catching your breathâsomething you werenât even sure youâd planned to say.
âHey! We gotta go!â Harcourtâs voice sliced through the room from the doorway.
You both jerked your heads toward her. Of course. Of course she walked in right when Adrian was dangerously close to maybe, possibly, actually getting your number. Her timing was just perfect.
âRight,â you blurted, a little faster than necessary. You reached out and grabbed the nearest gunâdidnât even check what it was. Anything to break the moment before your face gave too much away.
Out of the corner of your eye, you saw Adrianâs shoulders drop just an inch. Not disappointed exactly⌠more like heâd been mid-step toward something and someone yanked the floor out from under him.
But when you turned to walk out, you felt his eyes still lingering on youâalmost like the conversation wasnât over. Not even close.
The car ride was pure torture. Not just for you, but for Economos, Adebayo, and Harcourt too. Peacemaker had his shitty rock playlist blasting like he was trying to summon a demon through volume alone.
You hated rock. Hated it with the kind of passion usually reserved for paper cuts and people who chew with their mouths open. It made your brain itch and your teeth grindâhonestly, if it were socially acceptable, you wouldâve stabbed your own ears just to make it stop.
And of course Adrian liked it. Of course he did. He kept hyping peacemaker up, telling him to âturn it higher, man, this is the good part!â like he wasnât actively contributing to your slow, violent death.
By the time the van finally screeched to a stop outside Glan Tai, you nearly fell out. Thank. God. You were the first to step down, inhaling deeply and letting the breeze wash over you.
âOkay, hereâs your earpiece!â Adebayo called, tossing it toward you. You caught it with one hand, clicked it in, and patted yourself down to make sure all your weapons were in place.
âHey! Weâre not even sure there are butterflies in there,â Harcourt shouted from behind Peacemaker, who was already hefting a large gunâthe one Adrian had been eyeing earlier.
âSo? Better to be prepared,â Peacemaker said, stepping off the back of the truck. Harcourt followed closely, while Economos and Adebayo stayed behind, keeping an eye on the security cameras and comms.
Thenâa loud, roaring chainsaw cut through, making everyone jump. All heads turned toward the truck. Adrian stood there, holding the chainsaw like it was the most natural thing in the world.
âNo!â Harcourt yelled, her voice barely audible over the engineâs roar.
Adrian just laughed âWhat?â he called back, tilting his head. âYouâre not taking that in there!â Harcourt shouted again.
âI canât hear you! This thingâs too fucking loud!â Adrian bellowed, revving the chainsaw one more time. The roar finally stopped when he flicked the switch off. Harcourt crossed her arms, glaring. âI saidâyouâre not bringing that.â
âHey, I agree with Peacemaker. Canât go in there unprepared,â he said with a shrug. Harcourt shot him a pointed look. âWe donât even know if there are butterflies in there!â
âOh, come on, please?â he whined, voice exaggerated. âAh, fuck⌠Iâm never, ever gonna kill someone with a chainsaw. Itâs not fair.â
He finally set the chainsaw down, hopping out of the truck with a dramatic huff before slamming the door shut behind him, leaving everyone staring at him like heâd just lost his mind.
âOkay, Peacemaker, youâre with me. Vigilante, youâre with Flag,â Harcourt said, eyes scanning the group like she was corralling feral cats.
You let out a long, quiet sighânot because you were stuck with Adrian, but because you needed a way to get Peacemaker alone. Which, of course, seemed impossible; the man always had someone glued to his side.
âYou two, check the bays around the back,â Harcourt added, fixing you both with a sharp glance. You rolled your eyes and flicked a glance at Adrianâonly to find he was already watching you. No words needed. The two of you just peeled away from the group in perfect sync and headed for the back of the building.
Neither of you bothered to talk. Your footsteps did all the speaking, quiet and quick on the concrete as you took the lead. Adrian kept close behind, practically glued to your shoulder, watching your blind spots while you scanned ahead.
The back entrance creaked open, and you slipped inside. The place was a mazeâstacks of cardboard boxes towering everywhere. You both moved deeper in, guns raised, breaths held without meaning to.
Without a word, you holstered your gun and stepped up to the nearest stack of boxes. Your fingers dug into your coat pocket until you found the familiar weight of your knife. A quick flickâshhkâand you sliced through the tape like youâd done it a thousand times.
Adrian hovered behind you, eyes sweeping the area. He didnât even glance at what you were doingâhe trusted you to handle the box, and you trusted him to keep a look out.
You pried the flaps open and reached inside, pulling out a glass jar filled with a thick, weirdly glossy jelly. You lifted the jar, gave Adrian a look, then tapped your earpiece. âUh, the shit that they eat.... thereâs literally thousands of boxes of it in here.â
âCopy,â Harcourtâs voice crackled back, clipped and calm.
You straightened, sliding the jar back into the box just as you felt a light tap on your shoulder. Adrian. You turned to him, and he didnât even speakâjust pointed ahead.
You followed his line of sight. Three men. Moving fast. And before you could process anything else, one of them launched himself from the lower level up to the second floor in a single, unnatural jump.
You and Adrian exchanged a quick look before turning your attention back to the figures above. âIs it weird that Iâm excited?â he whispered, practically buzzing.
You shot him a side-eye as you started moving forward, keeping low. âYes,â you muttered.nHe trailed right behind you, still whispering like he couldnât help himself. âI mean. I seriously donât get how you donât love this job. Itâs exciting.â You didnât even have to see him to know he was grinning.
You took a steadying breath and kept moving, leading the way through one of those heavy plastic freezer curtains. The strips slapped softly against you as you pushed through, and a wave of cold air wrapped around your face.
On the other side, the room opened into a production area. You and Adrian dropped into a crouch at the same time, as you both peeked into the area where the workerâif they were even workersâput the jar under a machine that poured into each jar.
Everything was going fine. Until one of them looked over And looked right at you. His eyes locked onto yours. Your breath hitched, a tiny gasp slipping out before you could stop it.
Then his mouth stretched open impossibly wide and he released a piercing, inhuman screech that rattled through the entire room. âShitââ you hissed, already scrambling to your feet.
You and Adrian shot up at the same time and sprinted toward the nearest door. You were halfway there when the sharp crack of shattering glass exploded behind you. You risked a glance over your shoulder.
Every single worker had dropped what they were doing and was now sprinting straight at you, jars smashing around their feet, goo splattering everywhere. And they were fast.
You reached the metal gate first, yanking it open just enough for both of you to squeeze through. Adrian slammed it shut behind you and snapped the lock into place. No time to breatheâyou both raised your guns in sync and opened fire through the bars.
Bullets tore into the charging workers, but the gate wasnât slowing them down. One of them scrambled up the metal like a spider, fingers hooking through the grate. Another grabbed the bars and started ripping at them, metal screeching as it bent under his strength.
