A Look Into My Attic

Hello! Just got my very own computer and am going to try and be on here a little more or even make a new account completely! 

so stressed about life. I have a new job, new phone, and hopefully a new place to call home...

sometimes I would really like to be in a relationship... There are times when I feel like - any day now, I’ll meet someone that will change my life.-  I can never seem to get over or push through the mass amounts of anxiety, fear and nausea of even starting to talk to someone. I feel so sad, miserable, and uneasy that I just stop talking to that person, come off as a bitch and shove those feelings down so deep they’ll never see the light of day again...  I would really like to be in a relationship that is perfect for me. Someone that can talk me through my bouts of anxiety and to buy, make and put together special things for. someone to wear matching jewelry with and someone I can always talk to, always see a movie with, to go somewhere with, to BE with. Someone who will protect me and cherish me and be as crazy about me as much as I am crazy about them... Sometimes I just wish I wasn’t as lonely and distant as I am... I don’t know.