#1dumpsterdiver

Brother ordred pizza. I’m hungry. Bite into it like it’s the first meal I’ve had in the past week and it’s. really bad. Ask him why, as is a good course of action. It’s ‘The Walter’.

I don’t think I’ve never not needed her. I like to think that I don’t, but sometimes I still look for her in social media, or I think the unnamed account is her in some secret attempt to find me. I look up obituaries under her name just to be sure, and I write poems about her when in reality I don’t know anything about her. Not anymore. I don’t know what her name is; perhaps she changed it again. I don’t know what new show she loves, I don’t know whose lap she rests her head in. I don’t know the name of the girl who might be running her fingers through her hair.

“you should have screamed” and risk the assaulter doing something worse? not to mention the internal war at being seen, having your dignity stripped in such a traumatizing and disgusting way, by someone you don’t know? the situation is dehumanizing enough, we don’t need a witness.

I have said stupid things when I garden.

In my head Dean Winchester ironically would have voted for Kamala. I know this because the hick who has been a family friend for years came to my house with a shirt (that was white)(which he wrote on with sharpy) that said “Trump is as orange as your carrots and as stupid as a Rooster with a bad internal clock”

I have an oddly platonic friendship with my (former) smoke shop guy.

My kids absolutely will NOT be coming to me, fighting, screaming whose turn it is on the ps1,5000. It would actually be more accurate to assume it would be:

“But your pretty”

When I was younger I was eating down writing those little stories during ELA and I found a hella old notebook from back in like 5th grade, and I think we were doing smt for Memorial Day, so we were writing about soldiers, and one of the lines in what I wrote said:

I really wish that there was more of Sam using his powers. Not like demon-powers, even though it would’ve been awesome to see that draw out longer, but I’m talking like— the visions, the literal TELEKENISIS