âCâmon!â you shouted, already backing away.
Adrian flicked a glance at the thing peeling the gate apart and didnât argueâhe bolted after you. Truth was, you had no idea where the hell you were going. You just aimed for the nearest room that looked even remotely empty.
You shoved the door open, both of you darted inside, and you slammed it shut so hard the frame rattled. Adrian twisted the lock, and you barely had a second of silence before the pounding startedâfists, bodies, something heavier slamming into the other side.
You both backed up, but your focus stayed on the door. It wasnât going to hold. Not for long. Every thud and crash made your chest tighten.
Adrian, meanwhile, got distracted, eyes darting over the strange machinery lining the walls like a kid in a candy store. You shot him a sharp look.
âHey⌠donât leave me,â you muttered under your breath, tension threading through your voice. He didnât hear you, too absorbed in the blinking lights and weird panels, completely oblivious to the door slowly groaning under the pounding outside.
âThis placeâthereâs a factory behind the warehouse,â you said into your earpiece, trying to keep your voice steady despite the chaos outside. âSome butterflies trapped us in what looks like⌠a computer room.â
âCopy. Weâre on our way,â Harcourt replied crisply over the line.
You let your gaze sweep the room again, taking note of every odd panel, every blinking light, every wire that could hide a tripwire or worse. Adrian wandered closer to the equipment. âHey, look,â he said, eyes wide with fascination.
You glanced over at him. He was staring down at a computer that didnât look like any normal machine. The screen pulsed with strange colors, giving off⌠alien vibes. Definitely not standard tech.
You stepped closer, watching as he poked at the keyboard. Nothing happened. The screen stayed the same. âHey, guess what Iâm typing,â he said with a grin, fingers flying across the keys. You looked down at his hands, unimpressed. âI donât know,â you muttered, tone flat.
He straightened up and turned to face you, and you tilted your head like âŚwhat? before a deep, guttural growl rolled through the room. It wasnât human. It wasnât even close.
Your confusion lasted exactly half a second before you looked past Adrianâs shoulderâthen your stomach just dropped. Adrian saw your expression shift and twisted around. âWhoa,â he breathed. âYou gotta be shitting me. Thereâs a fucking goriââ You didn't even get to finish.
The gorillaâeasily eight feet of pissed-off muscleâlunged forward and swung a massive arm like it was swatting flies. It connected squarely with Adrianâs side, and his entire body rocketed backward⌠directly into you.
You didnât even have time to yelp. Both of you were launched across the room, slamming into the wall cluttered with strange, humming tech. Your back hit first, a jolt of pain exploding through your spineâthen Adrian crashed right into you, knocking the air out of your lungs as the equipment behind you rattled violently.
For a second, everything just blacked out in a burst of white pain. You barely registered hitting the floor before something warm and heavy moved beside youâAdrian. He dragged himself across the ground and grabbed you by the waist, pulling you in tight against him just as the first wave of shattered equipment rained down.
Metal panels, loose wires, and some weird glowing cube that definitely wasnât meant to be unplugged came crashing from above. Adrian curled around you, one arm braced over your head, his body taking most of the impact as debris smacked against his shoulders and back.
Instinct kicked in; you lifted your hands anyway, even though he already had you pinned safely beneath him. Another chunk of tech slammed into the floor inches from your face, sparks hissing across the ground. You felt Adrian flinch, but he didnât move awayâif anything, he held you closer, breath rough against your ear.
âWhat the fuckâ!â you sputtered, adrenaline spiking so fast it made your vision swim. You slapped a hand to your earpiece. âGuys, there is a fucking gorilla in here!â
Your voice cracked halfway through the word, because yeahâfair reaction. The floor vibrated again, like the creature was gearing up for another hit. The comm in your ear buzzed with confused shouting, but you barely heard any of it over the thunder of footsteps in front of you.
Adrian groaned beside you, rolling onto his side, pain etched across his face. âWe⌠we gotta move,â he rasped. âYeah, no shit!â you snapped.
The gorilla didnât give you either of you even a second. It barreled forwardâway too fast for something that sizeâits roar echoing off the walls and loud enough for harcourt and peacemaker to hear from the other room.
Instinct took over. You and Adrian each yanked a gun free and opened fire, bullets cracking through the air. The shots tore into its chest and shoulder, spraying blood, but the beast barely flinchedâjust slowed, eyes burning hotter.
It growled, furious, and lifted its massive hand into a tight fist. âMove!â Adrian yelled. You both dove in opposite directions just as the gorillaâs fist came down. The impact was brutalâmetal flooring buckling like foil, sparks shooting up from ruptured cables. If either of you had stayed there half a second longer, youâd be paste.
You hit the ground, rolled, and forced yourself up despite every joint screaming. Adrian was already limping toward the far end of the room, grabbing your arm as he passed.
You both sprinted across the tech-filled space. Behind you, the gorilla ripped its fist free of the floor with a guttural roar, already turning to charge again.
You both took deep breaths, staring the beast down. Even without saying it, you both knewâthere was no damn way you could take this thing in a straight fight.
âWhereâs the machine gun when we need it,â Adrian muttered, half a joke, half a dying wish. You didnât even look at him. Your eyes stayed locked on the gorilla, muscles tight, finger ready on the trigger.
Together, you lifted your guns and opened fire. The creature roared, fury shaking the walls, and charged straight through the hail of bullets like they were nothing but raindrops. You kept shootingârapid, desperate burstsâuntilâ
A violent explosion detonated by the metal door youâd both locked earlier. You didnât flyâyou were launched.
The shockwave tore through the room, hurling you and Adrian backward like rag dolls. Air ripped from your lungs as the impact slammed you into the ground hard enough that your body bounced.
Shards of metal, split wires, burning circuitryâeverything became a storm of debris raining past your face. Somewhere in the chaos, Adrian shouted, or maybe that was you, but the ringing in your ears swallowed the sound whole.
The gorilla wasnât spared. The blast threw it sideways, its massive body smashing into a tower of machinery with a bone-shaking CRUNCH, metal collapsing beneath its weight.
Your ears were still ringing when you forced your eyes open. Reality slammed back into you all at once, sharp and disorienting. You sucked in a shaky breath as the flashback to Corto Maltese punched through your skullâanother blast, same pressure, same helpless weightlessness before the ground ripped it out of you.
For a second, you werenât here. You were there. Rocks under your knees. Smoke everywhere. Rick shouting your name over the loud sounds and then nothing.
Pain pulled you back to the present in ugly waves. Your ribs, shoulder, spineâeverything throbbed like youâd been hit by a truck, then backed over for good measure. You groaned, palms scraping concrete as you pushed against the floor. Your arms trembled violently, but you managed to get one knee under you. Then the other.
