talkin about online friendships, harassment, and therapy;
anytime i’m trying to get helped for problems that arise online, that are interpersonal related such as betrayal or heartache
it always just... feels humiliating.
“so these are your school friends?”
this professional asks, staring at me, waiting for me to answer, notepad in hand and pen ready
no, these are friends who are miles away, whom i loved and trusted dearly despite never having been able to see them smile or touch them physically.
or these are strangers, unknowns who i do not know and will never meet
but they are all still people, just like i am
and just because it wasn’t said directly to my face, doesn’t mean it didn’t happen or it didn’t hurt
in fact, i wish it had been in person. then they couldn’t hide behind a monitor and escape the consequences of the harm they’ve caused.
yet god, it feels so shameful to be like, no, i’m hurting because of people online.