You stoodâbarelyâand the entire room spun, tilting like the floor was trying to slide out from under you. You lurched forward and grabbed onto a metal table to keep yourself upright. The legs rattled under your weight.
You limped toward the far corner, dragging your foot, each inhale scraping painfully down your throat. Smoke burned your eyes. Sparks snapped overhead, sizzling against the metal scraps strewn across the floor. Nothing in your body felt steadyâyour legs carried you like they were acting on instinct, not strength.
Finally, you reached a patch of wall that hadnât caved in, and you let yourself slide down it. Your back hit the concrete with a soft thud, and you let your head drop back, eyes closing as your breath came too fast and too shallow.
Just breathe. Justâbreathe.
But your body wasnât listening. Your hands shook uncontrollably. Your throat tightened. The ringing in your ears fractured into voicesâflickering in and out like a weak radio signal.
Harcourt? Economos? Adebayo? Adrian? No. It wasn't neither of them. Its was Rick.
Rickâs voice cut through the ringingâraw, panicked. Yelling your name, calling out to check if you were okay, even while he was bleeding, even while he was the one who needed help.
You flinched, squeezing your eyes tighter as his voice echoed. The explosion that had just thrown you across the room felt like an echo of that day in Corto Maltese, and your brain couldnât tell the difference. Couldnât separate then from now.
You knew you shouldnât have rejoined ARGUS. You knew this job would drag the memories back. And here they were, louder than ever, clawing their way back into your head.
But you didnât come back for the thrill. Or the paycheck. Or the crazy cool missions. You came back for him. For justice Rick never got.
Your head tipped forward, breaths uneven, throat tight. For a moment, you let the memory hold youâbecause fighting it only made it worse. Then, through the ringing, another sound surfaced.
A voice. A voice youâd recognize anywhere. Peacemaker.
Your eyes snapped open. The room still spun, shards of metal and sparks glittering in the smoke, but your focus zeroed in. Rightâyou hadnât come back for anything else. You had only agreed to come back to kill Peacemaker. The man who had murdered your brother.
Your lungs burned as you finally crawled out from the corner, every movement stabbing through your ribs like hot wire. Dust and smoke swirled in dizzy waves, making the shattered room blur in and out of focus. You staggered upright, one hand braced on the wall, the other gripping your gun so tightly your knuckles had gone bloodless.
Harcourtâs body hit the wall firstâhardâher breath punched out in a sharp, ugly sound. Then your gaze snapped to the right.
He was crumpled on the floor, half curled on his side, one hand clamped over his stomach, as he groaned as he tried to push himself up. For a second, your heart stuttered, something twisting sharp and real in your chest,âbut instinct took over before emotion had a chance to settle.
Your attention then switched to peacemaker, who was full on fighting the gorilla. That thing had its back facing towars you. it roared as it winged its arm at peacemaker but he dodged it.
You watched as you glanced at the gun that was on the ground. you then reached to grab it.
You lifted it. and pointed it at the back of the gorilla. First you started shooting it. it roared once again as it turned over at you. Peacemaker stood behind him, and your gaze switched to him, you then moved the gun aime at him.
It bloomed inside you fastâa cold, savage clarity. You could end this now. You could end him. One trigger pull. One problem erased from the world forever. The idea slammed into your mind so suddenly it felt like oxygen: Just do it. Kill him.
You steadied your hand, exhaling through gritted teeth. Your pulse didnât even spike.
Peacemakerâs eyes widened the instant he realized. He froze halfway to standing, staring down the barrel you had aimed squarely at his head. He knewâknewâyou werenât bluffing. That you werenât warning him. This was a kill shot.
Your finger tightened on the trigger but the thunder of pounding footsteps cut through the moment. The damn gorilla burst forward, sprinting at you with terrifying speed. You whipped your aim toward it, caught off guard by how fast it was closing inâ
âand then Adrian hit you. Hard.
He threw himself into you, arms wrapping around your waist as he shoved you sideways with his full body weight. The shot went wide, the recoil snapping your arm back as you were lifted clean off your feet.
You slammed into the ground for what felt like the hundredth time today, air punching out of your lungs as your shoulder scraped across the concrete.
Every inch of your body screamed. Pain radiated from your ribs, your spine, muscles you didnât even know you had, and for a moment, you swore you heard something snap. Adrianâs weight had landed on you, pushing you further toward the edge of collapse.
Your vision blurred, dizziness washing over you like a tidal wave. The world tilted and shook, and your body finally gave in. Darkness clawed at the corners of your mind.
The last thing you remembered before blacking out was Adrianâs hands, shaking you, urgent, desperate, trying to drag you back from the edge.
You jolted awake, your body stiff and sore, every muscle protesting as if youâd spent a week in a warzone instead of a few hours. The van hummed steadily beneath you, the soft vibration of the engine oddly grounding after the chaos.
You pushed yourself upright, wincing as your shoulder reminded you just how badly youâd slammed into the concrete. Adrian sat across from you, quietly checking his gear, his eyes flicking up every so often to make sure you were actually conscious this time.
âOh, look! Sheâs awake!â Economos said, grinning as he leaned back in his seat. Everyone turned to look at youâexcept Adebayo, who only gave a quick glance through the rearview mirror as she drove.
Harcourt straightened, setting her phone down on her lap. âHey!â she said. You blinked at her, your head still pounding, every pulse of it a reminder of the chaos youâd just survived.
âI feel like shit,â you muttered, shifting awkwardly in the seat, tryingâand failingâto find a position that didnât send sharp jolts of pain through your shoulders and ribs. The van felt both too small and too loud, the hum of the engine and the chatter around you pressing against your temples.
âYeah, because fucking Adrian crushed you with his weight,â Economos laughed, shaking his head.
âHey! I basically saved her!â Adrian shot back, defensively. Well⌠technically, he had shoved you out of the way of the gorilla, so he had a point.
They kept going back and forth, voices rising and falling in a ridiculous, almost comical argument about whoâd been the real hero. You slumped further into your seat, half in pain, half in disbelief that this was how they were choosing to process everything that had just happened.
Your gaze drifted to the passenger seat. Peacemaker was there, already watching you. His face was stoneâserious in that way he always warned people with, the kind of look that made it clear he wasnât bluffing. From now on, heâd have to keep an eye on you.
But he was the first to break the stare. Slowly, deliberately, he reached for the radio and turned the volume up, as if nothing had happenedâthough you could feel the weight of his awareness lingering in the space between you.
You slumped deeper into the seat as the van rattled down the road. Harcourt sat beside you, arms crossed tight, her jaw ticking with every thump of bass from the ancient speaker system. She was visibly done.
Everyone else? Having the time of their lives.
You stared at Adrian first. He sat by Economos who was still coated in dried blood from who knew where but he was jamming with himâboth of them dancing in the seats like idiots.
Peacemaker blasted his shitty rock playlist from the passenger seat, strumming his invisible guitar with way too much enthusiasm. He kept flicking his head like he thought his imaginary hair would blow in the wind behind him.
Adebayo kept driving, shoulders swaying, nodding off-beat but happy anyway, like she was vibing along just enough to tolerate the chaos. Harcourt slighly moved her head to the beat, even though she tried to pretend not to enjoy it. While you Stone-faced. Suffering in silence.
But even with all that happening, your focus drifted backâagainâto Adrian.
The easy grin he wore. The way he pushed his glasses up every time he shook his head to the music. The stupid little shoulder shimmy he did when the beat picked up. He was ridiculous. Ridiculous enough to make your mood dip and that annoyed you most of all.
Because no matter how much you tried to stay pissed off at the world, your gaze kept finding him. Again and again and again. You stared at him. Too long. Long enough for the realization to settle in your bones like a sickness.
He was leaning against the wallâhelmet off, face still flushed from the fight while he had his hand hands up slighly as he moved them to the sound of the music playing.
And your chest⌠flipped. No. No, it lurched. Like your heart was tripping down a flight of stairs and dragging the rest of you with it. There was something about him. Something you hated that you noticed.
Maybe it was the way he kept on trying to get on your good side, or the way he had protected you back in Glan Tai and that he was stupid. Painfully, gloriously stupid. He said things without thinking. But the way he spokeâunfiltered, sincere even when he was being idiotic.
You leaned back in your seat, trying to act casual, but your eyes kept drifting to him. His face was flawless, smooth in a way that made your chest tighten. The brown curls fell just right, still somehow perfect even after the chaos of fighting a gorilla.
His silver glasses rested neatly on his nose, fitting him like they were made for himâan effortless, infuriating perfection. You found yourself staring, drinking in the details, until a shiver of awareness ran through you. No. Absolutely not. You wouldnâtâcouldnâtâlet yourself get lost in this.
Your stomach rolled, nausea crawling up your throat. Oh God. You knew this feeling. That pathetic fluttery nonsenseâthe one you used to get in high school when some older guy asked you to âhang outâ and you thought that meant something.
You wanted to slap yourself. You did not like him.
You didnât like the way he fought. You didnât like the way he talked. You didnât like how he looked in those glasses. You didnât like the warmth in your chest when he laughed. You definitely did not like him.
Except your eyes hadnât moved off him. And your heart wouldnât slow down. You looked away immediatelyâjaw tight, expression blank, like if you didnât acknowledge it, it didnât exist.
Harcourt, sitting next to you, caught the whole thing. Sheâd already noticed the way youâd zoned out, eyes glued to Adrian like he was the only person in the damn van. And, because she was Harcourtâshe lifted her phone at just the right moment and click, captured photographic evidence of your mortifying little slip.
You had no clue, not yet. But she was definitely saving that for later.
By the time you all pulled up to the video store, it was already night time. The car ride had been exhausting, loud, and irritatingâyour head already pounding before the music started blaring, and only getting worse from there. Not that being pissed off was anything new for you.
Everyone piled out of the van, wandering inside toward Murn, who stood waiting by the front desk with that stone-faced. But you didnât follow them. You slipped away the moment their attention shifted, heading straight for the stairs.
The only person who noticed you break off from the group was Adrian. Heâd been stealing glances at you the whole rideâcatching the way your face tightened, the way you flinched every time you moved your shoulder or breathed too deep. He assumed the pain was his fault.
But he didnât follow you. Adrian wasnât stupid; he knew you needed space, and he supricingly respected that. So he watched you go, jaw tight, and quietly let you disappear upstairs.
You trudged upstairs, every step sending a dull ache rolling through your body. By the time you reached one of the spare rooms, your limbs felt like they were filled with wet cement. There was a couch pushed against the wallâold, lumpy, and uglyâbut right now it looked like heaven. You practically collapsed onto it, a low groan slipping out as the cushions swallowed you.
Your coat suddenly felt like it weighed thirty pounds. You shrugged it off with a wince, teeth clenching when your arms protested the movement. The bruises along your ribs pulsed angrily beneath your skin.
You tossed the jacket over the arm of the couch and leaned down to grab one of your bags on the floor. Even bending hurt. Everything hurt.
With a long, defeated sigh, you pushed yourself back up. You werenât sure how you were still functioning, but muscle memory dragged you toward the bathroom across the hallway. The lights flickered as you stepped inside, the sharp smell of antiseptic cleaner greeting you like an old, unwelcome friend. Time to fix yourself up. Again.
Who knew hold long you took In there. Definetly not hours but maybe half. You felt somewhat better, you had wiped off all the dry blood. changed out of yout other clothes and fixed your crazy mess of hair.
Who knew how long youâd been in thereâdefinitely not hours, but long enough for your fingers to wrinkle under the sink water. Maybe half an hour. Maybe more. The bathroom was still foggy from the hot water that was running, warm steam clinging to the mirror in smeared patches where youâd wiped it clean with your palm.
You did feel betterâkind of. Clean, at least. But every little throb of pain still sat there under your skin Your body felt⌠irritated. Like it was punishing you for even standing upright.
Youâd scrubbed off every smear of dried blood, wincing each time a bruise protested the pressure. You cleaned the cut on your lip, dabbed ointment over the worst bruises, and did your best not to hiss every time your ribs reminded you they existed.
Your shirt was ruined, so youâd swapped into one from your bagâsoft, worn, smelling faintly of detergent.
Your hair, though⌠that had been a whole separate boss battle. Damp strands kept sticking to your cheek, refusing to cooperate no matter how many times you combed your fingers through them. But eventually, finally, you got it to look presentable.
You stared at your reflection for a long second, shoulders rising and falling with a shaky breath. You still looked bruised and exhausted. And the more you looked, the more your eyes started to stingâmemories from earlier crawling back in, that flash of Corto Maltese tightening your chest all over again.
The sound snapped you straight out of it. You blinked fast, wiped your eyes with the back of your hand, forcing the moment down your throat, and unlocked the door.
When you pulled it open, Adrian was standing there.
He immediately straightened like a soldier caught slacking, shoulders snapping back, face suddenly neutral in the most suspicious way possibleâbecause yeah, he had definitely been eavesdropping.
You narrowed your eyes. âWere you listening to me?â
âNoâwellânot reallyâI was justââ
You didnât even wait for the excuse. You brushed past him, annoyed, sore, and absolutely not in the mood to deal with whatever awkward ramble was about to spill out of him. He pivoted to follow you, swallowing hard like he was trying to decide if he should apologize or pretend nothing happened at all.
âEveryone already left, by the way. Thatâs literally the only reason I came up hereâjust to make sure you were alive. Nothing else,â he said as he trailed behind you, voice a little too quick.
âDid they?â you muttered, not even bothering to pretend you cared. Your tone made it pretty clear you absolutely did not.
You headed downstairs, and he stayed right on your heels. You walked toward one of the desks, dropped into the chair without a glance at him, and dragged your laptop closer. The familiar clack of the lid opening filled the quiet room.
Adrian just⌠stood there. Heâd expected you to pack up, maybe limp your way home to sleep off the bruisesâbut instead, you were booting up your laptop like it was any other night. You typed in your password, eyes fixed on the screen.
Thatâs when you felt itâthat prickling pressure of someone staring. You turned your head slightly, and he still stood there.
âWhat?â you asked. ââŚYouâre not going home?â he asked. You shrugged. "Not in the mood.â
Adrian nodded once. Your attention dropped back to your laptop, fingers moving steadily, jaw set in that donât bother me unless itâs serious way you had.
He hovered beside your table, hands awkwardly on his side, weight shifting between his feet. He clearly wanted to say something. You could practically feel the words bottlenecking in his throat.
So instead, he just⌠watched you. The steady clicking of keys.
The faint mumbling under your breath when you reread a sentence.
The light from the screen washing your face in cool blue glow.
His gaze lingered longer than it should haveâon the furrow of your brow, the line of your mouth, the way your eyelashes cast shadows down your cheeks.
He looked at you the way someone looks when theyâve finally noticed something that had been sitting right in front of them the entire time. Not some dramatic realizationâjust a quiet oh⌠oh.
And yes. You were, without question, the rudest person he had ever met. Top five, easily. Maybe even top three on a bad day.
But somehow? That was exactly what drew him in.
Because you werenât rude in the empty, cruel way people were just to feel big. You were rude like someone who had edgesâsharp onesâand he found himself wanting to see what was under them. He liked the way your guard stayed up like a fortress. He liked that he had to work just to understand you. It made every tiny reveal feel earned.
You were messy and Complicated. And he loved that.
You werenât easy to read, or predictable, or soft-spoken. You moved like a locked box that dared anyone to try the wrong key. And AdrianâGod help himâwas obsessed with puzzles. You didnât look up when you spoke. âSoooo....Are you not going home?â
âMmhâ Iâ Iââ His voice jammed up like his brain had just unplugged itself. You finally turned to look at him, brows drawn in a flat, unimpressed line. In the entire short amount of time youâd known Adrian, he had never tripped over his wordsânot like that.
You tilted your head. Waiting.
âDo youâdo you wanna get some drinks?â he blurted, way too loud for the distance between you. The sentence practically fell out of his mouth and faceplanted. âIâll pay,â he tacked on, like that might somehow fix it.
You just stared at him. And, unfortunately, your resting face translated that stare into Im absolutely about to punch you. But Inside? You were losing your mind. Because of course heâd ask now, when your brain was already mush and your body was barely held together.
And the worst part? He wasnât wrong. A drink sounded amazing. You could practically taste the burn already. Even though youâd sworn you wouldnât let this happenâGod, you really did need a drink.
You hadnât even realized you were just staring at himâcompletely silent, completely unreadableâwhile your brain wrestled itself in circles. But Adrian? Yeah, the silence was absolutely killing him.
âOkayâyeahâforget it,â he laughed, but it was the kind of laugh that sounded like it was about to cry. He rubbed the back of his neck and stepped back.
He turned away, walking slow. On purpose. You parted your lips to say his name but closed them again, then you finally took deep breath.
âYou donât have to tell me youâll pay to get me to go,â you blurted out before your brain could veto it.
Adrian stopped and turned back toward you. His brows pulled together, confused at firstâthen something flickered in his expression. Because he did remember. That one girl whoâd only say yes if he covered everything. The way it made him feel small, like he had to buy his way into being worth someoneâs time.
That memory hit him so fast he didnât even hide it.
You swallowed, feeling your pulse trip over itself. âI mean⌠if I wanna go, Iâll go. Not because of⌠that.â Something in his face shiftedârelief first, then surprise, then this shy, hopeful pinch at the corner of his mouth like he was trying really hard not to smile too big and ruin it.
âDo you wanna get cleaned up first? Iâm assuming you have spare clothes in your car.â you added, arching a brow at himâreferring to the little stash he kept neatly folded in the backseat of his car.
Adrian blinked at you like his brain short-circuited. He watched you close your laptop, still processing the fact that you had actually said yes. Like⌠out loud. To him.
âUhâyeah! Yeah, I do,â he said a little too eagerly. âGood. Iâll be waiting,â you said, giving him the smallest smile.
Adrian stood there for an extra beat, rooted to the floor as you shifted your attention to your phone, already scrolling, already done with the conversation like nothing.
Meanwhile his brain was doing backflips. Youâd actually smiled at him. Not a glare. A real smileâtiny, sure, but still a smile.
He turned to leave and immediately tripped over absolutely nothing, and he pretended it didnât happen. His heart was pounding, palms sweaty, adrenaline spiking harder than when heâd fought a gorilla earlier. All because youâd said yes. And smiled. At him.
If you could reverse time, you wouldâve. Every fiber of you hated yourself for accepting the drinks from Adrian, yet a part of you didnât want to admit that you were⌠kinda enjoying it.
You sat shoulder-to-shoulder with him on the bar stools. Neither of you had actually talked much; it was mostly you listening while Adrian spiraled into long, chaotic rants about the random facts he found online.
Normally, people who rambled made you want to walk into traffic, but somehow his ridiculous, over-detailed opinions kept pulling a quiet laugh out of you.
You werenât sure how many drinks you were inâenough that the ache in your body had dulled, enough that you felt warm and relaxed. Whenever you got buzzed, your mouth got loose. And you hated that about yourself because it always led to saying way too much.
âSo⌠can I ask you something?â Adrian said suddenly, turning his body slightly toward you. His knee bumped yours, and he pretended not to notice, but you caught the flicker in his eyes.
You looked up at him and nodded, a little surprised at your own willingness. He hesitated firstâa rare moment of actual caution for himâthen asked.
âOkay, um⌠You never answered my question yesterday. About how long you've been working for you know who?" he said. Right. That question. The one you dodged on purpose.
You froze for a beat, your gaze meeting his. He wasnât asking like it was an interrogation. He wasnât even pretending to play it cool. He just⌠wanted to know you.
His eyes flicked over your face, searching, hopeful in that boyish, painfully transparent Adrian way. And for a second, you could practically feel the weight of his curiosity.
âRight,â you finally said, clearing your throat. âUh⌠not long. Maybe four years.â Your eyes slid away from him like the answer weighed more than you wanted to admit.
The bartender returned with your drink, sliding the glass toward you with a soft clink. He gave you a warm, polite smile. You didnât return itâjust stared for a beat, grabbed the drink, and turned right back to Adrian.
âReally?â Adrian blinked, genuinely surprised. âI assumed⌠way longer. So, what did you do before?â
You let out a short, humorless huff. âWell⌠I was in the military at first, then worked for the CIA. After that, me and my brother were recruited by Waller for Task X,â you replied, voice even but carrying a subtle edge that hinted at the weight of your past.
Adrian blinked, clearly impressed despite himself. âWhoa⌠thatâsââ He paused, searching for the right words, âthatâs a lot. Youâve done way more than most people see in a lifetime.â
You shrugged, trying to make it seem casual, but the small lift of your brow betrayed that you werenât used to praise.
âWhich⌠you only did all that for your dad, right?â Adrian asked, like he was connecting dots out loud. You tilted your head at him, confusedâand a little wary. âHow do you know that?â
âI heard you that night at the Goffs! You were tellingââ
âYeah,â you cut in quickly, shutting it down before he could repeat the rest of that memory out loud. Your jaw flexed once, like youâd slammed a door shut inside yourself. Adrianâs expression softened immediately, the realization flickering across his face: heâd stepped onto a landmine he hadnât meant to trigger.
âI, uhâŚâ You cleared your throat, staring past him before you forced yourself to look back. âI dropped out of college,â you said, the words flat but heavy. âLeft so I could join the military. My dad didnât exactly love the idea of me becoming an animal doctor.â
You huffed a humorless, tiny laughâmore an exhale than anything. âHe thought it was a waste. Said Iâd âgrow out of it.ââ Your fingers tapped once against the bar, restless, your jaw tightening. âSo⌠yeah. I grew out of it.â
The look on your face made it clear you hadnât grown out of anythingâyouâd just gotten pushed out of it. And Adrian saw it.
Your fingers idly toyed with the edge of your glass, your gaze flickering to his face, almost like you were bracing for him to laugh or judge you or⌠something.
But Adrian didnât. He blinked at you, surprise soft and warm, his expression shifting in that way he got when something legitimately touched himâa tiny crease between his brows, his mouth parting like he wasnât sure what to say but wanted to say the right thing.
âYou wanted to be a veterinarian?â Adrian asked, blinking like he was replaying the sentence in his head just to make sure he heard it right.
You hummed, lifting your glass and taking a slow sip. âShocker, huh?â
âNoâyeah! I meanââ He paused, hands lifting uselessly as he tried to sort out his own reaction. âI wouldâve never thought that. Not in a bad way, just⌠youâre all badass and intense andââ He squinted at you, baffled in the most Adrian way possible. âYou donât give off those vibes."
You gave him that deadpan stare again, the kind that could stop a grown man mid-sentence. Adrian didnât even flinchâjust tilted his head and asked, âIâm assuming your dadâs a dick?â
You snorted under your breath and shook your head, taking another slow, steady sip of your drinkâlong enough to dodge the question if you wanted to. When you finally set the glass down, you shrugged.
âNo. He just⌠wanted what was better,â you said, tone carefully even. âPlus he said the pay was better. Whichââ you lifted your brows, conceding the point, âit was.â
âSo, enough about me ⌠what about you? How long have you been⌠you know, doing that?â you asked, carefully choosing your words. Adrianâs eyes flicked up, and he didnât need any clarificationâhe knew exactly what you meant.
Adrian leaned back slightly, taking a slow sip of his drink before answering. âHmm⌠Iâd say a couple of years. Not too long,â he said, his tone casual, though his eyes lingered on you for a moment longer than necessary.
âI take it you⌠enjoy it?â you asked. Adrian nodded, a small smile tugging at his lips. âYeah. Itâs fun, exciting⌠nothing better than taking bad people out,â he added, his voice dropping into a low whisper for the last few words.
You tilted your head, raising an eyebrow. âSo⌠is that, like, what you do besides work and reading random facts online?â The way you said it carried just a hint of teasingâbut despite how it sounded, there was no mockery in your tone.
Adrian actually paused to think about it. Which was hilariousâand also exactly what you expected. He searched his brain for anything else he did with his life, but there was nothing. Just work⌠and the internet, and vigilante, of course. Even you knew that from when youâd stalked him.
âHm. Wait.â He blinked, realization dawning. âYeah, no. I actually do just spend my time online and at work.â His gaze dropped to his half-empty beer bottle, shoulders dipping like the weight of that truth finally hit him.
He went quiet, staring into the glass like it might reveal a hobby if he concentrated hard enough. You watched him think, watched his eyebrows twitch in that dorky, earnest way that almost made you smile.
You lifted your glass for another sip, and thatâs when you felt itâeyes on you. The bartender. Heâd been glancing your way all night, but this time you caught him mid-look.
He was tall, with broad shoulders that hinted at time spent in a gym rather than behind the bar. His dark hair was neatly swept back, a few rebellious strands falling over his forehead. Sharp green eyes met yours, unashamed, almost daring, and a tiny smirk ghosted across his lips before he finally looked away. He grabbed a glass and began polishing it, though it was already spotless, as if the gesture was meant to distract both you and himself.
You leaned back slightly, taking him in. He was⌠decent-looking, sure. Confident without being cocky, easy on the eyes, and carrying himself in a way that suggested he knew exactly what he was doing. You allowed yourself a brief, silent appraisal before turning your attention back to Adrian, though the impression lingered in the back of your mind.
âIâll be right back,â Adrian muttered, getting up so abruptly you barely had time to react. You watched him disappear toward the restroom, leaving a little vacuum of silence in his wake.
You turned back toward the bar, your eyes falling on your phone facedown. Lifting it, you unlocked the screen and tapped a notification from a newly created group chat. Harcourt had added everyone.
Sheâd sent a picture from the car ride back from Glan Tai. You clicked it and scanned the smiling faces, your gaze eventually landing on yourselfâzoned out, staring at Adrian with a faint, unintentional smile. Heat rushed to your cheeks. Embarrassment flared, and you were just about to call Harcourt, demanding she delete it, when a glass slid across the polished bar top.
You glanced up and, of course, it was himâthe bartender. He nudged a small glass toward youâclear, sharp, unmistakably tequila.
âOn the house,â he said, and this time he didnât bother looking away. His eyes swept over you slow and deliberate, like he was tasting the reaction on your face before the drink even hit your hand.
And with Adrian gone, there was nothing stopping you from noticing every lingering second of it.
âIâm sure your face is probably hurting.â He said slightly pointing at your bruised nose. From the night where Goff had smashed your nose with his shotgun.
âYour face.â The guy repeated. âThe tequila will take the pain away.â He added. You looked down at the glass, taking it to your hand before you slightly smelled it . The smell of the strong scent burned your nose slightly.
He watched you. âHe do that to you?â He asked. Your brows furrowed as you took the shot . It burned your throat but you were already buzzed off the beer that it didnât really affect you.
âDid who do what?â You reaped as you slid him the empty glass. âThe guy. Adrian. Iâm assuming thatâs his name since I⌠over heard you call him that.â He said.
You stared at him for a moment. âYou just come up to people and ask them questions like that?â you ask, sitting up straight.
âNot usually,â he said, a small smirk tugging at his lips. âBut a pretty girl like you shouldnât be treated like that.â He grabbed the glass and refilled it, the motion smooth and confident, and for a moment, the small gesture carried an odd intimacy that made you pause.
He slid the glass back across the bar. âNo,â you said bluntly, grabbing it without a word. You downed the shot in one go.
He raised an eyebrow, clearly caught off guard by your bluntness. A corner of his mouth twitched, half-smirk, half-amused. âWow,â he said, leaning slightly forward. âRude and gorgeous. I like that.â
âIâm Quinn, by the way,â he added, as if the introduction would soften your edges. You simply stared at him, giving a slow, noncommittal nodâclearly not interestedâbut he didnât seem to pick up on the hint.
âSo⌠can I get your name?â he asked, persistent but playful. You shook your head. He leaned in slightly, a teasing glint in his eye. âIf I give you another shot, will you tell me?â
You let out a dry laugh as you smiled. From across the bar, Adrianâs watched everything. He watched the interactionâthe way your smile curved at the bartender, the ease you displayed after just a few hours of knowing him.
A pang of jealousy tightened in his chest. It had taken him days to get a genuine smile out of you, and here you were, flashing one at some bartender after only hours of conversation.
Adrian clenched his jaw slightly, swallowing the bitter taste of envy, while you smiled softly at Quinnâs persistence, completely unaware of the storm brewing in the corner of the room.
âSo⌠whatâs your name?â Quinn asked again, leaning a little closer, a grin tugging at his lips.
âTsk,â you murmured, tilting your head and letting your eyes linger on him. âThatâs not how this works. Give me the shot first, then I might tell you.â
You let the words hang in the air, soft but firm, watching as his smirk faltered just enough to show he was intriguedâand a little flustered. You could see the gears turning in his head, calculating whether to give in. Perfect.
Quinnâs smirk faltered, but only slightly. âFine.â he said, sliding one shot across the bar with a little too much eagerness.
From the corner of the bar, Adrian appeared. His presence was unmistakableâquiet, controlled, but radiating a tension that made the air feel heavier. The moment Quinn noticed him, his confident smirk faltered, then vanished entirely.
You turned your full attention to Adrian, letting your expression soften in his direction. Quinn, finally catching the hint, gave a quick, awkward nod and slinked away, disappearing into the background.
âI got you a shot,â you said, a small, genuine smile tugging at your lips as you slid one of the untouched glasses toward him.
Adrian looked at you, his eyes soft but unreadable. You were smiling, but not because you were actually happyâyou were just drunk. Heâd be lying if he said he didnât like this version of you, reckless and unguarded.
But then your smile faltered as you caught the way he was staring at you. âWhatâs wrong?â you asked, louder than you meant to, curiosity and concern bleeding together in your slurred voice.
âNothing,â he said quickly as he took the shot from your hand. You watched him tip it back in one smooth motion. His brows pulled together the second the liquor hit his throat, like it burned a little more than heâd expected.
He set the glass down with a soft clink, but he didnât look up. His gaze stayed fixed on it, like he could pretend you werenât watching him so intently. But you were. Hard. Even drunk, it wasnât difficult to tell something was gnawing at him.
âAre you sure youâre okay?â you pressed, your voice slipping out too loud, too slow, words slightly tangled.
âYeah. No. Iâm fine.â He gave a small shrug, still not facing you fully. âShould I, uh⌠leave again? So you can get us more shots?â
Your brows knit together. You let out a short, dry little laughâbecause obviously he was joking, right? Except when you looked at him⌠he wasnât joking. At all.
âWait.â You leaned in, squinting like he was a blurry math problem. âIs that why youâre pissed off?â You even smiled at himâsweet and teasing.
Adrian finally turned his head, meeting your eyes. âNo. Why would I be pissed off?â he said, shrugging so stiffly it looked like his shoulders were trying to lie for him.
You narrowed your eyes right back at him. You didnât need sobriety to read his faceâhe was absolutely, one-hundred-percent pissed, and also absolutely refusing to say it. You tilted your head. âAdrianâŚâ
He looked away for half a secondâjust enough time for the frustration to crack through his careful little mask. Then he snapped:
âOkay, fine! Maybe I am pissed!â His voice spikedâtoo loud. âBecause youâre supposed to be drinking with me, notââ he gestured wildly toward the direction Quinn had vanishedâânot him! The bartender guy with the⌠stupid hair and stupid flirty face!â
You blinked at him, surprised. He kept going, words tumbling out like he couldnât stop them even if he tried.
âYou came here with me. We were drinking. Together. And then I walk away for like two seconds and suddenly youâreââ His hands flailed again. ââmaking a wholeâŚÂ thing with the bartender!â
He crossed his arms, jaw tight, refusing to look at you now. You stared at him, one eyebrow creeping all the way up. Never in your life had you seen a grown man throw a tantrum this⌠dramatic.
âI got us free shots, though,â you said, reaching out and placing your hand on his shoulder. Adrian froze. Full-body stiffening. Like youâd hit him with a tranquilizer dart and his entire nervous system forgot how to function.
His eyes flicked down to your hand, then up to your faceâfast. And then he snapped again, voice pitching high with frustrated honesty.
âSee? This!â He flung a hand in your general direction, still weirdly rigid under your touch. âYouâre allâsmiling at some random guy one second, then touching me and being all soft the next! Itâsââ He made an exasperated sound, like a tiny dying engine. ââitâs confusing!â
He uncrossed his arms just to throw them up dramatically.
âYouâre mad, then youâre nice, then youâre rude, and I donâtâmy brain doesnât work like that! Youâre giving me emotional whiplash!â He finally looked at you, face warm from jealousy or alcohol or both, eyes a little wide and defensive.
âYou canât just⌠switch moods and expect me not to freak out!â he added, somehow sounding both furious and flustered.
By now you took your hand off his shoulder. You cleared your throat as you looked away from him and sat up straight. âThis morning, you told me you didnât want to be friends,â he went on, voice low but razor-edged with irritation, âand now youâre having drinks with me.â
The words hit harder than they shouldâve. Your chest tightened, a slow squeeze from the inside, and suddenly the warmth from the beer and tequila felt⌠wrong. Heavy.
That familiar lump rose in your throatâthe one that always came with regret and nerves tangled together. And mixed with the alcohol swirling in your stomach, it felt like a warning siren: One more push and you could absolutely throw up all over his dramatic ass.
Not that Adrian seemed to notice or care at the moment. He was too busy freaking out in his own quiet, tightly-wound way.
Your fingers curled slightly against the bar, jaw tensing.
His little tantrum wasnât helping. At all. But you swallowed hard, blinked through the heat in your face, and tried to breathe evenly, willing your stomach not to revolt.
Your mouth opened, but nothing came out at firstâjust air and panic and the faint taste of tequila threatening to make a comeback. You swallowed hard, pressed your tongue to the roof of your mouth like that would magically stabilize your entire life, then finally managed:
ââŚDude, what are you even talking about?â
It came out thinner than you meant. Softer. You hated that.
Adrianâs eyes finally flicked toward you, sharp and wounded at the same time. âYou said you didnât want to be friends,â he repeated, voice cracking in that tiny way he probably didnât even hear. âSo, I donâtâ I just donât get what youâre doing.â
Your chest squeezed painfully, heat rushing everywhereâyour face, your neck, your stomach twisting hard enough that you had to shift in your seat just to keep steady.
You blinked at him slowly, the room tilting just a little as your mouth worked faster than your brain. âI was just being nice,â you slurred, waving a hand in a vague little circle. âI know you have nothing else to do with yourself, soâI was being nice.â
It came out harsher than you meant. Meaner. And stupidly honest.
Adrianâs head lifted slightly, like the words physically nudged him. He didnât snap back. He just⌠stared at you. His expression softened in this helpless, conflicted wayâlike he wasnât sure if he should be offended or worry about you more.
He blinked a few times, trying to steady his own vision. He was drunk, sure, but nowhere near the level you were spiraling into. You were the one whoâd kept flagging the bartender down, chasing refills like they were oxygen. Adrian had watched you do it with this tense little crease between his brows, sipping his drink slow like he was bracing for impact.
Now he sat there beside you, shoulders slightly hunched, thumb tracing the edge of his empty glass, breathing carefully. Watching you without letting himselfâŚÂ react.
You turned away first. A slow, heavy swivel of your head back toward the bar. Your eyes fixed on the wooden counter like it was the only stable thing left in the universe.
The silence between you stretchedâthick, awkward, almost humming with everything neither of you wanted to say. You didnât look at him. He didnât look away from you.
You dug into your jacket pocket with shaking fingers, not even sure what you were looking for until you felt the crumpled bills. You pulled out a messy wad of cashâway more than the tab, but you didnât care. You just needed out.
Adrianâs head snapped up as you pushed your stool back.
âWhat are you doing?â he asked, voice tight, like he already knew the answer and hated it.
You set the money down beside both of your empty glasses. âIâm going home,â you said.
Adrian blinked at you. âWhatâ youâre gonna walk home?â he asked, disbelief stretching every word.
You turned your head toward him, eyes half-lidded, brows lifted like obviously. âYes. Yes, I am,â you said, enunciating every syllable with drunk determination.
âBut itâs dark out, and youâre drunk,â he said, already snatching up his jacket and trailing after you as you headed for the door.
Outside, the night air hit your faceâcool, soft, almost sweet. It washed over you like someone had wrung out all the noise and heat from inside the bar. You closed your eyes for a second, letting it settle into your skin, letting your shoulders drop.
And thatâs when Adrian grabbed your wrist.
Not rough. Not forceful. More like⌠scared you might dissolve into the dark if he didnât hold on.
You opened your eyes to find him staring at youâreally staring. His breathing was uneven, his eyes wide and shining under the streetlights, full of something tight and aching. Something he probably didnât even realize was written all over his face.
Yearning. Pure, helpless yearning.
âPlease donât walk,â he said, voice low, almost cracking. âJustâdonât.â
His fingers were warm around your wristâwarmer than they had any right to be in the cold night air. You pulled in a slow breath, trying to steady the world tipping lazily beneath your feet.
âLet go,â you murmured, not quite meeting his eyes.
âI will,â Adrian said quicklyâtoo quicklyâlike he was scared youâd bolt if he didnât say the right thing. âI will, I just⌠Can you not walk home? Please?â
There was a tremble under his words. Not fear of you getting hurtâwell, that tooâbut it was something else. Something almost desperate.
You finally looked up at him. His jaw was clenched. His mouth a tight line. His eyes? God. They were a whole messâsoft and frantic at the same time, pupils blown from the drinks and whatever emotion he was trying (and failing) to hide.
âIâm going my separate way,â you said, soft but sharp around the edges. The kind of quiet that hits harder than yelling. You stepped back a fraction, your wrist slipping from his loosening hold.
âBesides,â you added, a humorless little breath of a laugh leaving you, âIâm so complicated it makes your brain hurtââ
âThatâs notââ he cut in, shaking his head, stepping closer without realizing it, âthatâs not what I meant. You justâ you confuse me.â
His voice cracked on the last word. He looked wrecked. Torn up.
Still angry, but more scared than he wanted to admit.
âI bet tomorrow youâll be mad,â he went on, breath shaky as he gestured vaguely at you. âAnd I wonât even know why. Youâll justâchange Or youâll ignore me. Or youâll act like tonight never happened.â He exhaled, frustrated and raw.
âAnd I wonât know what I did. I never know what I did.â There was no accusation in his eyes now. Just this aching, earnest honesty that made your stomach twist.
âBut I really donât even care,â he added, voice dropping, softer, like he was trying to convince himself more than you. His gaze flicked away, then back. âSo please⌠donât walk home.â
The edge in his tone was gone now. No anger. Just worry wrapped in exhaustion. âIâll take you. Iâll walk you. Iâll call a ride. I donât care whatâjust donât go alone.â
He exhaled shakily, chest rising and falling like he was fighting a panic he wasnât prepared to admit to. His hand flexed at his side like he wanted to reach for you and didnât dare.
You watched him, and hated that you couldnât look away. Damn itâhe was getting under your skin, getting to you in a way that made your chest tighten and your thoughts stumble. You hated that feeling, hated how much it made your pulse quicken.
âOkay,â you said softly, and he turned to look at you, a flicker of relief crossing his features.
âBut I think we should walk,â you added, a small edge of authority threading through your words. âYouâre not driving drunk.â
He didnât argue. Instead, he let out a quiet breath, a flicker of relief softening the tension in his shoulders. For a moment, the night air wrapped around you bothâcool, heavy with the towns quiet humâand nothing else seemed to exist.
You stepped onto the sidewalk, Adrian falling into step beside you. The space between you thrummed with unspoken words, lingering glances, and a weighty tension that made every step feel electric.
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